CHAPTER 11

It was FINALLY  the end of the day, I have Gym as my fourth period class so I'm always tired walking home. Now I'm gonna look all sweaty for Edd. Do you think he likes sweaty guys? Of course he doesn't! He hates germs! *sigh* You know, that really sucks, I wanted today to be the day I told Edd that I had feelings for him. I don't really care if he doesn't want to be more than friends. Or if he was disgusted by me or any thing like that. I just want him to know.

Its been eating at me since the day Kevin made me kiss him or else he would tell every one my middle name!! And you KNOW how much I HATE my middle name. Skipper, how embarrassing. But of course he just had to break his deal and tell all the kids in the cup de sac. He did it outta spite! Its reasons like this why I hate him. He always has to make my life even more of a living hell than it already is. He always has to be better than me. When we were kids, he had all the friends, all the jaw breakers, all the cool stuff, and every body loved him. They still do! I just wish I had something for myself. For me too enjoy. Something he doesn't have. Edd just doesn't understand that. He's to nice to everyone. And when I say everyone I mean EVERYONE. And hes so convinced that Kevin's change. I mean, I love Edd, I really do. But he doesn't believe that anyone is really bad. That there are people in the world that are just cruel! But I know. I know, that there are people in thus crazy world that are just plain wicked! And Kevin is one if them. He may have everyone else fooled, but not me! I'm too sharp for that. I know! I know who is evil and who is not! You can see it in there intentions.

But today is it. It may not be perfect, but I want him to know that I love him. Not just because if his looks, or the things he is capable of, but for who he is on the inside. For I Double D I got to know growing up. The kiss just may have helped me relise it.

He told me to wait for him outside by the front of the door. I didn't know exactly what I was going to say, but I think I should just flat out tell him. You know, give it to him straight. Not even lumpy knows. I waited for a couple mins, whiles I was waiting I was thinking about what to say. I saw the doors open, that was him! It must be! 'OK eddy you can do this'. I say trying to mentally prepare myself. What's the worse that can happen? He shuns me completely, or he
refuses to be friends with me any more. He becomes completely appalled and leaves me forever alone and heart broken. OK , a lot can go wrong, but it can't be worse than any of those right? I see a figure come out of the doors, its, its..... Just Lumpy.  Great.   
Not that any things wrong with lumpy, but , you know. He's a moron  with no chin.
He seamed unusually happy today. But I didn't want to ask him why, mostly cuz I didn't care why, and if o asked, he'd probably never shut up!

" Hi Eddy"
" Hello Ed" -_-#
That was it , there was then a long silence.
" Where's double d?" He broke the silence.  -_-# and I was enjoying it too.

" I don't kn..."
" THERE HE IS"!  He exlamed and pointed to Edd who was coming up behind me.

" Greetings Eddy! I hope I did not keep you waiting too long. I had some.. Things to take care of"
What kind of things?
I wanted to ask that, but I didn't.

" No need to explain, ready go" I said anyways.
" Yes." He said with I big smile on his face.
We started to walk, maybe I should tell when I get to his place.

We ended up taking the long way home since it was a nice day for a walk. According to Edd anyways, if I hate running, what makes you think I would like walking long distances? But I did it anyways since it would make him happy. I think I would do just about anything to make him happy. I don't know why though he doesn't seam to have any real feelings for me at all. Maybe he does deep down. Hopefully, if I'm lucky. I hope he will like me back.

( Time skip)

" Guess what what!!!!" Ed said excitedly, maybe this was what he was so happy about.

" What is it Ed?" Double D said.

" I through a ball over the metal pole! And now the coach wants me to try out for the foot ball team!!"

" Thats great Ed, I am very proud you. Aren't you Eddy?" He said looking me straight in the eye. I felt myself getting lost in his gaze again. But yet again, he was expecting an answer.

" Yeah, yeah, very proud "
He giggled, covering his smile. * Sigh* that smile. Its my favorite one~.

We walked Ed to his house and then towards Edds house. I watched as edd opened his door.  This is it, I'm gonna tell him how I really feel.
Deep breath.

I fallowed him into his house.
Iveas getting nervous, Edd looked kind of nervous too. What was worrying him.
" Uh, hey Edd"

" ...yes eddy? "
" I have.. Something to tell you.."
He started to fidget with his shirt, and seamed kind of in easy, what's going on?
" Actually Eddy, I have something to tell you too."
Oh?
" You go first "
" O-Okay, I, umm. I ha.. I have." He kept stuttering. Wow, this must be serious.

" You wanna take a seat first Double D?"
" That would be best.."
He took a seat down on his couch.

" What is it you wanted to tell me?" I asked him again.

" Eddy, I. It would as though I have feelings for..."

I leaned in.. Who does he have feelings for!?!
" .. Kevin".
He whispered. I couldn't really hear what he said.
" What was that Edd?"

" I have feelings for Kevin".

DO MY EARS DECEIVE ME?! Edd likes Kevin. Edd likes Kevin. Kevin. He likes him. Him.
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fter that I couldn't hear anything. I felt like I just got run over by my brothers truck. Like I have just been crushed into some kind of paste.
WHAT DOES HE HAVE THAT I DONT??!
Soon my heart ache turned into rage!

" KEVIN?"
he seamed kind of freaked out and upset with my sudden outburst.
" You like SHOVEL CHIN!?? Why!?"

" Eddy, I believe he has changed..."

" CHANGED!? Edd, he has bullied us for years! He hasn't changed a bit. He's still a jerk".

" Eddy, he's not a jerk.."

He looked saddened. What's going on?
Kevin? Of all the bad things that could have happened. He likes Kevin instead. The enemy. I couldn't take it anymore. I gotta get out ta here.

" I'm sorry Edd, I can't, I just" I haven't cried since I was in the fifth grade when my family member died. I was sure I have forgotten. Well, I was just about to learn again. I can feel my eyes burning up.
" I just, I gotta go.." Then I ran our the door. I just couldn't take it. I thought I was going to be ready to take rejection. But I'm not.

Kevin always found a way to make my life a living hell.

I still have a shot right? He only likes Kevin. Its not like there dating right?
I can change his mind right? God , please tell me I'm right!

OK, OK. I .. I just have to make him fall for me.

But how?