Most of the time I just feel sad
And it's not even about the day I had
It's just my head can't comprehend
That I had nothing I needed to repent
It's like it tortures me with thoughts that weren't originally mine
It all started on the day I said I'm fine
A simple four letter word
That it meant something more would be absurd
But it was, it said I was drowning
And I needed saving
But no one came, no one knew
Because I wore a pretty mask, just like you
Then it changed to what does it matter
It just made me feel sadder
Knowing the world turns without my joy
And then all the pieces fell
It began with a simple flirtation, an idea really
But I couldn't understand it clearly
The first one failed
It quickly faded
But I tried again and with the first drop
I knew I was caught
How it sings my name
But soon more came
Until I had no control
I would use any excuse just to fall
I just needed to edge another between
Just to calm down my inner scream
But that too wouldn't be enough as I was pushed further
and further
Until I couldn't recognize myself in the mirror
I was bloodied and bruised
The addiction I had I had overused
But still I couldn't turn away
No amount of deed or words would let it stay at bay
I was broken beyond repair
They way I wasn't stopped wasn't fair
I keep thinking that someone should've seen
I wasn't what I should've been
They could've stopped when I still had a chance
But they didn't want to deal with that dance
So I just fell, and kept falling
My soul kept on calling
But no one heard
And that's the part that really hurt