UNKNOWN

She's gone.
She left.

That just so happens to anger me.
She knows what happens when I'm angered. She knows all to well.

That dumb bitch drugged me. Then she left, during the night while I was knocked out.

Little does she know that I'm about to remind her whom she belongs to too.

She think she can just run away like that? She forgot about all of our good times. I chuckled darkly as I called in one of my trusty workers.

She walked in with the same sadistic smile as me. "Get ready. We're going hunting." I smirked and left the room with her laughter booming behind.

Here I come Lucy.

~*~
LUCY
It's been a week since my 'relapse' and I'm back to my old ways. No eating unless it's in front of everyone.

I still take my suppressants but they don't make me feel any better about myself. I fear that they will never make me feel myself again. I still throw up everything until I can't no more.

The voice has been silent since that night. I stopped taking my anti depressants because they don't work- clearly.

I don't think I have told Natsu or anyone about my eating habit, god I am so fucked up.

Broken beyond repair. Why the hell would I ever think he could like a mess such as myself?

I was abused and scarred.

"Lucy!" I looked up at Natsu as he ran into my room saving me from those stupid thoughts.

I quickly flashed him a smile and he was quick to return it. "Wanna go get some lunch? I actually wanna show you something today as-well." I nodded and quickly got up from my bed and walked to my closet to pick out an outfit.

I heard him walk out the room, I felt bad for not using my words with him lately- I'm sure they are starting to realize I'm a bit distant.

I sighed and grabbed my jeans and long sleeved shirt.

After getting dressed I let my hair down and decided to add some lipgloss and mascara on I have to Atleast try to be pretty.

As I was about to walk out my bedroom door I seen my suppressants and took 2.

Guilt was eating me away but I couldn't stop. I tried once and relapsed, they will never look at me the same if they knew my secret.

I started to tear up but shook my head and went out to find Natsu. It wasn't hard to find him though he was outside talking to lisanna. I felt jealousy burn in me and slowly made my way over to them. I had no right to be upset with her.

She knew him first. I mean he would be a fool to not like her, she's gorgeous, bright blue eyes and white shining hair. I felt a tug on my heart knowing I can never be like her.

Natsu isn't mine and he never will be no matter how much That pull I feel towards him tells me otherwise but damn...I would be a idiot to not admit that I like him.

Possibly even love..
I mean what's there not to adore? His beautiful smile, his tan skin that only he can make work. His white teeth that I swear sparkles when he smiles.

I love his whole bad boy persona. He has on black sunglasses with a black leather jacket and blue jeans. His salmon hair- which is amazing he's the only guy who can make that color work.

My heart started to beat faster and I felt my face flush.  He was so hot and here I am just not. He seen me coming and I quickly pulled a smile on my face as he ran over to me.

"Hey lisanna." I waved to her and she waved back. Me and Lisanna have gotten closer at work and sometimes at home when the others are gone for long periods of time.  She was always telling me about the fact that her Natsu and happy grew up together. Along with the others of course.

"Well I have to go out back to our storage for work. I hate going back there it's so creepy." She sighed and said a goodbye to us and we did the same back.

Everyone is warming up to me at the tavern. It kinda makes me happy, just to know that they are warming up.

Natsu started to lead the way and he connected our hands I tried not to blush. It didn't work at all he knew I was blushing. He smirked at me and I sighed "Your so adorable." I couldn't see his eyes through his sunglasses but I could imagine seeing something close to amazement in those eyes.

"You must be seeing things then, Natsu." I giggled as I looked around us. He shook his head I think I heard something rattle in there.

"Lucy. You really are amazing. Anyone who thought other wise is blind." He stopped us and now we were standing in the middle of the sidewalk. He perched his sunglasses on top of his head so I now got a perfect view of his eyes. I was staring at his and he was doing the same to me.

"Natsu-" he put a finger on my lip and connected our foreheads. Oh god. Don't die. Don't die. Is it getting hot in here? I'm really beginning to love it when he does this.

"Lucy. I don't want anyone to hurt you. I don't want you hurting yourself either..."he gripped both my hands in a tight grip I visibly gulped. "So if you ever need to tell me something, Please. Do. Not. Hesitate." When he pulled away his eyes held so much seriousness and I was afraid he would see through me.

I so badly wanted to tell him. The pull to open my mouth and let it all tumble out so he could help me- but the thought of him leaving me when he knew what I was doing to myself made me shut up and say something different.

I smiled and nodded my head "of course. I would never hide anything from you."

I'm sorry for lying Natsu...please forgive me.