Some months had past, sleepless hours working on the vanishing cabinet, mornings spending time with my friends if not them then the 1st years from Slytherin and Hufflepuff house. After the night of 'spilling' about Hermione the 1st years first asked about gossip then soon gossip turned into homework since Snape whipped them. Then homework turned into life advice which was my opportunity to slip in things about Voldemort's teachings. At first they questioned me. Lots and lots of questions but a little bit of 'trust me' and 'I haven't lied to you then, why would I now?' so with every homework session brought a lesson from godfather unknowingly. Draco sometimes joined, mainly listened while playing with my hair. Our group got so big it couldn't take place in the Slythrin common room anymore; also the multiple other houses in the common room of another did not run well with Snape.

The first years from Slytherin got their pureblood friends involved so on and so on growing like a vine. All the other houses besides gryffindors first years were in our group thanks to Potter and gryffindor poisoning their minds about how wicked we are, overtaking the great hall when it was empty. The owls I received by godfather seemed pleased to be by my end of my mission. Draco on the other end stopped showing me his letters. I started seeing him less and less, him not coming around me anymore, when I went to the room of requirement he always pushed me away coming back to our room late never holding me just falling onto the bed.

"Darco." I turned around in bed as he came back. He looked at me startled.

"I thought you were asleep darling." He began changing his uniform to his sleeping silks.

" I know. I want to talk. We haven't done that in a while." He let out a frustrated sigh throwing his blazer on the couch.

"Maybe I'm just tired Y/N. Don't you think doing this would maybe take some time away from us!" His arms flung atop his head expressing his sarcasm and frustration.

"If you'd let me help you maybe you won't be so tired, Dray. I miss you." My voice cracked. I understood what he had to do, and what would happen if he didnt. But I missed my boyfriend.

"I have to do this on my own Y/N! They expect me to fail. They expect me to rely on you to do it for me! I will not let them think that of me and my mother. They spit on my father for his mistake, calling him a disgrace . I am making my own name and status without him." He let out a frustrated sigh holding the bridge of his nose.

"You. I love you so much" He let out a sigh, walking closer to our bed meeting face to face.

"But I will not rely on you, this is my mission." He put his hands on the side of both my arms.

"This is the first time you've touched me in months." I couldn't meet his eyes, I'm not supposed to be emotional not this emotional.

"I know, but." I moved out of his grasp pulling the blankets over myself.

"It's whatever Draco, you're right, focus on the mission, forget this conversation ever happened. Goodnight." I turned away from him, some tears falling down before he saw.

"No. I'm sorry you're right. I haven't been paying attention to you, mission or not. You were my priority before and you should be my priority now." I stayed in my blanket burrito slightly nodding.

"Can you stop hogging the blanket so I can hold my favorite girl till she falls asleep." I turn over my cheeks heating up. He reaches over wiping the remaining tears I didn't realize escaped.

"Only If you let me help you." I slowly unraveled myself as he crawled into bed pulling me onto his chest.

"You know I can't" I push my finger onto his lips shushing him.

"If there's an issue I will do whatever I can. You will do most of the work like you always do," He let out a chuckle, it's true even if I had tried to do any work especially partnered Draco would always take on the majority of the work whether I wanted him to or not.

"but I'll help, I promise." I link my pinky with his, raising my other hand drawing the constellations with my magic.

"But what if?" he leans into our pillows holding me close, bringing the blanket around us.

"I Promise you Draco Malfoy. You will not fail this, I will go back in time if I must." His lips connected with mine as he gently lifted my head to his.

" I Love you." We both whispered to each other as we pulled apart drifting into sleep.