L u c y

The beeping of a moniter started to sound off letting me know I failed to do what I planned.

Screw that...I failed. I Failed
I. Failed.

I quickly jerked up ignoring the I.V hooked into my non damaged arm.

"No..no..This isn't fair!" I screamed How the hell could I fail? How does one simply not die?

Its not fair....How did I mess this up?

The tears are spouting out of my eyes and Im not wipin£g them away this time. Honestly I don't even care anymore.

The door opens but I pay no mind and continue to sob like the failure I am.

"Lucy!" Im thrownback from the force of a hug. This scent..

"Natsu...?" My voice broke I wanted to say more but all I could get out was just his name.

"you Idiot..."He sounded so tired and lost that was somthing I didnt wanna hear from him. I don't like him like this..I need his Cheerfulness...his jokes..

"Im so sorry, Natsu...I tried to fight it. I really did."

He started to shake slightly and my heart broke more "N-no... please don't cry." The tears continued to fall from my eyes as his just started to rain down.

How could I have done what I did? How was I about to leave him behind Knowing The loss he felt...

Im so selfish. "God damnit lucy...Why didn't you come to me?" He pulled away and looked me in the eyes and I was apalled with how red his eyes were and with the bags from not sleeping.

"I wanted too..but I- I couldnt...Natsu I didn't wanna worry you."

He just shook his head and his hair fell over his eyes "Don't give me that bullshit, Lucy!"

I pulled my hands to cover my face as I cried, Im so humiliated.

"God damnit...I love you. You're It for me and if you never came back to us- to me. I would have lost the only light to my world..before I met you... I didnt know what love was...and once I got to be around you..I..I can't do it. I can't live without you..."

Now is the time. To start over...for good.

"I love you, Natsu." He shook his head slowly and I was confused for a moment.

"No...Don't do this to me, baby.. Please. Not until I know your not gonna try what you did again...I'm So Happy you told me you love me too but..I don't wanna lose you lucy. I-I can't." He continued to cry and I absolutely hated myself for putting him through this.

"Natsu...I think its time I get some help. I wanna change...I wanna live.. I wanna live for you. I wanna make more memories with you and everyone from the tavern."

A small tired smile finally popped onto his face and just for a moment my heart felt a little bit lighter.

"I would love that lucy...I want you to get better and to be in the right state of mind when you told me you love me. Do you think we can hold this off until...your better?"

Im sick?

Of course I am...im sick in the head so im unstable and not in the right state of mind but I know for a fact I am.

Why couldnt he just tell im sane? So what if i tried to die it don't mean im crazy...

"Miss, Lucy. Im doctor Green, I'm here to take you to your new room on the 5th floor."

Silence..

"W-what...?"
The fith floor...?

I just nodded my head and she smiled "great. I'm gonna go get the rest of your friends so you can say your "see you laters." They have been waiting in the waiting room all night."

...I'm going to the Crazy ward...
To get help.. Not because I'm crazy.. To get help thays it. I swear.

I will change. I will be there for natsu.

Hes my world now.

NATSU

Its been a long night... A really really long one. I have not said a word to everyone... I couldnt care to either. I could have lost her... I could have lost the girl I fell in love with at first sight.

Just like that, she could have been gone. She could have left me alone in this world...No I couldnt bare to live without her.

Lucy and erza are just chilling in eachothers embrace as me and gray are just leaning on the wall. Happy is off by the sink rummaging through the drawers looking for some doctor gloves to steal. Weird ass kid.

My eyes are not leaving lucy, Im scared that if I look away she will be gone. The doctor informed me that shes gonna be admitted for a few days here up on the fith floor, Thats where all the mentally ill patients are located.

She hasnt really spoken unless spoken too, Shes embarrassed I can feel it, I can feel her Guilt. It hurts me to know shes suffered so much in her life...It hurts so much that she would do somthing like that...but in a way I understand.

She felt like her world was collapsing..she told herself she was fine. She was okay just for a moment until the depression wave comes back...full force and it knocked her off her feet. Shes had to survive waves much bigger than her, she always had herself to rely on. The weight of trash people crushing her until her feet gave out and she fell, She wasn't fighting anymore...she just wanted peace.

She wants to feel whole again, Thanks to that asshole who ruined her she may never be okay again. Shes broken and she needs someone to fix her...

I'm here for her and will always be but I can't...right now She needs to get help first.

When shes out of the hospital, theres so many more hard times awaiting for both of us, I just have to be there for her. I need to protect her from the storm thats brewing...A storm that will determine how true her feelings for me are.

Lets hope we survive this together....my dear love, lucy. Please don't give up on me.