You were always a shitty friend
And you would leave when I got sick
You never called me on my birthday
I want to call you on your birthday
So I'll hold on to this feeling
I'll hold on to this hate
For as long as I need
For it to help me

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Learning   to  Hate  You  As
A Self-Defense Mechanism,
Flatsound

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GIRLPOOLS, 2025
EGO EATER.
| Levi Ackerman

[...] I. Twin candles already burned to the holder.

LEOFLET,

     Do you remember when you came back from Shiganshina? Your skin wasn't grey like mine and you laughed and laughed and laughed until suddenly you weren't anymore, you were crying. The tears stopped when I grabbed your shoulders but I don't think the crying ever did cause I see it on your face when you think no one's watching. And I just remember thinking, if you can't handle this we're fucked fucked. We should've just run to the fields and raised horses or whatever the fuck you thought about doing when you stared out at the grass over Wall Sina with that kicked puppy look on your face.

     You might think I'm different when you see me next, but trust me I've always been here. I was just hopping from cage to cage and being told I'm free by the people holding the keys. I know you don't see it yet, but you will. I'll show you if you let me. I can show you everything from sandpipers to the sea to atoms and absinthe and everything I'm going to kill them for keeping from us. Say the word and I'm there cause I'm gonna tear that place down. I'm gonna save you from those pseudo-guardian Mitras fucks if it's the last thing I do.

     Til I see your face,

     NEIDIS.

[...] II. The beast to see Mitras to its knees.

L̶E̶V̶I̶ C̶a̶p̶t̶a̶i̶n̶
ACKERMAN,

     Let me do my thing or you're going with them. You're walking the bad line and I'll be at the end with scissors and a smile on my face if you keep playing hero for them. I know you. I know you'll throw all sense away for that fucking cow pen. So I promise, this is a warning. I want you to die fighting, and I'll do it with my teeth or hands or nails if I have to. You're on borrowed time.

     If you can finally hold me to something it's this.

     Strike true,

     NEIDIS.

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Neidis Fogg,   the Whore of Mitras
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We are trapped in meanings that circulate like blood. The sword descends. And He who kills you is not a myth, nor a city. His eyes searching yours could be a lover's eyes. It was love He fought.

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Rosanna Warren, Turnus

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Leof Fogg,   [...]
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I imagined a lot of things. That I would shine. That I'd be good. I'd dwell beheaded on a summit turning a wheel that would turn the earth undetected, amongst the clouds, I would have some influence; be of some avail.

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Patti Smith, Woolgathering

𝔉alcon
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Levi Ackerman,   Humanity's Strongest Soldier
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My brother once showed me a quartz that contained, what he said, some trapped water older than all the seas in our world. He held it up to my ear. "Listen," he said, "life and no escape."

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Anne Carson, Plainwater

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𝖎. ─────── CONTENT WARNINGS: extreme violence, gore, death, body horror, attack on titan-typical issues (war, genocide, bigotry, racism, etc.), mentions of child sex trafficking/human trafficking (will not go super in depth but i will be very liberal with individual chapter tws when this is brought up), PTSD, mentions of suicide and suicidal ideation. if there's any extreme tags that aren't mentioned here, i'll either add them later or preface the chapter they're in with it. please prioritize your safety! however, since characters are all adults, there will be sex and/or sexual tension so if you're a minor then you should see yourself out. 18+!!!! also, huge spoiler warnings for basically the whole fic. beware.

𝖎𝖎. ─────── AUTHOR'S NOTE: hello aot world i've been up scheming and plotting for this fic... i want to say that i'll be super canon compliant and correct all the time but everyone who has ever read a fic of mine will know that's just not how i roll. i'll be mixing stuff from the anime and the manga bc i think it's rather fun. that being said, attack on titan and its universe belongs to hajime isayama and kodansha ltd. however, neidis, leof, and their story is strictly off my dome, so if you plagarise i'll eat you titan style idk. don't review my work, put it into ai bots/generators of any kind, or translate my work without permission.

𝖎𝖎𝖎. ─────── frankly, i saw a broody man with emo hair and my booty started twerking itself and my laptop opened and started typing out this fic? really weird stuff... jokes aside, i put a lot of effort into this fic and i ask that you don't ghost read. although i've just developed neidis and leof, they're already very dear to me and it's my intention to put care and sensitivity into telling their story while still having neidis and levi's relationship at the forefront of the fic.

𝖎𝖛. ─────── now, a few "maintenance" details just for clarity's sake. neidis' name is pronouced (nai-dees) and leof's is (leaf), like the plant. leof is non-binary and uses any pronouns, most commonly refered to by he/him or they/them, but she/her and feminine descriptors are just as accepted. welcome to woke on titan or whatever. if anything is ever unclear then please ask, i'm happy to answer any questions :>!

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this fic is my love letter to everyone... actually every fic is but especially this one. ali f. austrxlians the bffl of the world, my measley brother always inspiring me and answering questions even if she has no idea what the hell is going on, i already know ur gonna have a hawk tuah comment and a deez nuts comment about her name + kat my beautiful angel that has done nothing wrong ever... ezra + alice who got me to watch the show, and doha thena len and mari for answering whatever dumb ass questions i had throughout planning. holly ali addi my newfound aot moots... here's to many fics to come :P

xo eden

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