Like I was hoping, time passed really fast, mostly I kept myself busy with studies and that kind of kept me going on, I did feel hurt sometimes when I saw Khushi, of course she did hang out with us at lunch and most of the times I just ate and left to study so it wasn't that bad.

She sat with Ansh and Manav who gave her company most of the times, at least Manav was still going to be here to give her company after we left. I dint know what was going to happen ahead in life, if I was ever going to meet her again or anything, I dint know if not seeing her was going to make me feel any better or not.

Today was the day when I had my last paper, as soon as I was done with it, that was it, it was going to be like an end of an era, I wasn't going to come to college anymore, I had to wait for my results and then start applying for jobs, the life outside of school and college sounded difficult, it kind of scared me.

I was the kind of a person who needed comfort in everything, so I was always scared of starting something new in life just because I wasn't sure it was going to be comfortable for me or not. Did anyone else ever feel like me? Or was there something wrong with me?

"You look prepared." Ansh said as he looked at me nervously.

"And you don't look prepared."

"I tried to read and I don't even know how I fell asleep, I woke up and bam, it was morning. I just hope the paper's going to be good." He said.

"That's why you should set an alarm on your phone for every half an hour, it wakes you up if you fall asleep, that's what I did." I said.

"Only if I knew, anyway I am so stressed out because of these exams, I can't wait to feel stress free and have nothing to worry about."

"Same bro same." I smiled at him.

"Anyway, let's go get settled." Ansh said, I nodded as we both walked inside the class and settled down waiting for our exams to begin, knowing it was the last paper, it was kind of exciting and sad at the same time.

*****

We walked to the canteen for the last time, wow, time really flies doesn't it, we used to have our lunch here daily, and today was going to be the last day we ate here, I was definitely going to miss this the most, sitting here with my friends and eating and having fun, it was so great.

We found Manav and Khushi already waiting for us, I looked at her as we walked towards the table, she was dressed in a beautiful white and yellow Patiala as usual, with a yellow bindi on her forehead, and her lips had this natural tint of pink.

Every time I looked at her, all the feelings that I tried to hide or get rid of came rushing back, it was like I had no control left on my feelings at all.

"Hey guys, how was your paper?" She asked as she smiled at us, oh that beautiful smile, why are you killing me like this Khushi?

"It was great, I had read mostly everything."

"I think I am going to fail, good news guys, you'll have me accompanying you next year." Ansh said sarcastically.

"Oh come on, don't be so hard on yourself, I'm sure you'll do great." Khushi assured him.

"I hope so." Ansh said sadly.

"So you guys sticking around after lunch or you leaving?" Manav asked.

"I'll head home, got nothing left to do here. I don't know about Ansh though." I replied.

"Oh me I'm going to stay and flirt with girls, who knows I might end up finding my soulmate today." Ansh joked.

"Dude seriously, grow up." Manav said as we all laughed at him, I looked at Khushi and stared at her, she had such a beautiful laughter.

"Let's order!" I said trying to distract myself from looking at her.

Everyone started saying what they wanted to eat so I went to get the food just so I could avoid being around Khushi, I hadn't yet fallen out of love with her and if I stayed around her any longer than this, I was scared I was going to fall in love with her again.

Was it possible to be in love with someone and fall in love all over again with them?

*****

After we were done eating, Manav headed back to his class leaving Ansh me and Khushi, there wasn't any sort of emotional goodbye or anything between us because I mean we still were going to be in touch and hang out together whenever possible.

What made me emotional was that it wouldn't be the same with Khushi, maybe I was never going to see her again, and I dint even know if I was okay with that or not.

Ansh and Khushi kept on talking about random things as Khushi's class wasn't for another half an hour yet, I just sat there pretending to stare at my phone when I wasn't even doing anything on it.

Out of nowhere, I saw Ansh stand up and run outside in a hurry, I hadn't been paying much attention to what the two of them were talking about so I had no idea why he suddenly ran out.

"What happened?" I asked Khushi as I looked at her in confusion.

"Apparently he saw some hot girl pass by and decided to go flirt with her." She giggled.

"That guy seriously." I laughed, I don't know what had gotten into him lately, he was just flirting around with random girls.

We both stopped laughing after a moment and then suddenly everything became so awkward, I don't know how we ended up being so awkward with each other when a third person wasn't with us.

"So... what are your plans now?" Khushi asked.

"I'll apply for jobs, get started on my career." I sighed.

"Good to know. I'll miss hanging around with you and Ansh, it was always fun. Will you stay in touch?" she looked at me hopefully.

"Why do you want to stay in touch with me?" I looked at her curiously.

"Just... I liked your company..."

"I really wish I could, it's not easy Khushi." I said sadly, I wanted to move on, from this hurt, this pain and if I had to do that, I had to stay away from her, not stay in touch, that was the only way I could ever move on in life.

"I get it... I hope you have a good life ahead though." She smiled.

"You still don't feel anything for me Khushi? Not even a bit?" I asked. A part of me just wanted for her to feel for me, something, even if it was a little bit. Why was this so hard?

"Arnav... I really don't know how to answer you, it's not like I don't like you, I just don't feel that way." She looked at me sadly.

"I get it Khushi... I just... a part of me knows it's never possible, yet a part of me keeps hoping that maybe, somewhere deep down your heart would just... feel something towards me because this one sided love, hurts so much."

"I'm sure you'll meet so many girls out there, maybe when you start working and maybe one say you will start liking someone else and forget about me." She smiled faintly.

"So you want me to stop feeling for you?"

"If it makes you happy, yes. We all deserve to move on in life Arnav don't we, and if I don't feel anything for you, at least I would want you to move on"

"Well let's hope so then." I sighed.

There was a long silence after that, we just sat there not saying anything, my heart breaking slowly with every passing moment.

"I should get going to class then." Khushi said as she stood up and grabbed her things.

"Yeah you should." I nodded, she looked at me for a moment and then turned around and started walking out, this was when the realization hit, I might never ever see her, and I dint know how to deal with it.

"Khushi!" I stood up and ran towards her, she stopped and turned to look at me as I embraced her into a hug straight away. I thought she was going to push me away or something but she dint, she hugged me back, tighter.

"I will miss you Bindiya, I just wished things dint go like this." I said as I broke the hug and looked at her, she smiled.

"I missed you calling me that. I will miss you too Arnav." She cupped my face and stared me into the eyes with a gorgeous smile on her face.

"I hope you find all the happiness out there." She said as she took two steps backwards.

"I hope the same for you Bindiya, it was good knowing you."

"Likewise." She smiled as she turned around and walked away leaving me there all heartbroken. Maybe this was the last day of my heartbreak, after today, I wasn't going to feel heartbroken anymore as I was never going to see her again.