Zayn?

Damn, I should have answered to his text. I should have known that he would show up if I just ignored him. It was too easy.

"Keep Harry busy" I said to Hannah, as secretly as possible. Opening my eyes wide open, trying to focus on Zayn to not lose sight of him, but not guiding people to what I was looking at, before standing up hastily.

But as cool as possible.

I had always had difficulty to keep things a secret, it was like you could read everything on my face, every feeling, it was annoying, believe me.

"Going back to work guys" I put a smile on my face, but I was so freaking stressed out inside. Turning on my heels, I wiped my hands on my black apron nervously, I knew it would be pretty intense. The guys and Zayn had never been in the same room since Zayn left the band, and I didn't want this to happen tonight, because no one could know how it would end. At least, we knew it wouldn't end well, the question was how bad?

As I was rushing behind the counter, I saw how Hannah was trying to occupy the guys. It made me grin inside how she'd always been by my side, in every circumstances. I think she likes my up and down life. It's fun to live some crazy things through other people life sometimes, like it's sad, but enjoyable that it wasn't happening into your own life.

Totally normal.

"Zayn, hey" I decided to catch his attention, he was scanning the crowd to find me, and I didn't want him to see the others... Thankfully, the pub was still pretty packed, even if the game was over, and their team lost.

He turned his face in my direction, tilted his head, and raising an eyebrow to say me hello. "You didn't answer my text" he said, a confused look on his face as he approached the side of the counter I was standing behind. It looked like he was hurt a bit, and I felt terrible for ignoring him that way. He had done nothing bad to me. He didn't deserve to be avoided like that.

"Sorry, I've been busy at work." I half lied, and felt bad for it, again, I wasn't a liar. Most of the time. Every time I lied, it turned against me in the end.

"Can you take a break?" he asked, blinking his beautiful dark eyes, but didn't seem to believe in it. He had noticed how intense the night was at the pub.

Is it allowed to have so incredible eyes, seriously, girls could kill for his eyelashes...

Humm... no I couldn't, I already took one, and the other waiter wouldn't appreciate it.

Bullshit, I totally could, but Zayn, you have to leave, now.

How am I going to handle this? I needed to find a way to get Zayn out of here, ASAP.

"I can't, it's still pretty packed inhere" I answered, putting the towel on my shoulder, after cleaning the counter in front of him. I was so nervous, I had to keep myself busy to not show anything. To help me to make a point, I lifted my head up, staring at the room full of drunk people.

He sat on the tool in front of him, and took a look at his surroundings as well and noticed how it was packed. So, he nodded, and accepted that I couldn't take a break at the moment.

This is gonna be more difficult that I thought. I had to think quickly. "Where are you staying?" I asked him, to make the conversation. He couldn't stay sitting here while I finished my shift...

"Hadn't decided yet" he answered, a soft smile on his face.

Ok, this would take forever to get him out of here...

"You know what, why would you wait for me at my place? My mum's out of town, so I close here and come to you. You won't need to bore yourself waiting for me here, customers could be annoying at that time after that much alcohol, besides they lose the game..."

That sounded pretty sassy, didn't it? GREAT, I just invited him to a have sex with me... It wasn't like it was a bad idea, but it was just how it blurted it out of my mouth making me look like I was starving from him.

His face softened, and I noticed the little sparks in his eyes, he was happy about this, of course, he couldn't refuse to get laid...He's a man, after all.

As he agreed, I rushed to my purse at the opposite side of the counter and headed back to him, my keys in hand, I gave them to him, hastily, "make yourself at home", and felt relieved when he stood up to leave. Shoving his hand and shaking his head to say me See you later.

I released the breath I was holding and took a deep one, when he passed through the door frame.

That was close!

"That was short!" Hannah scared me, coming from nowhere, behind me, as I was standing numbly, staring at the door. She had that silly smile on the face.

"So, fuck buddy Zayn it is" she teased, wiggling, as I got back to my senses, and I laughed. Yeah, it seemed...

After all the stress, I needed a break, even if I just came back from one. When I stress like this I like to calm down by smoking a cigarette.

As Hannah went back to sit with the guys. I turned my head in direction on my colleague.

"Jason, could you cover for me, I need five minutes, girls stuff". Jason was the other bartender, he just shrugged his shoulders showing me he didn't mind. He was such easy to work with, it was actually pretty cool. He was a student, and was my age. And never asked anything when I play the girls stuff card. Guys are so funny when it comes to those things.

Before leaving the loud crowded pub, I took the packet of cigarettes in my purse before heading to the back exit, to go to the alley behind the street.

I wasn't a smoking person, but I could smoke from time to time, when things got stressful, it helps me a lot to get my shit back together. It just cleared my head, even if I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. It was a bad habit.

Sitting on the edge of a red brick little wall, I enlightened my cigarette with the lighter, and took a long drag, before blowing it up slowly. Watching the smoke disappearing. Enjoying the feeling of the smoke, entering my lungs, and felt immediately relaxed. My brain loosened up immediately.

I was about to take another drag, when Harry's frame appeared at the corner of my eye.

"Hey you" I smiled at him, greeting him. But he frowned. Making me know that he wasn't in the mood.

Was he upset by the fact I was smoking? I knew he didn't like it, but he looked too angry. He couldn't have seen me with Zayn, at any moment I saw him looking in our direction, right?

"Do you fuck with Zayn?" he asked, bluntly. And his eyebrows narrowed. Okay I had my answer, he totally saw us.

Oh god, it was happening.

Not today... But it was a wrong answer.

"Hum, I don't see how this is your business" I answered boldly, taking another drag. It was the best idea ever to go out to smoke, at least I had that to give me strength for what's coming next.

Argument.Yay!!

However, I tried to remain cool about it, taking another drag, but I was boiling inside. How did he get the nerve to talk to me like that in the first place? Of course, I got it that it pissed him off that we were talking about Zayn, but I was kind of sure that even if it was another guy, he wouldn't react well either...

I only broke a glass when I saw him with another girl... Not make any scene.

"Because, it's fucking Zayn" he snapped. His eyes were wide open, like it explained everything by itself.

"I didn't know it was his middle name" I said coldly. Where did those comebacks come from?

I knew his point of view. Zayn had betrayed the guys and no one should see him anymore. But Zayn is a good guy, and he had tried to reach them so many times, to apologize and explain himself... I got it that they were not ready though, they needed time, that was the hiatus was about. If Zayn did bad things to the guys, it wasn't necessary to talk about him that way, besides, in front of me.

"You fuck with him!" he was shoving his hand on the direction of the street, behind him. Standing in front of me, now, breathing heavily.

"Harry, stop". I said, this time calm, and I stood up from my comfy position, my cigarette still between my forefinger and index. I couldn't do this right now. So I started to walk away. But he didn't let me.

"No, answer me" he yelled at me, stopping me from leaving with his left hand, like his body was now a barrier for me to escape. I was hooked. I tried to get rid of his grip by pushing him with my little fists, but I had no chance.

Why did he want me to answer that? He already knew it.

If he just wanted to hear it from me...

"You know, Harry, for someone who just started a two years' vacation, you look pretty angry" I'd rather say, staring at his glance, rolling my eyes.

"I can't believe this" he let me go and start to pace, in the alley, looking at the ground, and running his hand into his hair, madly. He was losing his mind, and was trying to keep his calm. The way he clenched his teeth showed how mad he was. I could notice it from the light only coming from the street.

Here I was, it felt like last summer once again.

Harry was mad, because of me being with Zayn. Well at least, this time he was right about the facts.

To be honest, I wanted to shout at him. Shouting at him for being such a douche right now. Trying to blame me for sleeping with someone else. I'm not his property.

We're not in a fucking relationship.

HE cheating on me, HE broke my heart, HE left all the freaking time without looking back, leaving me to just pick up the broken pieces of my fucking broken heart. How dared him being what Jealous? Possessive? Was it his ego talking this way? He was asking me to justify myself about my personal life, and he didn't have any right to do such a thing.

"You don't have anything to say with who I hook up with" I told him, my turn to yell this time. I was getting so mad. My blood tension had multiple by thousand.

"This is my business when it comes to him" He answered, crossing his arms over his chest.

Zayn wasn't a threat to any of them, they should know it by now. The two of them always had some sort of rivalry, but I didn't want to be in the middle of it.

"Why? Do I say something about the girls you fuck with? Like the fan last summer, Taylor, or Kendall, have you seen who you're dating?" I snapped, and was pretty happy about it.

Touché. He was now glancing at the ground, looking for something to say.

So I decided to keep going.

"Does it hurt you, to see me with someone else?" I asked, trying to make a point, but he remained speechless. Of course, he wouldn't answer that question, because otherwise, I could have known what the hell he was feeling for once.

"You know what Harry, welcome in my shoes. How is it? How is it to feel betrayed, broken, seeing ME with another man. I had the chance to see you on the magazines with other girls. I had the chance to see you walk away every time things became serious between us. I had the chance to give you another damn chance, and you screwed me over, and over."

I took a breath before keeping going. I gulped hard and swallowed the tears that were trying to make their way on my cheeks.

"Are you hurt? No you're not, cause you're over it, for a long time, dating a model again, for months. So don't tell me that what I do with my life is your fucking business". I retorted.

I was now breathless after all the argument. My chest was moving up and down, and my hands were shaking. Gosh.

He stayed quiet for a while, he didn't know what to say after my long monologue. I didn't even know that I was keeping all of this inside of me. It appeared that I just buried all my pain and sorrow feelings in a corner of my brain and heart.

However, I regretted saying this, because it showed some of my insecurity, that it was still present in my head, in my heart, but it came out. Maybe it was for the best to just express how I felt, how he hurt me. Because he just flew away, and didn't have to deal with the consequences of his actions. But suddenly, I realized that I hadn't healed at all. All my scars were still there, and ready to open themselves anytime.

"I'm sorry" he mumbled to say, and now he was an inch away from me. He looked, sad. His eyes were locked with mine, and I couldn't move or say anything anymore. My heart started to pound in my chest, and I couldn't help the warm feeling of having him that close running in my body. All I could hear was my heart beat and everything surrounded me was just a blur.

"Why did you even come that night?" my voice was now more a whisper; the way he was looking at me made me lose my voice. I felt weak again, and captivated by his beautiful green eyes.

"I don't know" he answered. He seemed hesitant and reluctant to keep going, like he was having an inside fight. His hands were now on each side of my waist, and his front was getting closer to me. Catching my breath, I felt how my body flinched because of the closeness, he was getting too close for my comfort, for my own ability to shut him down, to push him away. A sting hit me in my stomach at the sight of his plump pink lips, when his body touched mine.

Cupping my cheeks with his both hands, his forehead was against mine, and I could smell his breath. We were both quiet, listening to each other breath. Trying to find peace, having an intern struggle to know when we should stop, trying to figure out if we should do this, or not.

My hands were tightening his wrists, and I gulped. I just wanted to cry, to yell, to slap him, to kiss him, so many emotions were running in my brain in a matter of seconds. I couldn't think straight.

"I miss you" he finally said, and I felt my knees getting weak, I couldn't feel my legs anymore, I was mesmerized by his raspy, husky voice, captivating me. "I can't stand thinking another guy put his hands on you" he added, tugging a strand of hair behind my ear.

His words made me feel lifted on my feet, and when he moved slightly to put his plumps lips on mine. He had pinned me against the wall, his right hand against the bricks, but I didn't want to move this time. It was like my body ignited immediately under the craving of having his full lips on mine.

Harry's face kept approaching mine, slowly. Parting his lips, his tongue licked his bottom lip, when we both heard a man voice, clearing his throat, coming from behind, at the opposite side of the alley.

"Look who's here" we heard the guys say, and hands clapping. We both turned our face to see who the hell was interrupting us that way. But it wasn't definitely a nice surprise.

Early update, hope you guys keep enjoying the story. What do you think of the book so far? Who do you think showed up? 

Next update during the week. Enjoy your sunday! Love !! XXxx