Unknown Wants
*Frisk's POV*
For that whole week, Asriel had visited and gave me the same offer.
Sometimes, he would add things on.
"You can order anyone to do as you wish."
Refusal.
"You can live in peace, and have anything you want!"
Refusal.
"You can have food and luxury! Living a life of glory! Just agree! One word Frisk, one god damn word!"
Each time, my determination helped me refuse, and I would look him coldly in the striking blue eyes as I replied, "No."
The word gave me pleasureful shivers and I would gulp down a smile each time I saw the Prince's furious face, and his turning march of defeat.
Then I would gulp down the food shoved in my mouth by Leah.
To me, my determination felt as if it was growing, yet it felt faded as well.
Like something was wrong with my soul.
Taking the chance that no one was watching, Leah's back turned to me, I took it out and could see the bold red as it glowed in the dark room.
I could feel it's power, just in front of me, and I had a moment of wonder on why I never felt that power inside me.
The power was like pressure, something that pressed against my skin yet wasn't truly there.
It was a strange feeling, and I noticed the color pulsed just like the Echoflowers back in the Underground.
Which made me wonder about the flower, the one that Alphys had forced into blooming.
The pulse was gone, meaning it's pure existence, was taken from it.
That's why it was so unnatural, and I began to think Alphys had noticed as well.
Perhaps that is why she was so hesitant on everything.
Not only was I thinking about Alphys, I was also thinking of a way to escape.
Based on all the knowledge I gained from guards talking to Leah, I learned about how they are also confused on why Asriel is keeping me chained up in a dungeon.
Leah never tells, because she was sworn to secrecy for even being in the same area as the Prince and I.
Though it was pestering, those guards.
They would give the same news on the same thing every time they visited.
About the Prince and his family, telling people that peace was upon us. About Alphys and her study of Psychology, and of criminals they had caught that week.
Except one thing I would always listen to, was the news on G.
"Hardly leaves his room," One guard said as he leaned his back on the bars, my eyes glancing up at him with a cold stone glare, "Comes out for food, bathroom, and when Asriel's giving announcements to the world, G is always beside him on his right side."
With a grin he continued, "I smell smoke from his room when I pass. Perhaps he just smokes and drinks all day."
A beat in my heart made me long to smell the cigarette smoke again!
Shoving that wish away, I kept my head down and listened.
"Pfft," Leah replied as she folded her arms, "He's always been a fool. I just don't understand how he just... decided to change. Would he really just give up on everything..."
"Well I hear he's gotten everything he's wanted. Asriel and Asgore talked about it, and they said that all he wanted was to be the one in power. Now he is, so I don't expect him to be a threat anymore."
'At least to you,' I thought to myself, trembling from the numbness in my handing arms, 'He will always be a threat to me.'
Now, I never gave much thought about G, mostly because he had nothing to do with my escape plan.
Even without a plan, I knew that he wouldn't be in it no matter what happened.
Except one day, I was getting ready to speak with Asriel, memorizing the times he came and tried to make me agree.
Instead of Asriel's footsteps, and his swishing cloak, I smelt the familiar smell of cigarettes, a smell I had long missed; and I saw another cloak, similar, except it was covering black boots and jeans.
Knowing exactly who it was I wouldn't dare look up into his eyes, into his face.
His sickly terrible betraying face!
The moment I heard the scraping metal on the black stone I felt the words crawl out my throat.
"Get out."
His footsteps were coming closer, slowly, cautiously, even through the strands of hair I could see the black boots that were accompanied by a swishing cloak.
"I said get out!"
The words were full of my vexed anger, my cross determination that was so furious, so afraid that I couldn't stop myself from shaking and feeling weak in his presence.
I felt as if all I could do was cry, or scream.
I felt almost as if I could break the chains, and my numb fists clenched as if they might, my body tensing up and shooting pins and needles through my numb arms while I shouted again, "Get out!"
Except he didn't get out, and he continued his slow pace, moving closer to me with each second I shook.
There was no way I could let him near me, the weakness, the helplessness, it spread through me like the painful fury that ached my heart.
Questions flooded me, and I felt the overwhelming feeling make my head dizzy, making it feel as if blood wasn't circulating right.
Finally I couldn't take it.
I couldn't take his smell, his feeling, the sound of his walking even just looking at his boots made my heart pound and my head spin.
How could I still-
"GET OUT!" I shouted, stopping my own thoughts as my head shot up and looked at G with furious anger that stung my eyes, filling them with irritated tears that threatened to spill out.
When I saw his face my aching heart shattered over and over with each beating second.
His face was blank, stuck with the same loss of emotion. His eyes were a serious tone that stared at my hanging body, and my furious eyes.
I let the tears fall, and I let my sobs come out.
Crying felt like a release, yet it also reminded me of the pins and needles that pricked my arms and legs while my body shook with each sob.
Words wanted to come, words wanted to slap G across the face and tell him everything he had done to me.
Except they didn't come, and he spoke instead.
"... Goodie-goodie don't cry-"
I had to cut him off.
His careless words.
His empty look.
Everything about him was infuriating and I felt tense discomfort in my throat as I shouted, "You betrayed me! You chose Asriel's side!"
There was no answer, and I felt more anger boil as he stood before me like an empty statue, looking down on those around it.
Taking my chance, I let the sobs continue yet I changed them into vexed words that yelled, "How could you hurt me like this?! How could you put me in this pain?!"
"You wouldn't be in pain if you would just agree to Asriel's demands," He said, his voice low and quiet, as if his soul was also loosing power.
Even though his stance was strong, and his eyes were stiff, I knew my words were more powerful then anything he could say.
My anger would trump his pathetic thoughts.
Yet my heart ache almost trumped mine.
"That's why you're here?!" I cried out, tears streaming down my face as I stared at the man I used to love, "To convince me like Asriel?! He sent you thinking I would agree?!"
Words flooded from my mouth along with breath, as if I hadn't breathed for weeks.
Even though my eyes were blurred with tears and anger, the numb needles still stinging into my shaking body, I could see G's eyes still watching me as I screamed out, "HOW COULD I AGREE TO SOMEONE LIKE YOU?! HOW COULD YOU BETRAY ME?! YOU LET THEM TAKE ME JUST SO YOU COULD GET WHAT YOU WANT! HOW COULD YOU?! HOW-"
"EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY I CAN'T STAND THINKING OF YOU HERE!"
G's words let silence fill my cell, and I felt a shiver run through my bones as I panted dry breath.
His words had stumped me, and my mind wouldn't process them quick enough for a reply.
Instead only my eyes could stare, my head back and my hair out of my face, the chains tight around my wrists that still stung with pins and needles.
The air seemed thinner, and when my eyes cleared a bit it was frightening to see how serious G's face was.
Yet I noticed his chin quiver and his eyes strike with pain.
"Every moment... I can't bare to think of you in a place like this..." He said, breaking the silence with gentle words that turned the tense energy into something soft.
Though I wouldn't let it.
I wouldn't let his words break me, trick me, fool me like they did before.
No matter how hard my heart pounded in my chest I gulped down my weakness and clenched my jaw as I mumbled in a sharp voice, "You did this to me..."
"I had to, dove I had to-"
"YOU DID THIS TO ME!" I wailed, the weakness thrusting itself out of me as I looked into his pitiful eyes.
Once again, betrayed fury ached me, and I could feel my head pounding with it while I yelled out, "YOU LET THEM TAKE ME AND YOU JUST LEFT!"
I wanted to say this for so long, I wanted him to hear my words, to feel their power, to ache inside for what I had to say!
When it worked, I could feel the sick satisfaction run through my blood like the pins and needles, and I stared up at him with my pained, crying, expression as I continued, "This is your fault..."
"This could all change!" He yelled, his voice getting as heated as mine, showing that he was furious, he was angry.
Except this time, I wasn't afraid.
"No it wont! I will still be upset! I will still be tortured inside because I don't love him!"
Taking a step forward, G clenched his fists and glared at me as if he was the Prince himself.
This made my arms almost break through the chains and tear his bones apart.
"Why does it matter if you love him or not?!" His voice raised it's volume as if trying to make mine weak.
I didn't let it, and I yelled louder, "Because if I don't then I can never be happy!"
Tears continued to stream down my face like the words from my mouth as I sobbed, "I thought we were friends..."
"We still can be if you would just agree!"
"NO WE CAN NEVER BE FRIENDS AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO ME!"
Seeing G angry wasn't as satisfying anymore, and he growled low with pain in his eyes as he walked even closer, now only a foot away from me, so close I could easily grab him, easily choke him, hurt him-
Hug him.
Cry to him.
Beg him to come back.
Beg him to go back to normal.
Why did I still love him?
The thought weakened me, it took my breath, forced my tears, turned my anger into deep regret and pain that made me feel so... so empty.
"If I didn't do that," He growled, his voice so passionate and strong it made my broken heart shudder with more tears, "Then we would both be in this prison! You would eventually crack and agree with Asriel. Then what about me?! I would be stuck down here! I would be in that same stupid cycle!"
"I would never agree with Asriel..." I snarled, my voice low and my eyes matching the tone as I glared up at G.
"You would! Then our friendship wouldn't matter would it?!"
My heart was breaking with each word, and I lost track of how many tears fell down my red cheeks while I grit my teeth and felt the anger tremble inside me.
"It was never about, the friendship," I growled, my voice sounding weak.
I scolded myself and ordered my emotions down, except they were my only power, my only way to speak.
"THEN WHAT'S THIS ABOUT?! WHAT DO YOU WANT?!"
"I WANTED YOU!"
As the truth left my lips as a screaming cry of help, a begging sob, I felt my body go limp.
More numb then usual, I felt the pieces of my heart sink slowly, and my trembling slowed to a terrifying realization of what I had just said.
G's face was blank.
His mouth was open with words that never came.
His eyes were wide and his expression soft.
There wasn't anything I could do, except continue my pathetic cry.
"I loved you G! I wanted you so badly!" Tears rolled down my cheeks and my shaking words cracked and sadness pushed inside my chest.
Taking a deep sobbing breath, I continued, "I loved your nicknames and your jokes and your teasing and your stupid smirk!"
The words wouldn't stop, and G's expression never changed.
Mine did, and it turned from furious to depression in each word that passed my lips, the voice cracked and loud, unused and strong.
"I wanted you so ba-badly!" I sobbed, each word cracking and shaking as if I was a traumatized child.
I tried to inhale, except it was fast and aching with each quick breath.
"I wanted y-you to ho-hold me and tell me it was alright I wa-wanted you to save me and protect me," Truth overwhelmed me, and I could feel my determination like the flower in the lab.
Soon my words just turned into aching sobs, and I could see G's body tense with hesitation, tense with blank emotion that killed me inside.
There I was, confessing my love to him, and all he could do was stare.
It was a long while of me sobbing before I could finally speak again, and during that long while I had wished so badly for him to say something.
Except I was afraid of what the words would be.
"I-I..." My words shook and I gulped loudly, feeling the shivers go down my dry throat, "I don't kn-know what I want anymore...."
Even though I tried to keep my voice level, my words soft, my tone gentle, the words wobbled and shook with weakness, and I shook more then before, letting the pins and needles come back to me.
Silence.
Emptiness.
A long confession that hung in the thin air, hanging around G's head like a shaking melody.
Oh how I wished for him to say something... Anything...
Except nothing came.
And with more shattering, with more aching pain in my heart, I watched G turn and walk from my cell briskly, shutting the cell and leaving down the hall without looking back.
I let my head hang, and felt the hair drape in front of me again.
With sickness, I realized Leah had heard everything.
Except I couldn't care less, when my heart was breaking, and my tears dripped to the floor.
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A/N: Many of you have noticed I didn't post for THREE DAYS!
I APOLOGIZE!
There was no wifi all weekend except little snippets and moments.
I am so so sorry!
I hope you all forgive me.
Also I have been very very stressed latly...
NO I AM NOT GIVING UP ON THIS BOOK!
But I just have been a bit upset and stressed, tired mostly.
And terribly sick.
So please, can you please lighten my day a bit?
Like, I don't know anything really.
I hope you guys liked the chappie!
I cried while writing it don't judge me.
THANK YOU!
YAY.
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