I locked myself in Jazz's room.
I say at against the dorr, hugging my knees to my chassis, and cried.
My spark ached terribly...so much pain I wanted to scream.
The darkness was finally finishing me off. It ate away at my spark.
Now I'm nothing but an empty shell.

Flashback
-few nights ago-

"Star, I...I have something very important I have to ask you." Jazz said.
I looked at him with a smile "Ask away."
"Well would you- "
"Star, Optimus needs you." Arcee said as she walked in.
"Alright...I'll guess you'll have to ask me later." I said and hugged him then took off "Bye Cee."
"Bye Star." Cee called.

Later that same night
"Hey Jazz?"
He hummed in response.
"I was going to ask- " I was cut off by Bulkhead yelling "Con attack!!"

When we got back from the fight
"Star I was going- " he stopped and realized I was fast asleep.
"I'll tell you when we have time together...I promise."

End of flashback

I cried uncontrollably "Why!?!"
"WHY!?!! WHY ME?!! WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!?!??!!!"
Soon my words were covered by my sobs.
"Why?" I whispered. "Why make me suffer? Just kill me now."
I buried my helm into my knees and cried myself into a nightmare filled sleep.

-cue Lost in Paradise by Evanescence-