began so subtly, at night so vast
I began to carve for myself this mask

Layered upon this beauty that will rot,
The masquerade is all I got
Red lips smile at the world, but its a lie
Because inside I only wish to die
But fear's hold on me is too strong
Yet, the will to fight is long gone

So the deceit I crave,
It tells me how to behave,
how many words can be written before I give in
How many nightmares must I live in
What will finally cease this heart
:It only tears me apart

Everything is all so wrong,
I've know this all along,
But who am I to say,
I'm just the girl that never was okay.

What is a little death of me to you,
You showed me what you wanted me to to do
not wanting to see the disappointment layered within your eyes,
I abide,
there was no place for me to hide,
And so the rest of me died.

A hollow shell, but still so much rage within
I don't even know where to begin,
I built my throne upon my own pain
the scars, they remain

And still, in the dark I crave it
But in light of day, I hate it

Ii will always go back to it,
Never be able to abandon iT