Gerard was always cautious of his little brother. Always wanting to protect him. Always proud of his achievements. And right now he was proud of him for going on his third date with Kristin and officially asking her to be his girlfriend.

"Gerard, will  you stop?" Mikey asked, taking off his jacket.

"No, I'm proud of you," Gerard said.

"God, whatever," he said. "This was on the porch for you, by the way."

Gerard saw a red envelope in his hand and he sighed. He opened it up and read the letter, made out of cut out newspapers again.

Have you heard the news? Check your phone.

Gerard frowned in confusion, grabbing his phone. He didn't notice anything out of the ordinary, though. But soon he started to get texts from friends, all sending him links. Gerard opened it up and saw a video on a porn site. There was a black screen with words at the beginning.

Just to let you know that you're not special, Frank.

And then the video started and Gerard thought that he might throw up. It was a video taken just a week before he moved to Belleville. He doesn't know why he did, him and Lindsey just thought it would be good to have since they wouldn't be able to see each other much. He was regretting it now.

"Eew, what the fuck, why did someone just send me your sex tape with Lindsey?" Mikey asked. "Ugh, this is disgusting."

He tossed his phone on the bed, shaking his head as he gagged.

"Oh god, I will never be able to forget that," Mikey muttered. "Can you please get me a spoon so I could gouge my eyes out."

"Lindsey and I were the only ones with this video," he said. "Why would she do this?"

"Clearly to make Frank feel bad," mikey said.

Gerard was given a second link and a second video on the same site. This one was probably worse, far worse.

"Fuck, oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck," he muttered. "I-I need to call Frank."

He dialed his boyfriend's number and it almost went to voicemail before someone finally answered.

"Hello?" A quiet voice asked.

"Frankie," Gerard said. "Oh god, you've seen it, haven't you?"

It was quiet.

"Yeah," Frank whispered. "Both of them."

"Can I come over?" He asked.

"I don't think that's a really good idea, Gerard," Frank stated.

"Please, I'm sorry," Gerard said. "We need to talk. I'm sorry because--"

"It's not my business," he interrupted. "It was before I met you."

"Frankie, you're my boyfriend and so this kind of involves you too," he said. "Please, we can go out for coffee if you want. To that really good place with the awesome donuts."

"I have to get ready for my dad's," Frank said.

"Frankie, you're upset and I know that," Gerard said. "It's okay to be upset, I get it. I'm upset too. We just need to talk this over."

"I just don't really feel much like talking right now," Frank mumbled.

"Frankie, please," he whispered. "I need you. I need to talk to you."

"I-I have to go," Frank said.

He hung up and Gerard stared at his phone.

"How did Lindsey get the second video?" Mikey asked.

"Because I showed it to her," Gerard mumbled. "God, how could I have been so stupid?"

"I told you, Gerard, she is fucking psychotic," he said.

Gerard called Lindsey next.

"Why did you do this?" He asked.

"What ever may you be talking about?" Lindsey asked innocently.

"You fucking posted my sex tapes online," he said. "Why the fucking hell would you do that?"

"Did Frank see it?" She asked.

"Lindsey--"

"Why won't you just come back?" She interrupted. "Come on, it was better back when you were here. Even if you don't come back we can still have a relationship if you just break up with that kid."

"This is low, Lindsey, even for you," Gerard said.

"Oh come on, it's not like it matters," she said. "Nearly all of Brunswick has had sex with you and I'm sure it's like that for Belleville, too."

"I'm different now, Lindsey," he said. "I don't do that anymore. I am dating Frank and I am really happy with him. He is the only person I have slept with since moving here. The only person I want to sleep with."

"Now everyone can see our love," she said.

"Why the second one?" He asked. "You're not even in it and it is so much worse. Lindsey, the second one could ruin me. Like, really ruin. I could be declined from colleges because of it."

"Well, you can always come live with me," she said.

Gerard shook his head, hanging up on her.

"What's so bad about the second one?" Mikey asked.

"I-I can't tell you," he said.

"I don't wanna watch it, it's disgusting," he said. "I don't wanna be scarred."

"Good, don't watch," he said.

"But that was a letter," Mikey said. "Which means that Lindsey has been the one sending you these letters. You need to tell the Detective Ozo lady."

"No, we cannot tell anyone about this letter, understand?" Gerard asked.

"Why not?" He asked. "This has a clear connection to her."

"Mikey, no one can know," he said. "Not a single adult can know."

"Gerard--"

"Mikey, I can be arrested," Gerard interrupted. "I-I'm seventeen, I created child pornography. They can't know about this."

"But it's clearly Lindsey who is the psychotic one sending the messages," he said.

"And I will deal with her," he said. "But you can't tell anyone anything about these videos or else I could get into a lot of trouble."

"You need to tell someone," he said. "At least Detective Ozo."

"Especially not her, and it's Detective Orzechowski, not Ozo," he corrected. "It looks like only a few people from the school have gotten it so far. I'm sure it'll spread. We just need to make sure that not a single adult sees it because an adult will report it to the police which will get me in trouble. I can't go to prison, Mikey, have you seen me? I'm too pretty to go to prison."

"A little too cocky also," Mikey mumbled.

"I'm serious," he said.

"Fine but since you've found out who is sending the letters, you have to stop her," he said. "You'll be able to stop her without going to the police. Just have a conversation with her face to face. Maybe bring some pepper spray, though."

Gerard sighed, burying his head in his hands.

"I can't believe this is happening," he said. "I-I can't believe it. What if this ruins things with Frank? I-I'm actually really happy for the first time in a long time. I didn't think I would ever want to be in a real relationship but I am and I like it a lot. And now it might all be ruined just because I wanted to make a few sex tapes."

"Frank likes you a lot, I don't think he'll leave you because of this," he said. "He maybe just needs some time."

Gerard nodded, laying back on his bed.

"So, when are you going to meet with her?" He asked.

"I don't know, I really don't feel like going back up to Brunswick," he mumbled.

"It makes sense, you know, she was at the party and at the dance where the pictures were taken, she knows everything about you, she has both of the sex tapes," Mikey listed. "Maybe Ozo can get you exonerated of the child porn and so that way Lindsey can be charged with harassment and legal action can be taken against her."

"But that's only a slim chance," he said. "What if she doesn't? What if I get in trouble?"

Mikey's phone buzzed and he picked it up before grimacing.

"Oh, disgusting, someone sent me a screenshot from the second video," Mikey said. "I-is that...is that a whip?"

"Shut up, just...never tell a soul," Gerard said. "Or else I swear I will hurt you."

"Yeah, okay, I don't really want anyone to know that my brother is a pornstar anyways," he said.

"Oh my god, this could ruin me," he said. "It can actually, really ruin me. No college, no good job. Oh god, oh god."

"Why'd you make them anyways if they were obviously such a bad idea?" Mikey asked.

Gerard sighed. "I don't know. Lindsey and I weren't going to be seeing each other very often anymore and we thought that having a video of us would be good for when we were, you know, missing each other."

"Ew, I don't know if it's worse for you to phrase it like that or to just say horny," Mikey mumbled. "But what about the second one?"

"I-I don't know," he said. "He wanted to make the video. And, well, Lindsey was curious about him so I wanted to show Lindsey, too."

"Ew, this is gross," Mikey said. "I can tell you that I am never gonna be making a sex tape, I don't want half the school seeing my dick. I know you probably don't care because you already like to sleep with half the school but I'm not about that life."

Gerard's phone was still going off and he answered some texts to let people know he already knew about the videos. He wasn't sure what to do. He knew he needed to talk to Frank. He's the most important part of his life right now and he needed to fix that first. Then he would meet with Lindsey and tell her to leave him alone and stop sending all the stupid little notes.

"So, have you told Frank that you love him?" Mikey asked.

"We've only been together for about a month," Gerard said.

"Yeah but you know you're falling for him, we can both tell," he said. "You know, I think it's actually nice that you were able to find someone instead of slutting around everywhere."

"'Slutting around?'" Gerard asked. "That is so mean. You know, you are so much meaner to me than I am to you. Stop slut shaming me all the time."

Mikey sat on his own bed, ignoring the texts from his friends that were most likely about his brother.

"Gerard, what if mom and dad find out about this?" Mikey asked.

"They can't, Mikey," he said. "Seriously, do you know how much trouble I would get in? They would kill me. Probably literally kill me."

"Well, if you ever need to at least you know you could make a business out of making porn," Mikey said.

Gerard groaned, turning his back to his brother. Mikey decided not to say anything more and changed into some pajamas before going to the bathroom to get ready for bed. Gerard pulled out his phone, looking at the videos again. Watching himself in bed with Lindsey and that man...just made his stomach twist. Maybe in the past he might've stuck his hand down his pants while watching but now he just wanted it gone. Now he just wanted Frank.

He reported the videos to get them taken down but knew that it might take a day. He tried to get off his phone so he turned off his wifi and notifications. Instead, he just put in his headphones and listened to music. He didn't care when his brother came in and turned off the lights. He just closed his eyes and thought back to him and Frank last night when they were intimate.

It wasn't in a sexual way, he just wanted to remember the last time everything felt perfect. He missed the calmness. He missed the intimacy. He missed the love and connection that was between them. Gerard really didn't want anything to be ruined between them, it was the first time he ever felt anything that was actually real. He didn't want to lose Frank. No matter what, he knew he couldn't lose Frank.