Your POV

The last month had been a new form of hell I never new existed. All the guys spent days teaching me new things and making me practice being human. Who'd have ever thought that one day I would have to PRACTICE being human.

Namjoon spent his days with me giving me history lessons of our kind. How the transformation works and how he created the elixir for the remedy we desperately depend on. He was probably one of the most intelligent beings I had ever met in my live, and incredibly handsome. Though he had a stern look about him, every time he'd smile his dimples would bring out the younger man in him to the surface.

Jin and I got even closer. Every night we would have a Netflix date catching up on one or two episodes of whatever we were watching that week. He was the one to buy me an entire new wardrobe, make up, and even the underwear my closet was over flowing in. There was so much lace I could swim in it. Jimin didn't mind though...of course.

Yoongi and I didn't talk much. It was strange because from what I gather he was the only one of the group that was actually turned after they met their mate.

Hoseok helped me keep up with the choreography at the company. He took on the responsibility because Jimin tried to help me, but we ended up breaking out into several make out sessions...that turned into...well hours of gasping, screaming, and sweating...in a different way.

Taehyung was always flirty, but just like Yoongi he kept his distance. He was always kind, and never made me feel uncomfortable. Every now and then he would play cards with me as he was the only other one that knew as many games as I did.

Jungkook was a true muscle pig...even for a vampire. He was constantly active whether it be dancing, gaming, or eating...he gave his all with every task. We would occasionally cross paths in the kitchen...if Jin wasn't cooking I was and he always wanted some of what I had. Eventually I got in the habit of simply making extra for him.

I was on the porch swing again alone this time, thinking about the conversation I had with Jimin the last time I was here. I meant what I said to him...everything was hard for me too. I just needed to convince my conscious mind that his feelings are real. My body, heart and soul knew my feelings were real. They knew deep down I was going to mate him if he asked...but my mind was stubborn. My mind was what needed convincing.

"Lonely?"

I looked up and my heart started to race.

Jimin.

He was such a beautiful person...and he was waiting. I never took into consideration how he would feel about this...he must be in pain...emotionally anyway. I reached my arms out to him and he lowered himself trapping me between his arms as he placed his palms on the back of the swing. He leaned lower and kissed me softly...then a little harder...the kiss growing with the movements of his mouth. I moaned into his mouth lowly and I could feel his lips curl into a smile. He pulled back slightly keeping his nose touching mine.

"I can never get enough of you." He smiled.

"Hmmmm...I know the feeling." I said smirking after.

He moved to sit next to me and wrapped his arm around me. I watched as the leaves were starting to change from their vibrant green to their smoky reds and yellows.

"Jimin can I ask you something?"

"You don't have to ask prior to your questions, babe." He chuckled. "Just ask."

I nodded and I tried to find the wording. "Can you explain mating to me?"

I felt him tense slightly and I turned to him. He was looking down at the ground as his eyes widened a bit and his breath started to shallow.

"Mating...it connects us. Forever. And I mean forever...unless one of us were to die...then the universe would find a new mate for us and place them somewhere in our lives eventually. It essentially connects us on another level. We'd be able to feel each other's emotions...sometimes even read minds. Not literally but...it's hard to explain. Sometimes when Jungkook is hungry...Hobi would already know and be sure to have food for the next time he'd see him."

I nodded. "But...HOW do you mate?"

"Well," he looked at me and gave me a knowing smirk. "For starters, you have to understand that there is technically two ways to do it. One way bonds the two stronger than the other, but they both work. The preferred way, we have to be having sex and both of us will have had to already climaxed. The endorphins will be coursing through our bodies...then we have to bite each other. Each of our set of teeth have a unique pattern to them and when we bite each other, it wont heal the way our bodies normally heal. We drink a bit from each other in the process. Never do vampires drink vampire blood unless there is mating involved. The blood will still belong to us, but it will be part of the other. If that makes sense. Its how we will have a sixth sense for each other, like I was explaining earlier."

"That sounds kinky." I giggled.

He chuckled in response. "It can be. After the biting part is done we would have sex again sealing the deal."

"Is that why vampires don't go soft after the first time?"

He smiled. "It's one of the reasons...that's just in our nature. We are sex crazed beings a lot of the time...especially when it comes to our mates."

"So you're telling me youre going to get worse?" I said raising an eye brow.

"YOU will too. And don't make me come across as the perverted one...how many times have you woken me up with your mouth around..."

"OKAY! SUSH!" I said covering his mouth with my hand. "You don't have to tell me." I giggled afterwards.

He kissed me a few times pecking my lips over and over. "Any other questions?"

"You said there were technically two ways to mate?"

I watched as his face fell a little and he looked away when he nodded. "Yeah."

"What's the other way?"

"Almost all of the time mating is done consensually...but...there is the occasion where it's not."

"I thought there is only one mate per person?"

"There is...but if someone who is unmated, wanted to mate another unmated vampire...they technically could."

"How?"

"They force themselves on them...and bite them in more than one spot. Like I said the bond isn't as strong because it's not a mutual thing."

"Like...rape?"

"Yes."

"That's..."

"Barbaric?"

"Absolutely."

"It happens..."

"So what happens to the one who was forced?"

"They will feel the connection...they will be claimed. But it wont be a loving feeling. There isn't affection in that bond. It would be more like they feel trapped. It's...its not a good thing baby."

"Oh...it's hard to believe that stort of thing is even possible in the vampire world."

"It is." He gently grabs my chin making me look him in the eye. "I would never do that to you." He said in a serious voice. "I want our connection to be loving, and affectionate, and make both of us happy. I will never force you into anything."

I nodded and leaned into his shoulder. "I just am still so mad...I'm trying to not care because right now there is no going back, and I really do love you. I just...I don't know."

He didn't say anything...but I felt his body tense. He unwrapped his arm from around me and stood up. He pushed his hands in his pocket and blew out a deep breath.

"I'm gunna go inside..." he said and gave me a small forced smile.

"Okay." I said softly.

I watched as he walked back into the house without looking back at me. I know he has to be mad at me. I feel stupid in all honesty. There is no way for me to know for sure if what he feels is because of the mating thing or not. There never would have been. At this point, I was more being stubborn than anything. I had been avoiding it for so long, I didn't want to cave.

What is wrong with me?