(a/n: short little jeongguk focused chapter for ya. sorry it's not longer, the past 2 weeks have been busy asf.)

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jeongguk was in a predicament.

he wanted more.

more out of life.

now that he had a solidified relationship with taehyung, he realised that there were still other aspects of his life that needed serious tending to.

when he asked taehyung to be his, it felt like all his problems were resolved but, in reality, jeongguk only had 2 things going for him.

a great boyfriend and a great family. that family being jiwoo and the other guys.

other than that, jeongguk was still a mess. the only thing he'd gained since this time last year was jiwoo and taehyung.

he decided that he actually wanted to try at something. easier said than done, yes, but a step in the right direction at least.

i mean, i'm only twenty, for fucks sake. jeongguk thought to himself.

it occurred to him recently that he'd been treating his life as if it were nearly over since he was a teenager when, in reality, he wasn't even of legal drinking age.

that's how he found himself here. sprawled out on his bed with a sketchpad in front of him.

art.

it'd always been what he loved.

when he was younger (not to say that he was exactly "old") you'd always catch him with a pad and pencil in hand or a camera around his neck.

in all honesty, that was the only thing he missed about being younger.

back then, everything was shit. his highschool years were, by far, the worst years of his life. however, he found his escape through art.

unfortunately, there came a time when even art couldn't save him.

a time when he didn't even have enough energy in him to pick up a pencil.

a time when he'd disassociated so far that he was convinced neither art nor himself were even real.

a time where he was too empty and numb to even think of any emotion to put on paper.

a time where he could barely sit up straight without almost passing out from hunger and exhaustion.

a time where his wrists were too sore for him to draw without wincing.

but he was past that now. well, mostly.

and he wanted to find that love again. the times before he'd let go of art.

a time where he could lock himself in his room, shove his headphones in his ears and draw for hours.

a time where he could sketch out his feelings and throw them in the trash as a release.

a time where he could be inspired by anything and everything.

a time where he could see the artistic potential of any situation, no matter how shitty it was.

a time where art was the only thing other than his friends that made him smile, made him happy.

all of a sudden, his bedroom door swung open revealing his boy; taehyung.

"hey baby." taehyung greeted but it sounded more like a question as he looked around the room with a puzzled expression when he noticed all the paper, paint and pencils laying around.

"hey." jeongguk replied, barely looking up from what he was sketching. he hadn't been expecting taehyung but nowadays they would just show up at eachother's homes unannounced so he wasn't exactly surprised.

"have you been doing this all day?" taehyung asked as he sat on the bed next to him, careful not to sit on any of this work.

"uh huh."

with that, taehyung picked up a book that looked like it'd seen better days and opened it. each page had a complete drawing on it and they were all dated from 6 to 3 years ago.

"is this your old sketchbook?"

finally looking up, jeongguk replied, "yeah. it's the one i used in highschool. from freshman to junior year."

"what about senior year?" taehyung asked, flicking through the pages as a small smile graced his features, slowly growing wider with each turn of paper.

"life was shit. i stopped drawing then." jeongguk sighed, falling back onto his bed.

as he said that, taehyung got near to the end of the book. the last five or so pages were blank and the last few drawings before were sloppy and unfinished in comparison to the others.

out of the blue, taehyung asked, "back then, what did you want to be when you grew up?"

"not what i am now." jeongguk breathed out a dry laugh.

taehyung shoved him, "i'm being serious."

as taehyung lay back beside him, jeongguk thought. well, he stared at the ceiling while he pretended like he was thinking. in reality he knew exactly what he wanted to be back then.

"a tattoo artist."

taehyung looked to the side at him, "really? that's so cool."

"yeah. i mean, i loved art and i knew that i wanted to get tattoos and piercings when i was old enough so i always pictured myself working in a tattoo shop or something like that. it's also one of the more stable artistic job since making it as a painter and shit like that is so difficult." jeongguk said.

after a while, taehyung spoke up, "you should do it."

"you think so?"

"yeah! i mean, you hate your job and it's only some shitty weekend job that barely pays you. you're still just twenty, you have so much time to train for it and really commit to it. you should keep drawing, sign up for some courses and then get a tattoo license. you're art is amazing, i'm sure any studio would love to have you. i already know you'd be so much happier." taehyung spoke honestly.

jeongguk was silent for a while, thinking. for real, this time.

"i mean, i guess i could try."

taehyung jumped on top of him, shaking him around, "do it! do it! do it!"

jeongguk pushed taehyung off of him, onto the bed, "get off, you bitch!"

"never!"

with that, they were chasing eachother around the house. eventually, seokjin was also following behind them to stop them from destroying his living room.

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•1109 words
•not edited or proof-read
•HEYYYYYY
•sorry it's been a hot minute, i was on vacation in cyprus for a week & had stuff to do this weekend
•my exam results day (+ school enrollment day) is in two days and i'm terrified because i don't know if i met the entry grades for biology :/
•i'm agnostic but pray for me babes
•STAY SAFEEEE!!!
•love you all <3

xoxo,

nixy.