For the rest of the night, I had only one thing in my mind, I couldn't stop wondering who her ex-boyfriend was or why they broke up.

Later, we went to a nearby restaurant for dinner, we got a table and settled down. While Khushi was busy looking at the menu, I was busy staring at her. It was as usual, me not being able to keep my eyes off her.

We placed our orders and I kept looking around, usually, I always had so much to talk about but today I had nothing to say, there was just one thought running in my mind.

"You seem lost suddenly, is everything okay?" She asked.

"Yeah, I was just thinking about some stuff." I smiled.

"Oh okay. Thank you for this though, it feels good to get out of the house and do something else apart from college." She smiled.

"You never get out? I mean even with family or something?"

"Rarely, I'm quite an introvert so I like staying in the house, sometimes Piya forced me to go out with her but I get awkward with her friends, they are too loud for my taste." She sighed.

"I see."

"So, tell me something about yourself too, you know so much about me already and I don't even know a thing."

"What do you want to know?" I laughed.

"Anything. How about we start from your friends and family, and girlfriends." She laughed.

"Why girlfriends. Do you think I'm some sort of a play boy or so?" I looked at her curiously.

"The way you are always irritating me by calling me Bindiya, I thought you must be irritating some other girls too, and maybe some of them are into you." She giggled.

"No Bindiya, you are the only special piece." I smirked.

"Liar, I can't believe you are single, you can tell me the truth, it's not like I'm interested in you that way and I will go break you up with her." She laughed.

Oops, that was quite a heartbreak. All this time I was wondering if she felt anything towards me or was even interested and here, I got the answer.

It was a bit harsh though, I mean I was so obvious wasn't I? Anyone that would see me around her would immediately know how smitten I was with her, why didn't she see it too?

In my mind somewhere I did believe that she liked me, not a lot or anything but just a little bit, well I guess it all was just from my side.

Ankhiyon se dariya beh gaya... Khwab who adhoora reh gaya...
Jag bhi paray hogaya haaye... Judaa tera saaya hogaya...

"What if I was the one interested in you?" I asked.

"You can't be. I am definitely not your type, plus it's best for us to be just friends anyway." She sighed.

"Why so? Do you think I'm a bad guy or something?"

"What? No! It's just that we are two completely different people, sometimes I like spending time with you but as friends. Anyway, this is too much talk about us, don't divert the topic, tell me who your girlfriend is, I promise I wont judge." She smiled genuinely.

I wish I could tell her that I dint have a girlfriend but I would like it very much if she was, but now I knew what her thoughts regarding me were so I couldn't.

Anjali was right, I should have stayed away, I was stupid to get too attached to her in a short span on time, I mean what had it been, like three months since I met her?

"I seriously don't have any girlfriend Khushi, I have never had any." I looked at her seriously so she could believe me.

"Oh... wow. Why not?"

"I don't know, I haven't met the girl that I can fall for, besides I've just been quite busy roaming around with Ansh and Manav, I haven't really concentrated on the finding a girlfriend part." I smiled.

"I see... it's good though, someday you'll surely meet her."

"What if I meet her and she's not interested in me?"

"Then she isn't the one."

Was it really that easy? To fall for someone that doesn't fall for you? How do you even move on from that? Maybe I shouldn't lose hope so soon, I still had like six months left in this college, maybe by then she could fall for me?

Teri duniya mujhe ab na gawara hai... par tu hasdi re bas yehi sahara hai...
Mohabbat hogayi thi dono ko ek arsa hogaya... mera yeh ishq tha do tarfa ab ek tarfa hogaya...

The waiter came back with our food, which we started eating immediately, I thought today was going to be great and fun, it was surely fun and great for her, for me it was just heartbreaking because I realized that what I was dreaming of was impossible.

I don't even know why it hurt so much, I mean it was okay, I liked her she dint like me, it wasn't a big deal, but if it wasn't a big deal, why did it feel like it was piercing my heart?

*****

I dropped Khushi home as it was pretty later and then drove back home, I really dint want to feel sad and believe me, I was trying everything in my power not to feel sad, but my heart was literally broken.

I walked into my room and sat on my bed, I dint even bother to turn on the lights, I dint know what to do from here now, where to go, how to move on.

"How was your date?" Anjali asked as she walked in my room and turned on the light.

"Why are you still awake? And it wasn't a date." I looked at her seriously.

"Because I wanted to know how things went." She said as she came to sit beside me and looked at me excitedly waiting for me to give her the details.

"Well, we had fun." I sighed.

"You don't look like you had fun though, is everything okay Arnav?" She looked at me worriedly. How could everything be okay? Nothing in my life was okay since Khushi walked in, I became a completely different person, I mean who falls for a girl so soon? Who?

"Yeah... yeah. We went bowling, and then had dinner and I dropped her home."

"But...?"

"At dinner we were talking and she asked if I had a girlfriend and I told her I dint then hypothetically I asked what if I was interested in her? She said it wasn't possible, and that she doesn't like me that way, basically I am not her type and she is not my type." Did I even explain it well? I was quite confused currently.

"I told you not to get too attached so soon Arnav." Anjali looked at me sadly.

"It isn't in my hands Anjali, I did try to stay away from her, for a couple months actually, so why does it hurt so much? I can't understand why it hurts so freaking much!" I stood up angrily. I felt like I wanted to cry, I have never really wanted to cry, why was it that this was making me want to cry, was it that important?

"Maybe you don't like her Arnav."

"What?" I looked at her in confusion.

"Seems like you're already in love with her."

"You must be joking, it's been like three months since I met her, love doesn't happen so fast." I laughed at her, she was being ridiculous right?

"Love doesn't have a time limit Arnav, it can happen in a week and where it doesn't want to happen, it wont even in years. I am sorry but it's the truth, the reason you are feeling so hurt and frustrated right now is because you love her. If it was a stupid crush or infatuation, it would have gone away when you stay away from her, but if it's the same or stronger, it's clearly love." Anjali said.

"You want to tell me that I am in love with a girl that doesn't even like me? What am I supposed to do about it then?" Oh God! This was so frustrating and painful.

"Accept it, that love sometimes, is one sided, but it doesn't mean you cant move on from it. You just have to do your best and move on from it, because if she doesn't feel a thing about you, there's no point holding on or hoping."

"I still have six months in this college, maybe it will change her feelings."

"If it doesn't, it will hurt worse that it is right now."

"Doesn't mean I shouldn't try. Maybe I'll do things to give a hint about my feelings, try to impress her, do something, anything for her to feel even a little bit towards me?"

"It's going to hurt you Arnav, trust me."

"I am not ready to give up yet. I have the time, I'll make use of it, I can't give up on the first girl I've ever fallen for Anjali, what if I never fall for anyone else?"

"Arnav the only thing I can tell you is that, it's a bad idea. The decision is yours, but if you want my advice, I'll tell you to take a step backwards because it the future it will hurt way worse than right now." She said.

"Well I am ready to take the risk." I said.

"Okay if you say so." She dint agree with me, but I couldn't really give up so soon, I needed to give her time, just because everything with me happened so fast doesn't mean it had to happen with her too right? Maybe she needed more time, and I wasn't going to lose hope until I had to.