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She rushed from tables to tables, taking orders from several costumers, noting them in her notepad and leaving the notes by the counter. It was Sunday, the busiest day of the whole week. She was sure she didn't stop for a moment other than the few rushed calls from her colleague who stopped her, leaned forward and fixed her hair which were probably flying in every direction. She didn't know, didn't have the time. On days like this, she wouldn't realize when the whole day would pass by, she wouldn't realize the extreme pain rising in her soles until later at night when she is tucked in her bed.

The days were getting shorter and shorter. They said, the first snow would happen soon. She started working in a cafe, quite far away from her home. Since it was hard to get a job anywhere specifically due to her past. She was labelled as a criminal at most of the places.

The costumers left, she cleaned the tables and free fell on one of the chairs. A tired sigh escaped her lips and her eyes shifted towards the glass that reflected the whole view from the outside. It was dark, people were all covered up in jackets and warm scarfs as they walked by.

The first winter after getting out of the dark hole.

Aera :"It's here again,I couldn't throw it this time. Do it yourself okay?"

YN :" Leave it there, I don't want to see it." She hovered her upper body over the table closing her eyes for a moment. To feel her surroundings, to feel the quiet place, to feel beauty of the winter. The hearth beside her providing her body the needed warmth.

Aera :" Such a waste to throw those beautiful roses in garbage. I would have kept them."

"you would've." YN chuckled, sat up straight. "How about you try it. Maybe, whoever he is end up liking you."

Aera :" Ayyy, don't be like this. I might really do that." She cupped her cheeks. The two laughed at that and continued to finish their work to leave for their homes.

Aera : "I wish I could at least see that person. He is leaving red roses by the door after your name for the past 4 months daily. That's quite cruel. You never once tried to see who it is. Never once saw the flowers. Always asked me to throw them away--"

YN :"Red roses you said?"

Aera : " That's bold right! Geez I get butterflies every time." YN didn't say anything, took her things after changing out of her work outfit back to her casual clothes. She bid Aera night and left the cafe.

She was hesitant. For once in months, after getting our of the jail. It had to be the first time, her feet were denying to move according to her will. She took a few steps but stopped.

The chilled breeze waved past her, she could feel her face turning colder by every second passing by. The puff of air that escaped her lips could be seen in a form of fog under the street lights. Her heart started beating furiously against her rib cage and that's when she turned around, went to the back of the cafe where that anonymous person would leave the flowers daily. She picked then up.

Red roses

I would only have red roses on our wedding. Its my favourite now. Thanks to this Rose, I managed to talk to you.

"Idiot." She furiously wiped the tear that rolled out of her eye. She wouldn't understand how much more time she needed to move on. Why her heart still ached at the thought of him.

She wondered, does it happens to everyone. People break up too, move on and live with their lives. Why couldn't she do that. She could be finally happy. She had a nice job, had her own home and the car. She could close the chapter and finally move on with her life, that's what she decided to do once she was out of the prison.

I will do it. I will move on.

She sniffled the roses, the fresh aroma filling her nostrils making her feel nostalgic. Wasn't it the kind of weather, you'd want someone to hold your hand and put it in their pockets to provide it warmth. To take you in their embrace and kiss your hair. That's exactly how she felt, the old times when she recieved all those seemed like a dream. A beautiful dream which never truly existed.

Only once.

She hugged the bouquet tighter against her chest and decided to keep them. This time, just this once.

She took a cab and left the place. Most of the days she wouldn't bring her car. Didn't feel like it. She yelped, almost screamed out when she was trying to open the door of her home and someone turned her around.

As their eyes met, the voice in her throat faded. It wouldn't come out anymore. Her feet wouldn't move. She wished, she could pause the time and stare at that beautiful face forever.

Jungkook....

He was cladded in a brown overcoat and white turtle neck. He looked so warm, so cozy, so cuddly and as handsome as always. He seemed out of breath as if he was running or just nervous in general, his beautiful smile outstretched his lips.

He seemed happy.

She saw him, first time in 5 months and he seemed genuinely happy. Those bambi eyes of his, sparkled under the streetlight.

JK : "Did I scare you?"

JK :"Right, I am sorry I must have."

JK :"You look beautiful, I mean... Ah that's wrong." He exhaled and scratched the back of his neck taking a moment having a look around his surroundings. Probably avoiding the eye contact with her for a moment or maybe trying to find the next words.

Oh, he came here without preperation.

Never mind him, he'd always stand in front of mirror, speak to himself, everything he decided to say to her when he finally decided to meet her. But this was unplanned and so he stood there unprepared. Heart beating furiously and he wondered, what if it explodes on him.

For the past four months, since she got herself a job. He would visit her café. However, he had stay outside. Whether it was hot or cold. He had stay away from her. Watch her from the distance for an hour or two till she gets off her work and walk her home. The days she would take the cab, he would stay in his car, follow her till her home. Till he was satisfied that she was back her home safely.

Very stalker of him.

He knew, still he couldn't help it. Don't take him wrong. He wouldn't go there daily. Since he is a busy man. He wouldn't visit her daily. He would tell himself

You're a business man Jungkook.

So he'd only visit her 6 days out of a week. The rest of the days, he would finish his work. That's only fair. A business man should keep his personal and work life balanced.

He'd leave the roses by the back of the cafe daily before taking off to work and by the end of the day he would find them in the dumpster behind the cafe. Today, he didn't and so he couldn't keep his happiness. He knew it was too soon to reach a decision. It was soon to make a move but he did it without thinking straight. He watched her daily from a distance and stayed patience. He could atleast lose it all once.

She stayed quiet, seemed perplexed to him. Did he make her uncomfortable.

JK : "It's cold, you should go inside." His eyes fixed on the bouquet still held tightly in her grasp. She shook her head, as if trying to grasp the situation. As soon as she turned around he stopped her.

JK :"No! No wait....wait a moment." He wondered, when he'd be able to gather the courage to confront her again. He can't let go of this moment this easily.

YN :"Why are you here Jungkook?"

JK :" I just... Came to see--"

YN :"You didn't come to see me when I was released, you never asked about me. But on the other hand you sent me flowers every day. You never once appeared in front of me but decided to follow me home yo make sure I was safe. Did you think I didn't know? Why are you doing this to me. Why would you confuse me this way. Why would it always take you so much time to gather your courage and confess. You never did it before. Each time... It was me who did that right. "

JK :" I am sorry, I just--"

YN :" I have decided to move on. "

" W-what "

YN :" I have finally decided to move on. Close the precious chapter and live a life.... Like ordinary people do. I will work till I have enough money and leave this country. Maybe move to Paris? I love that place. You know that right. "

She knew, how she kept her emotions from reflecting on her face. How she kept those tears to fall from her eyes. How she ignored the aching pain in her heart and kept a smile on her lips in front of him.

JK :" Let me go with you, to Paris. They say, it's a city of love."

YN :"But you went there alone."

He closed his eyes, let those words sink in him. He couldn't blame her anymore right. When all those times she tried to win him. He missed all those chances. He missed countless times the fate showed him a way to get back with her. He missed them and now he stood there empty handed unable to do anything but to accept that he finally lost his girl.... The girl he loved, the girl he ruined.

JK :"Right, you can move on. You should actually. I wouldn't want anything more than seeing you happy. That I.." He choked on his words, she knew the words were not as easy for him as he shown. She knew, it broke him and she wished she could cry out.

Jk :" But you know what. "He sniffed, wiped his eyes before the tears would escape and fixed her coat around her neck to keep her warm." Just like you have the right to move on. I have the right to do as I wish too. You can move on all you want but I will do all I can too. To make you accept me once again. To be with me again."

YN :"Jungkook!" She yelled and moved his hands off her. "Why don't you understand how hard it is for me! Why can't you leave me alone and let me move on. Why must you hurt me this way!"

JK :"I will leave you, I will, trust me. But after I am done. If I lost all the chances fate gave me, I will make one myself. Go inside and sleep. You will catch a cold." He flashed a smile and patted her cheek. He turned around and started walking out of her sight. He could still feel his heart beating furiously against his chest. He didn't know what he just did but he knew he was definitely going to do just as he said.

He heard the door furiously slamming shut behind him. He wondered, why must he hurt her each time he appears in front of her.

I will join you to Paris. I will win you again just this one last time.

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Doesn't he look like a main lead of a kdrama. Very heartthrob of him♡