Is confessing your feelings to a girl always so difficult or what? Man, I was feeling terrified, like I was scared as hell to tell her about my feelings.

I inhaled deep breaths trying to calm myself down, but I was so nervous, I dint even know if everything was going to go well.

Leave that aside, the thing that terrified me the most was what if she rejected me? What was I supposed to do then? Would we remain to be friends? Would we become strangers? What would happen?

"So you're really doing it?" Anjali walked into my room scaring me a little, I was all lost in my thoughts and she walked in just like that, I almost jumped.

"I can't expect her to find out without me telling her right?" I shrugged.

"Are you sure about this decision of yours Arnav? I just want you to be sure, you're always an idiot, and this is something serious." She looked at me worriedly.

"I am sure of it Anjali, this isn't something funny okay, I love her and I have to tell her for her to at least know what I feel for her. Accepting or not accepting my love is upon her, but I have to tell her right?

I just... I can't keep it we myself, I need to know if she even feels a thing for me or not. So it is time that I finally tell her."

"Okay... okay calm down. You go tell her, it's the right thing to do." She smiled faintly as she gave me a tight hug and then walked away.

I turned around and looked at my reflection in the mirror, I wasn't too dressed up, I just decided to go for something official as I was taking her to a good place and I had to look like it.

I had planned this date the entire week, I mean everyday Manav, Ansh and I would try to come up with different ideas and plans but nothing just seemed to fit and quite honestly, by the end of the week, we dint come up with an extravagant idea, everything we thought of was kind of impossible to manage in my budget so I just went for the usual but in a better place.

I grabbed everything that I needed and headed out, I had planned all this and I shouldn't be the one being late, for Khushi it was just us going out together, she dint even think of it as a date.

I seriously couldn't just stop thinking of what her reaction was going to be.

Was she going to be mad? Happy? Was she going to curse me or try to understand me? What was she going to feel about it?

Okay, I should stop overthinking it all, I was going to get all my answers in a while anyway.

*****

I waited for her outside the hotel, I dint want to go in without her, so I just paced outside there nervously waiting for her to arrive.

I called her like five minutes back and she said she was almost there and that just made me more nervous than I already was.

Seriously, why was confessing your feelings to someone so damn scary and difficult?

A few moments later, I finally saw her as she walked out of the parking lot, and I was left speechless. She looked so freaking gorgeous.

She was dressed in a beautiful black Patiala that was decorated with tiny studs or sequins whatever that it was all over, today her clothes were of contrasting colors but everything was just black and then she had this bright red lipstick on her lips that made me want to kiss them.

She had black heels on and she was carrying a black clutch, wow everything was black today and that color looked so good on her, it just matched so well with her skin tone.

"Arnav!" She waved her hand in front of my face bring me out of the fantasy where I was brushing my thumb on her lips and trying to kiss her.

Damn that thought made me more nervous.

"Yeah sorry, you just look so beautiful I was admiring your beauty." I smiled.

"Thank you, you look great too, I have never seen you in officials. Is there something special today?" She giggled as she tucked her hair behind her ears. Her perfect silky straight hair. I wanted to touch it and feel how soft it was.

Okay, I was officially crazy now.

"Let's go in." I smiled as I led her in, we both headed towards the elevator and went till the rooftop where the restaurant was supposed to be, it was such a beautiful place.

I had searched and searched for places and rejected so many of them until google was kind enough to suggest this one.

I had made reservations so as soon as I walked in I just gave out my number and we were led to the table that had been saved for us.

"When you said we were hanging out, I dint think it was here." Khushi smiled as she sat down on the chair I had pulled out for her.

"Yeah, I thought we'd go somewhere fancy." I smiled as I sat down opposite her, we both grabbed the menu from the table and started going through it.

Like I said, I hadn't really planned something huge, it was just a simple normal date kind of a thing.

I wasn't obviously going to confess my feelings to her right now, I wanted for us to just talk, have dinner and once we were ready to leave, I would tell her then.

We both decided on what we wanted to eat then gave the waiter our order as he went to get our food leaving us alone.

"You seem so nervous and happy at the same time, is everything okay?" Khushi asked she stared at me curiously.

"Yeah, everything is fine. You tell me, how are things going on?"

"Yeah... just kind of busy with studies. I have to finish, find a job, do something in life. You know the usual worries of every adult." She giggled.

"I know... what about getting married in the future... do you ever think about that?"

"Sometimes... I mean every girl dreams about getting married someday but we'll see where life takes us..." She smiled.

"And what does your prince charming look like?" I smirked.

"I don't know... sweet and simple like me. I don't really know, I haven't thought much about that. Why are we talking about that though?" She laughed.

"It's just a question. So was your ex your kind of prince charming? Why did you guys break up? Shit sorry, I should stop with the personal questions." I said as I noticed she was getting uncomfortable, maybe I was getting too personal and she dint want to tell me things.

"No... it's really okay. I haven't really ever talked to anyone about it, sometimes I feel half the problem is there, I never talk about him, I keep everything with myself and then it keeps hurting me. I am glad you asked." She smiled.

"So..."

The waiter came with our food, placed it on the table along with the plates and everything. I started serving while Khushi told me about her ex-boyfriend.

"It wasn't really something big... we were just two very different people that wanted different things in life. We had so many opinions that clashed and we used to fight about it a lot.

Sometimes I also felt like he was embarrassed of me or something, he would never take me out with him when he was going with his friends or anything, in fact I hadn't met any friend of his.

A point came where I just felt tired, like I couldn't do it, it was making me tired and not happy so I talked to him and we agreed to break up. That's it.

Now sometimes I just sit and wonder if I had made the right decision. I mean somedays I just feel lonely and I miss him and I question things but then someday I feel like it was the right decision."

"I think it was right, if something or someone isn't making you happy, you should walk away than just suffer right?"

"Right." She smiled as she continued eating.

We finished our food and talked about a lot other things, later we even ordered some desert which was really great she wouldn't shut up about how good it was, it was really cute when she talked nonstop.

"Wow, it is good to say things out loud sometimes, feels much better." She smiled, she seemed in a really better mood after talking to me about a lot of things that had happened in her life before. Well it was always better to share stuff wasn't it?

"Yeah, I also want to say something out loud." I smiled nervously. I guess it was finally time to tell her how I felt.

"Sure, I'm all ears." She smiled as she looked at me all ready to listen.

"I don't really know how I am supposed to say this or the right words to even say it, so I'll just say it however it comes to my mind.

Since the first day you walked into college and asked me for the direction to the principal's office, I was kind of attracted to you. At that time I thought it was stupid, you were really gorgeous and maybe that was why and it was going to go away.

So I let it be but then it kept growing, stronger and stronger, every passing day I'd look at you and just feel more attracted and I realized that I had started liking you.

Remember that time we went bowling and you told me I wasn't your type and everything, it really scared me, I almost gave up. But then I couldn't, seeing you everyday, I knew I couldn't give up without trying so I did things to impress you and give you hints but nothing worked." I laughed nervously.

She stared at me blankly, with the same expression on her face, I mean I dint even know what she was thinking because she had a straight face.

"So I decided that maybe I should stop doing everything stupid and just tell you how I feel and ask you how you feel towards me, no pressure here. It's just that I couldn't keep this feeling in me any longer, I had to tell you.

I really like you Khushi, I like you a lot I cant literally stop thinking about you, and I just wanted to tell you that." I sighed as I continued staring at her, waiting for her to say something but she just stared back at me silently.