Tw: Gender dysphoria, body dysmorphia, self hatred, anxiety/ anxiety attack

Indiana: fun little game called, "is it gender dysphoria or actually just depersonalization?"
Indiana: wh- where we-
Indiana: [quiet sobbing]

Florida: My default reaction to trauma is laughter
Florida: Which is funny cause that's the worst reaction
Florida: And now- I can't stand to laugh because- because- it's all shit
Florida: It's all bad
Florida, sobbing: And I can't-
Florida:
Florida: I can't

Indiana, tugging at his shirt: Please, please I don't fit
Indiana: it doesn't fit
Indiana: nothing fits

Florida: it's funny when someone tells me I don't feel guilt
Florida: cause I do
Florida: I do lie awake at night thinking about everything I could've done but didn't
Florida, laughing: and it hurts, so much, it just eats away at me
Florida: but I can't say that
Florida: not to them

Florida: you know like when you can't breathe and you feel like you're dying and your thoughts are like the worst thing ever
California:
California: yeah it's anxiety
Florida: what? that's crazy, I don't have anxiety, I mean- I mean- I
Florida: oh my god I have anxiety