Dedicated to. BhaviMehta4
Dii, this is ur belated birthday gift...

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When shravan gained consciousness, the sight in front of him created havoc inside his body. He always wanted her to sleep hugging him tight. Many times he even imagined their physical proximities in dreams. And now when his woman is sleeping on his chest hugging the life out of him, he don't know what to do...

"Suman...." He called her softly but in response she clutched his shirt in her fist and digged her face in the crook of his neck...

His eyes moisten at her gesture. This was what he dreamt of,  Holding her in his arms, Showering her with love, kissing and wispering sweet nothings in her ears, loving her day and night. Things would have been exactly this way if they were happily married.

"Sumo...." He groaned encirling his arms around her waist.

The word sumo hitted her ears and she opened her eyes within a fraction of second. Their eyes met momentarily and he loosened his hold on her.  She got up with a jerk and touched his face emotionally.

"Shravan, tum...Tum thik ho" She asked with concern and he knew she wasn't pretending.

"Hmmm...." He replied resting his back on the hardboard of the bed.

Suddenly her facial expression changed and her masseter muscle became more prominent indicating that she is clenching her teeth..

She held his collar and started shaking him....

" Samajhte kya ho tum apne aap ko, kahi ke lord governor ho kya. Jo manme aaya vo karoge. ".

He held her hands in his clutches when she started shaking him vigourously.

"Sumo leave...."  He shouted but instead of leaving him, she tighten her hold on his collar and pulled him towards him....

" Meri ek baat kaan kholkar sunlo Qutbminar. Tum koyi saadhu sanyaasi yaa Brahmachari nahi ho. Tumhari ek biwi bhi hai. Ye sab karne se pehle Apne baare me naa sahi mere bare me to socha hota."

By now her eyes were filled with tears. Dont know why, but this was for the first time he felt happy seeing those tears running down from her eyes to the corner of her lips reaching to the base of chin.

"Tumhe kuch ho jata to mai..." She couldn't even imagine the possibility of something unpleasant happening to him. She hugged him tight.

He felt hot liquid on his shoulder. She was crying, crying for him. This feeling itself ached his heart. He reciprocated the hug and both of them cried silently in each other's embrace after months.....

"Mujhe kuch ho jata to.... ?" He couldn't hold back the urge to ask her what if something really happened to him.

"To....Mai.." She pulled back from the hug and looked everywhere but him.

He placed his thumb under her chin and made her look at him

"To tum kya" He asked boring his gaze in her eyes....

"To..  to mai..." she stammered nervously because of his penetrating gaze.

" To tum" He asked her again and her eyes welled up with tear once again.

"To...to...mujhe nahi pta mai kya karti" she replied loudly and got up from the bed. But he held her wrist and pulled her forcefully due to which she landed on his lap with a jerk.

"Vaise hi jaise us waqt nahi pta thaa jab nanaji ne tumhe aditya se shaadi karne k liye force kiya thaa"
He asked looking intensely in her eyes.

Their eyes locked and they could see the pain in each other's eyes.

"Shravan tumhe kaise......" She opened her mouth to speak but he immediately covered her lips with his palm

"Sab pta chal gya hai mujhe" He gave her an assertive nod.

He took her hands n his and asked,

"Kyu nahi bataya tumne nanaji ko hamare baare me. Kyu nhi bataya ki hum...."

He stopped to look in her eyes for a moment...

"Ki hum kya shravan...." She asked applying a gentle pressure on the dorsum of his hand.... She knew, but wanted to hear it from him....

"Ek saath rehna chahte hai...Umra bhar ke liye" Tears rolled down his eyes as he spoke about his shattered dream to stay by her side till eternity.

"To fir Pehle kyu nahi bola shravan ki tum bhi yahi chahte ho... Mujhe laga ki tum mujhse..... " She closed her eyes to free the tears filled in her eyes.

"Kya laga tumhe".....He asked joining his forehead with hers....

"Choddo...Kuch nahi..." She tried to get up from his lap but he pulled her again forcefully due to which both of them landed on the bed with suman on top of him....

"Bolo naa.....Kya laga tumhe" He asked again soflty wiping the tears coming from her eyes.

"Mujhe laga tum mujhse pyaar nhi karte...."

She clenched her eyes thinking about the day when he called her selfish, manupulative and what not  in front of the pct workers. How he explained her 4 kinds of women, duties of a wife and asked her to keep aditya's bed warm in preekar's marriage party. Those venemous words peirced her soul with thousands of arrows.... She started believing that he never loved her. Because love isn't temporary, and if its temporary then how can u call it love....

She got up from top of him and sat beside him looking at the ground after remembering those hateful words....

"Sumo.... Dekho meri taraf" He pleaded her with his eyes....

She looks at him and he takes her face in his hand, wiping her tears with his thumb....

"Pyaar ka matlab bhi nahi pta tha tabse pyaar kiya hai maine tumhe...." He confessed with moist eyes....

"Shrav....." She parted her lips to speak but he kept his finger on her lips....

"Shhhh..... Aaj nahi sumo.... Aaj mujhe bolne do"....

He pleaded her not to stop him from opening his heart in front of her today.....He has been suffocating from inside for all these years keeping all the trash piled up in the chambers of his heart..

"Bachpan me tum ek behad matlabi aur bigdi huyi ladki thi jo sabko apne isharo par nachana chahti thii.... Tumse pyaar kyu hua aur kab, nahi samajh aya mujhe. Bas ho gya. I loved U"

She waited for almost 11 long years to hear him say those 3 words to her. And now when he said those words, she don't know how to react. Whether to scream and tell the whole world that he loved her or to cry over her fate that he said i loved u and not i love u.

She wanted to see her future with him but his confession brought them back to the past.

"Dil nikaal kar hatheli me rakh diya thaa tumhare, aur tumne.... tumne us dil ko itni buri tareeke se thoda ki aaj bhi ye dil kisise judne se pehle hazaaro dafa kaap uthatha hai"....

His eyes reflected the pain, the anger and the fire with which he was survining all these days....He gave her his heart but what she did, she crushed his heart under her feet and went to another man.

Her eyes welled up with tears after realizing the magnitude of pain she gifted him in return of his love.....

"Nanu ke baare me socha, but mere baare me.... Ek baar mera khyaal nahi aya tumhe. Nahi socha tumne ki shravan apni sumo k begair kaise jiyega...."

He accused her of insutling him and his feelings....

"Bahot Mahan banane ka shauk hai naa tumhe, apne is shauk ko pura karne k liye tumne meri bali chadhaa dii....Mera pyaar to bas mazak ban kar reh gya"

He blamed her for making joke out of his love.
She could have handled everything in a matured way if she wanted no....But no, she preferred to sacriface her love for her family's happiness. And what about him...his happiness. Dont he deserve to be happy.

"Apno ki khushi ki bahot chinta hai naa tumhe. Unki khushi k liye kuch bhi kar sakti ho naa tum.... Kya tumne kabhi bhi mujhe apna nhi samajha suman....Mai to tumhe apni jaan banakar baith gya tha suman, fir kyu tum mujhe apna nahi paayi...."

She looked everywhere but him.

"Apne nazare kyu chura rahi ho. Har baar ankho me aakhe daal kar ladti zagadti hu naa tum. Look into my eyes and say it dammitttt...."

His shout almost screamed her. But he calmed himself. Today he want to end things for gud and any wrong step by him may lead to destruction of their life.

"Bolo naa suman, Mera pyaar kaha kam pad gya jo tum kisi aur ke paas jaane ke like taiyaar ho gyi.... Aisa kya thaa jo aditya tumhe de sakta thaa par mai nahi....kisi cheez ki kami hai kya mujhme....Bolo naa, ab chup kyu ho.....  "

His throat dried knowing how much his word would affect her. But if he dont spill out the venom now, then he would have to spend his entire life with it...

She chose someone else over him. Was there something which he couldn't give her that made her to reject him....

Rejected.... That was how he felt when aditya announced that suman has accepted her proposal after preekar's marriage ....

"Naa....Nanu....Nanu ne kaha tha...wo..wo dawai....." She said in between her sobs.. The lump formed in her throat was increasing making it difficult for her to speak....

" Ye baat tum bhi acchese janti ho aur mai bhi ki koi bhi tumhe majboor nahi kar sakta jab tak tum khud naa chaho.... Agar tumne ek bhi kadam mere aur badaya hota sumo to i swear tumhe in sab se dur bhagaa kar le jata... Kabhi kisi ko tum tak nhi pahochne deta...Itni deewani thi meri mohobbat...."

He said with fierce in his eyes.... And she knew he mean it.... If she confessed her feelings before, he would have never let anyone to separate them, Not even his father. He wouldn't have mind hiding her from rest of the world to keep her for him.... Such was the intensity of his love...

"Meri naak ke nichese wo tumhe le jaa rha thaa aur mai sirf tamasha dekhta reh gya....Jab bhi tumhe chuuta thaa to man karta thaa ki use wahi pe jaan se maar du, par yu chhune ka haq bhi to use tumhine diya thaa naa, to fir mai aditya ko galat kaise kahu."

Kaise soch sakte ho tum ki mai kisi aur ko mujhe chhune ka haq dungi...Chhhii, Kaise bol diya tumne ye.... Agar aditya mujhe hath bhi lagata to pehle mai use aur bhi apne aap ko maar daalti, Lekin mai use kisi bhi kimat par khudpar haath nhi daalne deti, samjhe tum....."

She held his collar in her wrist... How can he think this low of her. How can he think that she can give someone the right to touch her body... Only he has this right and no one else. Even if she was married to aditya, she wouldnt have ever let him take shravan's right on her heart and soul....

"Mai usse pyaar nahi karti thhii.  Maine sirf tumse pyaar kiya hai shravan, Sirf tumse... Suna tumne, sirf aur sirf tumse...."

She cried profusely holding her collar. How to explain him that he is irreplaceable.... He wouldn't have ever allowed aditya to replace him.....

"Ye kaise pyaar hai tumhara sumo, Jise tum yu ki har kisi ke liye qurbaan karti firti ho..... Agar itna asaan hai apne pyaar ko dil aur dimaag se nikaal pheknaa, to mujhe bhi batao, kaise kar leti ho tum sab ye...."

He said pressing her hands tightly.

"Papa ne maa ko apne dil se nikaal kar phek diya, Aur  Maa and tumne mujhe...."

He said furiously.. his eyes were turning redding and boiling with anger... Why can't he just throw the loved one out of his life just like they throw him.....

"Tumhe nirmala aunty n papa ka kaise...."

"Mr Ramnath Malhotra ki diary se.... Us din jab tumhe dr arora check karke gye, uske baad mai papa k room gya thaa...Wo to nhi thhe...but waha bed par ek black diary padi huyi thii.... Diary khuli thii aur pages udd rahe the isliye mai unpar paper weight rakhne wala thaa, tabhi usme se ek letter uda jisme... jisme papane apne saare gunaah qubool kiye...."

Tears brimmed out of shravan's eyes remembering how shattered and broken he felt after reading that letter in which his father confessed how brutally he separated nirmala from shravan and how he blackmailed sumo to stay away from shravan if she wants to see preekar together......The person he trusted the most fed him lies all these year...

"Tumhe pta hai, letter padne k baad maine kya kiya....Mai maa ke paas gya.....Unke driver ne bataya ki wo delhi airport gyi hai...To unke peeche peeche bhaaga...."

Now it made sense to her.... He went to airport for meeting his mother, but after tracing the location ramnath thought that he might have went to london as he had meeting with elites in london the other day.....

"Par waha jaa kar kya dekha, Nirmala ahuja apne bete aditya se bol rahi thii ki unka kisi bhi malhotra ke sath koi rishta nahi hai.. Aditya unka eklauta beta hai aur wo uska saath kabhi nhi chhodegi...."

He laughed sarcastically remembering how he heard the conversation standing behind them in the airport....How his mother refused to keep any relation with malhotras including him..... And here he was thinking that she was deprieved of her right on her son...

"Toot chuka thaa mai sumo...isliye 2 din khudki pehchaan dhudne bhatakte raha.... Raasta baar tak jaake ruka aur mujhe laga meri manzil aa gyi..... waiter sharaab daalte chala gala aur mai peete... Itna piya, itna piya, itna piya ki mujhe khudka naam bhi yaad nhi rha.... "

His life turned upside down in those
two days...Drowning himself in drugs and alcohol ,he tried every possible thing to forget about all the heartbreaks....But no, everytime he ended up crying and yearing for the love of his loved ones..... When two of his client recognized him in the bar, they dropped him back to Malhotra Mansion....

He cried hugging suman... She patted his back to ease his pain....

"Bas ab aur nahi.....Ab aur nahi tootna chatna mai suman, samhal lo yaar mujhe.... Mai jee nhi paa rha hu...." He begged hugging her tightly and after sometime his whimper died and he slept in the same position resting his head on her shoulder....

She laid him on the bed and kissed his head.... They slept hugging each closer to their chest.

💗Zindagi Bada lamba safar hai,
Aur har lambe safar me kaanch ka saaman tut hi jaata hai....
Hum mese har ek ke seene me aisa hi kuch kaanch ka toota hua hai,
Shayad usi tooti huyi cheez ko hum dil kehte hai...
Is dil ki fitrat kabhi akele nahi rehta,
Judta hai to kisi dusre dil ke saath...
Mai bhi aur tum bhi,
Adhoore thhe jo mukkal hone ke liye ek dusre ki talaash kar rahe thhe...

Aahat teri paakar jaage, khwaab le angadaaiyaa....
Dhundate thhe kabse thujhko,
Mai aur meri tanhaiyaa....💗

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Precap~ Suman- Shravan please, tum ghar chhod kar chale gye to papa bardaash nhi kar payenge..Ruk jaao...please.

Shravan- Tum nahi, hum....

Suman- hum...(shocked)

Shravan- Its ur decision sumo, mere saath london chalna hai yaa fir is baar bhi mere khushiyo ka balidaan dena hai family ke liye.....
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Author's Note.
Hey all, ...Sorry for late updates....No no no,  jhooti nahi marna....Because update long hai😂 2700 words ki😉

And thank u for the 105 follow...😊 I love each one of u....😘 Muaaahhh...

About the update, so what do u think would be suman's decision. Will she go with shravan or stay with Malhotra Family....Any guesses...

Well next chapter is going to be second last chapter of this ss....Then divorce ko mai divorce de dungi😂😂😂😂😂😂....
And sorry for so many hindi dialogues,  actually during emotional scenes i prefer hindi😅 because its easy for me to express my emotions in hindi.....

So next chapter on public demand....If i get 90+ votes within 72 hours (3 days), then next chapter on next sunday....if not, then no problem...I'll update next chapter on 18 june after my theory exams😅... (Yaar june me university exams hai meri😅,n i need the month of may for preparation....)

So bye for now....90+ votes, big task for u😎😎😎😎.... Aur nikalwaao  mujhse jabardasti update😒😒...

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