(A long ass chapter because I am late 🍻)

"Guilt"

"what are you doing?" Tyler said as he unlocked the prison door to let himself pass through it.

"Yoga" She replied, turning her head slightly towards him from her half upside down body. "I am getting so out of shape. Tsk, I won't be able to recognize myself once I get out of here."

He chuckled and closed the door behind him leaning himself against the bars with arms crossed waiting for the lady to get back in normal position so he could talk to her

YN :" hey! What are you doing, come join me."

Tyler :" uh I just remembered I have a meeting with chief, see you in the evening okay. Make sure you eat" He awkwardly laughed and started unlocking the door again before he was dragged in the middle of the little space by the girl who was laughing and digging daggers at him with her eyes.

YN :" Okay now stand here and follow me. One deep breath and." She raised her arms above her and slowly started descending them downwards bending along till her hands touched her feet. Tyler seemed to be following her real good till now until she raised her leg backwards till it reached the sky.

"Holy shit." He mumbled under his breath and raised his leg. It raised somewhere 45 degrees backwards and wouldn't move anywhere above that. She stood up getting behind him and held his foot and started moving it upwards.

"Hey! That hurts - - oh woah woah stop shit hey!" He groaned falling forward shutting his eyes for a few moments. The moment he looked at her, she was laughing holding her stomach while pointing towards him.

I never saw her this lively before.

Tyler :"I am sorry to break your expectations but I am no lady and not flexible at all. I am good with my combat training."

YN :" Hey you gender possessive human being. Men are flexible too. You know Jimin from BTS. Let me tell you by the way he is really beautiful and so flexible he can do split and every kind of flips I don't know the names of. "

Tyler :" Woah. "

YN :" Amazing right. "

Tyler :" No actually "He pushed himself against the wall sitting against it with his legs crossed." I was wondering the men who have partners and their ladies go around praising another men right in front of them. Wah poor them."

She took a seat against the wall too opposite to him, a soft smile appeared on her lips when her eyes wandered over to the ring in her finger. "Jungkook was like this. He'd say 'I will kill that man' everytime I praised someone to make him jealous."

Tyler : "I can vision that though. Your food is here. Finish it yeah?" He stood up, locking the bars and once he was out of her sight he dashed out after someone who was busy stomping out of the prison.

He grabbed the man's arm turning him around "Jungkook!" only to be thrown backwards.

"What the hell were you doing!?" Jungkook yelled. Tyler frowned fixing his cardigon.

Tyler :"What the hell are you doing Jungkook? What's wrong with you. I only did what you ask me t--"

JK :"To give her better food! To take care of her! to make sure she gets everything she needs and she is not under stress! Not for your fucking romance--"

Tyler marched forward landing a fist so hard across other's cheek, he might have a possible bleed flowing out of the nose. "One hell of a man you are Jungkook. You think I was flirting with her there!?" He laughed out of disbelief. A hand running through his hair and a step forward towards the man who suddenly went silent - way more than anyone's liking. As if the punch awaken some senses in him.

Tyler : "She might be someone who have someone as strong as you behind her but shall I remind you, she is a convict with multiple crimes on her head. You know what Jungkook, how about you act like a civilian and stay in your lane. Let us do our work yeah."

"Please leave." Tyler said as he turned around on his feet, started climbing the stairs that lead back to the station.

Jungkook took a bewildered step back, eyes struck on his hands. He couldn't wrap his head yet around the fact how he just behaved. Tyler was right. Everything was wrong about him. His footsteps took him away leaving his car abandoned by the police station.

Everyone seemed to adapt by the situation whereas he felt, every passing moment was causing him a cardiac arrest. He couldn't breath, he couldn't behave. He couldn't control himself. He kept losing focus, he felt his vision blurring so he held on to a wall to support his weight that kept digging him under the ground a meter every time he acts out. Every time he sees her, he feels his heart burning with pain yet he can't help but hide his appearance from her.

Why would she love a monster like me.

He hides himself in the dark, the sins of his mother weighs him down every breath he takes. Every beautiful moment he has spent with her seems to anger him even more. As he grew up, there were only a few people who were the closest to him, his mother, Hoseok and YN. He seemed to have lost the two. Hoseok had the be the most patient to still stay with someone like him.

You are a curse, for all of them.

******

Hoseok was sitting in a cafe down his office opposite to a man cladded in a respectable expensive suit. By the looks of him he seemed like a really rich person who might have a high business under his watch. He had glasses and such high manners such as after every sip of his coffee he would wipe the corner of his lips with the napkin which Hoseok somehow found annoying and a little over doing.

He wondered, Jungkook never did that. Even if the guy was probably richer than the one sitting opposite to him.

"May I ask why did you call me here gentleman and where is Daisy?" Seo-Dong asked, the man accompanying Hoseok.

I would question my existence if Jungkook talked to me like this.

Hoseok cleared his throat and slid the plate of pastries towards the nerdy looking guy who rejected it politely with a wave of hand probably on a diet.

Hoseok :" I Jung Hoseok is in love with Dasiy. She is my girlfriend." He cursed under his breath yet he kept those confident expressions as if he was taking an oath.

How did he end up here?

Flashback

Hoseok stepped out of his office stratching his arms reaching them up towards the sky as he admired the beautiful sky before his eyes.

The next moment he had his eyed opened the size of saucers. Feet struck to it's place and arms staying up in the sky. Someone, a girl to be more precised, looking like in her early twenties, dressed in a sleeveless cropped top, blue jeans and heels. An example of beauty and elegance ran towards him and hugged him like her life depended on him.

You're seeing ghosts Hoseok hahaha

He took a deep breath and then another, and then another and then - -

"I missed you baby." She said and Hoseok almost chocked out. He hesitantly put his hands on her arms to move her away only for the girl to tighten her grip around him even more.

GHOSTS ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO MISS YOU

"I think." He stuttered "You are mistaking me for someone else." He removed his hands once again moving them towards his side.

"5 mins please. Just please I will explain later." She whispered and her head rested against his chest, her eyes fluttering close and Hoseok was sure she could hear his heart beat. He was embarrassed as hell. She would know he was going to burst out here.

Girl :"Did you get a punishment darling. Move your hands down and hug me back. For 5 minutes only mmm. "

That's dirty.

He howerever, did as he was told. Moves as hesitant as they could be and hands shaky while they wrapped around the petite girl taking her in his embrace. Surprisingly, he felt himself slowly relaxing in those arms. She looked so calm, so relaxed and he could feel such energy radiating through her.

An angel maybe, not a ghost that's right.

She pulled back, reflected a soft smile towards him and dusted her hand slightly over his shoulder in order to fix the crease.

"Hi, I am Daisy." Hoseok wondered, how did he got so lucky. He wondered, since when he started craving touch. He wondered, if the time travel fairy really existed. He'd ask to travel to the past. He'd ask to feel those 5 minutes again.

Daisy: "I am sorry, I really caught you off guard. I will explain it. Coffee? I'll pay."

Hell with coffee he'd go straight for the dinner. He'd pay too. He'd do anything.

Hoseok : "Right, I would like an explanation. I am Hoseok by the way."

Daisy :" That's one hot name for a cutie like you." She chuckled, she was really friendly. Like a social butterfly. Hoseok noticed. She took him towards her Mercedes- Benz. He had been in luxurious cars before thanks to Jungkook he could sit in comfortably or he'd be freaking out right now or probably admiring the lush interior.

He told her the address of the coffee shop where he used to work before per her request.

*****

"My father is a solider." She said, the two settled down on a table, had their coffees in their hands and seemed comfortable enough to start a conversation. Or more so, Hoseok seemed to have found his control.

Hoseok :" Is that so?"

Daisy :"Yeah a commander." He choked out placing the cup back. Goodbye to the five minutes control on himself. He almost threw out by the thought of her father having seen them hugging together. He'd be a dead meat.

Daisy : "And he wants me to marry another solider just because he thinks I have a bright future with that man, a captain actually."

Hoseok didn't hear, or atleast he could pretend, he didn't. He was too busy in wiping his mouth and the table with the help of tissues where the coffee spilled out of his mug.

Daisy :"I told him I am dating someone and I was there to meet him and you were the first one in my sight who is handsome and looked like belongs to a good family so I... I am sorry if it made you uncomfortable."

Hoseok :" So you are saying that solider, captain whatever he is, was there when we... Were like this close? "

Hoseok never thought, just a nod by someone could have this impact. He never thought he'd see his life crumbling before him merely by a movement of head. The red siren rang in his head alarming him about his whole situation. He wondered, one day he'd be passing down the street peacefully and what if men with several guns appear.

this is a joke. This is a prank. April's fool jhope April's fool!

Hoseok : "Why am I getting a feeling I am messed up?" his voice surprisingly was calm, humor hidden behind it. He kept his persona. The girl waved her hand slightly laughing at the other. Hoseok flashed his soft smile. He atleast made her laugh. Maybe the idea of getting surrounded by armed men was not that bad.

Daisy : "Don't worry, I am the commander's daughter so in one way he is still under me no. I will make sure you won't get in trouble" She grinned and sipped her coffee.

Hoseok :"Thank you."

Daisy :"Can I ask for another favor?"

No Hoseok, she is the commander's daughter--

Hoseok :" that would be my pleasure." He smiled as if he felt so nice in the moment. Yeah, so nice of a murderer. Killing his conscience who was screaming at him to get out to this situation.

Daisy :" Can you like, meet up with the captain and tell him you are dating me?"

Hoseok :" Only if I am promised another coffee and that time I will be paying."

Oh was he dreaming or she really got flustered. He was suddenly proud of himself after 28 years of living.

End Of Flashback

Hoseok :" I Jung Hoseok is in love with Dasiy. She is my girlfriend." He cursed under his breath yet he kept those confident expressions as if he was taking an oath.

" Excuse me what? " Seo-Dong raised his brow. "So that day, she wasn't messing around."

Hoseok :"Yes she was not. I Jung Hoseok is in love with Dasiy and She is my true girlfriend"

"Since when are you two dating?" The other asked, feeling weird about this whole situation.

Hoseok :" it's been an year."

"And when you two first met?"

Hoseok :" 2 days ago."

"What?"

Hoseok :" yes and I Jung Hoseok--"

"is in love with Daisy and she is my true girlfriend right?"

Hoseok :"Not yours, mine."

Seo-Dong :"I guess I have no other way than believing you. It was the commander's choice anyways. But since you two are together I am sure you both can handle it. I will take my leave now. Take care of her. She is a nice girl."

Hoseok was left stunned, the solider left and he wondered it was this easy? He relaxed his posture and exhaled out.

Hoseok : "Oh damn, I nailed it."

His phone rang as he stood up walking over to the counter to pay up his bill. "Hi Tyler."

"Do you know where is Jungkook?"

"yeah, I talked to him this morning. Didn't he come to station?"

"So you don't know"

"Everything okay? What's going on?"

"Uh well, I think I may or may not have punched him right in his eye. He disappeared after that. His car is still here too. I shouldn't be worrying about an adult but the amount of times he had himself almost killed isn't helping at all."

"You punched him, officer?"

"Yeah, maybe.... I guess."

"Hoseok?"

"Yes officer?" 

"I think he is completly losing himself. I don't think he realizes it yet but his condition at this point even concerns me too."

"Alright I gotta go."

"To report me?"

"To land him another punch."

*****

Hoseok found Jungkook where he believed he would. His instincts always worked right whenever it came to his childhood friend. The house that belonged to YN's parents. The house that was taken away from them. Jungkook bought it and would always come here. He said he finds peace here.

Hosoek's heart crumbled in pain at the sight of his brother sitting on the floor. Knees pulled against his chest as he stared at nowhere. He had blood flowing out of his knuckles. He was barefooted and seemed to have not noticed Hosoek's presence yet. He was far gone to do so.

Hoseok marched forward and landed a kick throwing the man to the ground. Jungkook groaned returning back to reality.

"Hyung." He held his thigh, that damn kick was harsh specially with those boots which had heels, Hoseok worn.

Hoseok grabbed him by his collar pulling him up to his feet. He saw the bruise on his cheek probably by the punch Tyler was talking about. It angered him more and so he threw another punch sending the guy to collide against the wall.

Jungkook weakly tried to hold on to the wall to support his weight. Hoseok yelled and screamed. He could only make a few out of it.

"Why the hell would you hurt yourself this way! Why would you hurt me this way." The man fuming in anger grabbed the weaker's collar and jerked him against the wall who definitely had his head colliding against the wall making him dizzy.

"Oh how about you take this too huh Mr ego filled one hell of a man!" He punched him more, he kicked him. He took out each and every ounce of anger residing within him out tonight.

Jungkook never once complained, never once asked him to stop. The only sound that escaped his lips was his groans filled in pain.

Hoseok stopped, he wasn't going to kill the other now. He noticed how Jungkook was barely moving more let alone putting up a fight. He dropped on his knees in front of the beaten up man. Grabbed his collar and made him sit straight up.

Hoseok : "Look at me. Look at me and tell me what's going on. I beg you huh. Tell me what the hell you want and I will get you that."

"It kills me Hyung.... Every day, every thought. The guilt, her, everything. It kills me." He broke down, finally letting those tears fall out of his eyes. Soon enough the man was a sobbing mess. Hoseok's grip on him lossened up as he fell back on his butt.

He never saw Jungkook crying before. Not when he begged him to cry it out, not when YN broke him up, not when his mother died. Not when he had himself killed multiple times.

It was the guilt, Hoseok knew. It was messing with his brain and brought him to this point of vulnerability.

JK :"I want her out of there but I am not doing anything. I want her to get back to life and I am still not doing anything. I want her to get a nice job, a nice life and probably someone who will love her like she deserves. I want it. Hyung I want it but seeing her with Tyler today made me lose it all. I don't know what I want anymore. I can't..... Think straight. I can't help myself. "

JK :" I can't handle this pain hyung. "He broke out more and Hoseok pulled him in his bone crushing embrace letting the other cry his heart out.

Hoseok : "Guilt is such a worse thing Gguk. But do you think you deserved what happened to you. She ruined you Jungkook and she already passed through this stage of guilt why else do you think she took in your every assault. She handled it too right. How about you man up and take it too. Atleast she never ran away. She still believed in her love. I remember when she told me 'I will win him back'. Why can't you do the same. You both ruined each other equally. You do not deserve to be under more pain then her. But please it is time to move on. Not you alone, her too. Bail her out. Let her live and seeing her happy will take a part of your guilt away too yeah? "

Hoseok :" Let me treat you now. You look miserable and you can't die before hearing what I accomplished today." He said proudly helping Jungkook on his feet who finally smiled towards his hyung.

He was happy, even after everyone left him, Hoseok didn't. His hyung stayed.

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