There's no point in going into extreme detail about Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday.  They're relatively boring days.

My sleep schedule doesn't exist, and I have extreme night terrors.  Only one is about Jenna.  I think about death a lot, wishing I just didn't exist.  It'd be a lot easier to just not exist or have to deal with everything.  All of life's dramas and suffering... 

That's about all that happens until Friday.

1 New Message
Josh
I'll be back at home in about half an hour do you want me to stop by first
11:36 a.m.

Only if you want to it's fine if you just want to go home and rest you've been away for a while

I'll be there in 20 minutes

~~~

"Sorry I had to be gone so long," Josh sighs, sitting down across from me at the table.  "My mom needed me for something."

"It's fine.  I don't care," I reply.

"You don't care that I was gone?"

"Of course I care- you know what I meant," I smile.

Josh smiles back, "Okay.  Are you feeling less salty today?  Last time we talked you were exhaling salt."

"Shut up," I laugh.  "I guess I'm better now."

"How have you been at night?"

"Awake."

"That sucks.  Night terrors?"

"Yeah.  It's fine, it doesn't really matter."

"Tyler, it does matter."

"Okay, okay, don't be all soft."

Josh giggles, "What is wrong with you lately?"

"I don't know," I sigh.  I reply gently, "I guess I'm just sleep deprived...  -and still upset about Jenna..."

"I get it.  I'm always here, though, okay?"

"Mhm," I mutter, looking down at my hands.

"Let's talk about something less depressing," Josh suggests.  "Have you found anything interesting online?"

"No, not really.  Nothing ever happens.  What have you been doing?"

"While I was with my mom, I got to see my cousins again.  ...so that's good, I guess."

"Yeah."

"Tyler, are you okay?"

"What do you mean?"

"You seem... off."

"I'm fine.  It's just the weight of everything.  You know.  Jenna, my night terrors, trying to think of some sort of music or lyrics."

"I know.  You just seem really weird."

"Seriously, nothing happened.  I don't know why I would be acting weird.  Well- something happened, but it's unrelated."

"What?"

"I got invited to a party, but that's it.  It's in a week or something."

"Oh," Josh nods.

"You can come.  It's one of my friends that you don't really know."

"Oh, okay.  Is it bothering you at all?"

"No.  I'm really not upset about anything."

"Okay..."

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