"Oh, shut up," I roll my eyes, even though he can't see.

"Make me," Josh repeats.

"That's just your favorite phrase, isn't it?" I ask, starting to make my way down the stairs.

"Possibly."

"Why?" I laugh, reaching the bottom of the stairs. Josh is standing there waiting for me.

"Because you can never manage to do it. You say you'll make me regret it, but you don't. You saaay that you'll make me shut up, but you don't."

"Oh, I'll make you shut up alright," I say, stepping closer to Josh.

"Will you now? Because last time I checked-"

I don't even know what I'm doing or why I do it, but I cut Josh off by smashing our faces together. Lips meet lips, and Josh instantly kisses back. I grip the sides of Josh's face, and he holds me by the hips. After seemingly centuries, we part for air. I let my hands fall back to my sides. Josh steps back and lets go of me.

Neither of us says anything for an awkward moment lasting almost 20 whole agonizing seconds. I hear my heartbeat in my ears.

Josh finally speaks up, "Why'd you do that?" He doesn't sound mad or anything. It sounds like he genuinely wants to know.

"I- I don't know," I simply reply. "I honestly don't."

There's another moment of silence before Josh resumes the conversation. "Do you have feelings for me...?"

"I don't know," I sigh. "I don't fucking know anymore! I'm really confused, Josh."

"It's okay. Uhm... I don't know what to say. Do you need me to leave? Because I will if you want..."

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1 New Message
Josh
Hey how are you doing
1:30 p.m.

2 New Messages
Josh
I'm sorry Tyler
1:34 p.m.

3 New Messages
Josh
I don't know what to do
1:39

4 New Messages
Josh
I just want everything to be fixed
1:39

I finally decide to reply. I have no reason not to.

Idk what I'm supposed to do josh I wanna fix everything too but that's just not how the world works

Tyler I know you're hurt from everything lately and I really want to help but I know that I'm just making it harder for you

No you aren't I'm just making it harder for myself

How do I help fix this

I really don't know
I just want it to all be okay again
I wanna be able to sleep at night
I want to be able to not worry about everything constantly
I wanna just stop being confused all the time
Idk how you're supposed to help me
And honestly idk how I'm supposed to help MYSELF

I know that we've tried having this conversation before but it just never works
What are we doing wrong

I don't know josh
I really don't know where it all went wrong
And I'm really sorry about what I did this morning it was uncalled for

Do you know why you did it

I really don't
I'm confused Josh

Do you think it would help if we figured all of this out first
Let's deal with this thing first

Yeah
Because it's really making me so much more confused and scared
Everything happens too fast Josh
Is there a way I can just slow down my life

Idk Tyler
All I know is that I want you to be happy
I don't know if that means as friends or the other way around but I just want you to be happy

Can I just have time to think about everything
I need time to relax and slow this down

Of course
Bye for now

Bye