Finding solace on every little thing is a double-edged sword.

Flashback to five years ago, film class. The time it was justified: the doom, the flair.  An epithet hung in the air, waiting. It read: Jack of All Trades, Master of None. In the scene, the words seemed to hold so much weight, anyone observant enough would know it won't be long until they'd give in to gravity's plea.

And the words were still there. 

Still there.

Just there.

... Until they sank in.

The outside world will not be nice to a Jack like that.

I braced myself on what's to come.

The memory still rings emergency sirens in my head, countered thereafter with a mantra trying to soothe it. The act of trying to understand yourself sends you in a spiral. Ending with more suggestions of the little things you could snuggle with, more reasons to divert from your goals.

Finding solace on every little thing is a double-edged sword. I connect it with the heart I have for learning. The spark of something new pulling you away from your work in progress. Daunting you to take risk after risk. Until you finally look at them and see an assemblage of skills, projects, and woes all waiting for the next step. All far from completion.

Part of me wanted to frantically yell in all caps STOP, another part begs to calm down. I always succumbed to the latter. At the end of the day, I feel better when I know I am still in control.

Being that Jack was coded as a warning. Like how contents of ancient scrolls were passed from one tongue to another, it's a secret so loud it's in the backbone of every story. It's a proven theory of lost souls never making a home for themselves. Free-spirited dwellers that roam the earth. With fleeting interests and moments.

To never master anything is akin to never be a slave to anything. Isn't that actually good? To be a free-spirit? To never build a home for youself, but to actually build a home in yourself, comfortable in your own skin.

entj , slut for one piece &
amateur paper maker with
an array of interests.

the messy meta writing above is part of a writing tag by BalladPhoenix & TDOROKI
the task is writing about yourself the way you would write your characters. i think the tea is i want to write them with their flaws at the forefront? their anxieties and fears and their efforts to make sense of themselves as a whole.

the socials above? ofc theyre empty

gonna tag some people here.
you can make a designer profile or a writing tag or both if you fancy that kind of chaos.