December 12, 1992

[btw Tough Love took place in 1986. So, this is 6 years later.]

A month ago...

"Guys, you're going to go to Aunt Sarah and Uncle Steve's for a little bit." I flashed a fake smile at Gracie and Ashton as they gave me confused ones.

"How long is a 'little bit?'" Gracie questioned, and I looked down at the ground and sighed.

"Just until Christmas. I'll visit you two everyday, I promise." I embraced the two of them into a hug and drove them to Sarah and Steve's house.

(YES, SARAH AND STEVE GOT MARRIED YAYYYY)

We pulled up into the driveway and the kids hopped out, me following behind them. Sarah and Steve were on the porch and Sarah ran up to me and pulled me into a hug. I gave her a small smile. "Thank you so much. You guys are the best."

She slapped me in the back of the head. "Don't thank us! I'd do anything for my best friend."

"They're little daredevils so good luck." I laughed and she returned one.

I gave Steve a hug and he gave me a sympathetic smile. "How you holdin' up?"

I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked away. "I could be better..."

//

THE PRESENT

(I think y'all recognize this scene.... lmaoooo y'all are so gonna murder me)

//

"ANOTHER DRINK, SKYLAR?" The bartender asked as I nodded my head and smiled weakly.

He slid the glass of whiskey until it landed in front of me. I put my lips on the edge of the glass as the whiskey traveled down my throat, giving me that same burning sensation. I stared blankly at the table and traveled back to that night.

Tears rolled down my cheeks as I sat my glass of whiskey down. I've turned into the person I never said I was going to turn into.... Dallas.

I slowly got up and stumbled out of the bar. I shouldn't be driving, but at the moment I didn't care what happened to me. He's back with Sandy. He doesn't love me anymore. I pulled into the Curtis's house and Darry ran up to me. "You got drunk again?!"

"He doesn't love me anymore!" I screamed while tears fell down my face.

Darry picked me up in his arms and laid me down on the sofa. Ponyboy rushed over to me, worry was evident on his face. I slowly started to drift off, but I could still hear everything.

"Again?" Pony questioned while sighing. It was a question he sadly got used to asking.

Darry sighed and then Pony did the same. He brushed his fingers across my cheek, wiping the tears off of my face. "I want to beat the living hell out of Soda." Ponyboy's voice was cold and hard. "Trust me buddy, he's lost his mind."

//

"So, this is how you're going to end it?" The wind slapped across my face, as the tears threatened to spill.

"I don't know, Blue."

"Why did you do what you did?"

He was silent for a moment, like he was thinking of what to say without destroying me even further than he already did. "You never really get over your first love." Soda finally spoke and I laughed.

"Yeah, I guess you're right. I'm never going to get over you." I breathed and walked away, leaving him standing there.

//

"Hey, guys, let's go to the lake!" Two-Bit yelled and we all nodded our heads, agreeing with him.

Soda and I drove to our house and got changed into our swim suits.

Soda gave me a peck on the lips. "You're beautiful, Blue."

I smirked. "You're not too bad yourself, Pepsi-Cola."

Once we all arrived at the lake, we were having a good time. I got on Soda's shoulders while Sarah got on Steve's and we wrestled until Sarah and I fell into the water at the same time, causing everyone to giggle.

I glanced behind me and furrowed my eyebrows. "Umm, guys? Where did Soda go?"

All of them gave me weird looks and Sarah put her hands on my shoulders. "If you're my best friend and you love me, then don't look back."

I chuckled. "Sarah, I love you with all of my heart, but you know I never listen to anyone." I turned around and my fists curled up into a ball.

Soda and Sandy were sitting on the ground, side by side, chatting. Soda looked like he was having a mighty good time.

I swam out towards the shallow water and once my feet touched the ground, I sprinted over towards them. When they saw me, they both frowned. "Oh.... I see you two are still together." Sandy spat and rolled her eyes at me.

[SKYLAR CURRENTLY LMFAO]

"Actually, we're married. I know it's hard for you take all that in though, because after all, all of the relationships you were in consisted of you being a hoe." I snarled and shot a glare at her.

I turned towards Soda. "Excuse me? What the HELL do you think you're doing?"

He turned towards Sandy, "Actually, I'm not married anymore."

My jaw dropped and I could almost feel the steam erupting from my ears. I slapped him across the face and screamed, "I guess since you're not married anymore, then the kids aren't yours anymore either!"

His eyes went wide when I mentioned Gracie and Ashton. "Wait, y'all have kids together too?" Sandy practically shouted.

I got up in her face, "Yes we do, now shut the hell up!" She closed her mouth real quick and I snapped my head around to look back at Soda.

I swallowed the big lump in my throat and sighed. "Why would you say that?"

He looked down. "Blue, I love you, but.... I still love Sandy."

All of the gang were behind me and I didn't want to cry in front of all of them, but I couldn't help it. I fell down on my knees and started crying. I was crying so hard, I was starting to feel dizzy. It was like I was dehydrated from all of the crying.

The whole gang rushed by my side and everything went black.

//

I WOKE UP in a puddle of sweat as Darry and Ponyboy tried to get me to calm down. "You're alright, Abs. I promise." Pony assured, and I nodded my head while hyperventilating.

"You having the same nightmare?" Darry questioned and I nodded.

"It's like no matter how hard I try to escape him, he always finds some way back to me." I spoke softly as my voice cracked from crying.

They patted me on the shoulder and Darry went in the kitchen to fix me chocolate cake and bacon. I sighed. "You know what the definition of a nightmare is?"

Pony turned towards me. "What?"

"Broken dreams."