Anxiety


When I woke up, I couldn't move. It was forbidden to move when you had been chosen.

I tried to keep my breathing the same not wanting to wake up Izuku. We had both fallen asleep on the couch last night.

I glanced at my phone. It was 5:37 am. I glazed over at the fridge and saw the new and improved lock on the floor.

Smart kid... when he wants something.

Izuku had fallen asleep on top of my arm. He was curled in a tight ball, but his head was right against my leg.

I was forbidden to move.

My cats on the other hand were on their cat tree. The look in their eyes showed anything but love. Sounds of a huge meows stir the air.

Those jealous little...

I activated my quirk, intimidating them. It worked and they put their heads down. Sadly, Izuku felt a change and he put his head up. He looked at me, the coach, then immediately jumped off.

"Good morning to you."

He ran off to his room.

I started to make breakfast. Nezu has given me unlimited access to any type of food. I have, in fact, gotten some coffee-flavored jelly packs for myself. I have no shame. My cupboard full of coffee jelly packs speaks true of that.

I've noticed over these past seven months that he hasn't been hiding for as long. It use to be hours. Now it's down to 10-20 minutes.

"Izuku. I have breakfast!"

The a kid walked back into the kitchen. His face turned red from embarrassment.

"It won't happen again."

"I have no idea what you are talking about. I didn't see anything."

He let out a small smile. His canines showed. I have always found that strange. It didn't matter what form he was in. Though when he is human, they are slightly smaller but don't hurt any less. Quickly as it came, the smile left. Getting any smile means we have come a long way. The first time I met him he was trying to kill me.

"Izuku?"

"Yeah?"

When we go to UA today, we will have you meet with a couple of students. If all goes well and you prove that you can handle being around people, then we will go to the park."

Izuku's face dropped.

"But I don't want to talk to anyone. Besides You, LunchRush, and Nezu are the only people I talk to."

"That's okay. That is why we need to do this."

"No. I don't want to. Why can't I just go back to the park? I just want to go back to that park."

"I'm sorry, you have to show us you won't attack people who get in your space."

"Please!" The please was not nice. It was demanding, "Please! I want to go!" Growling was coming out.

"Izuku. Look at what you are doing."

Tears started coming down his eyes and he ran off.

"Nothing is far!" He shouted.

I sighed. I walked to his room. He was crying in one of the corners. I sat down on his bed.

"Kid."

"I'm not your kid."

"Does that matter?"

"Yes, it does."

"Izuku look at me. I will take care of you. When you are hurt, I will be there for you. If you need something I will try to provide it. When you need help, I will help. Izuku I am trying to help you."

"Help hurts."

"Trust me. I will be by your side when you meet the students."

Izuku cried harder, "I don't want to."

He shifted into a wolf. The tears stopped flowing. He could not cry in this form.

He shifted into a relatively smaller size than normal. I stood and picked him up to go out and eat breakfast. He ate slowly, still scared to leave but, I picked him up again and drove to UA. He growled the entire time in the car. He was a boy when the car stopped. He tried to cling to the seats of the car. That itself said a lot. I picked him up like a normal parent would do. Then he did the most childlike thing he has ever done. He buried his head into my shoulder and cried into it.

"Please, I can't."

"Everyone you will meet is super nice."

I knew why he was scared. It's because of what he is, of what he was.

"Please, I can't."

I was walking towards UA, while I was holding Izuku.

He bickers like a banshee to adults. He fights or growls when people get into his space, but when it comes to people around his age he freezes. He avoids them like the plague when he is running around in his forest. The students have learned to just leave the wolf alone. On the other hand, when Izuku is Izuku, students are curious about why someone so young is at UA. The only exception was the kid from the Baukugo family.

I am surprised that he hasn't shifted. It would mean he wouldn't have to talk to anyone.

My arms started to hurt, so I set him back on the ground crouching to his eye level. He couldn't look me in the eyes.

There were fear in his eyes.

"I'm not going to do it."

"Izuku. You gotta show us you can do this."

I watched as ears appeared on his head, then a wolf ran off into the UA forest. I stood back up with a sigh.

~~~

"Nezu, Izuku has extreme social anxiety."

"I watched that whole reaction. It was heartbreaking. Though we are still going to have him meet two students today."

"Which years?"

"First years. I thought it best to have them closer in age. One of their quirks helps them with animals. The other one is naturally good with both animals and children."

"How are we going to get him out of the forest."

"I want you to ask him."

"He has never listened to me. Ever."

"Right now, Izuku is crying under a bush. He looks terrible." Nezu turned his computer around. There was Izuku. He looked abandoned, lost.

"Sorry, but I must go. I just remembered I have something to attend to."

"Two students are instructed to meet you down there in 30 minutes."

"I don't know what you are talking about."

I left him in his office. I walked faster than normal straight into the forest.

"Izuku!"

I heard no reply.

"Izuku! Where are you?"

I got a text from Nezu telling me exactly where he was.

I moved the bush out of the way and saw him. He was crying. His hand was over his mouth stopping any sound that would come out. His other hand was over his chest. I moved closer and he growled at me. I moved my hand a little closer. The growling sounded scared.

"Izuku." I said quietly, "Why are you so scared? It's not like you."

I already knew why, but if he said it aloud it would help him.

He uncovered his mouth, "My heart hurts. I'm dying."

He was having a panic attack.

I reached out for him giving him a hug..

"Don't worry that feeling will go away soon."

We sat there for more than 20 minutes. His breathing went down, and he stopped crying. 

I picked him up again.

My heart hurt too, but for a different reason.

"Izuku." I was walking out of the forest and saw two girls waiting to meet him. "I want you to meet those two girls over there, okay?"

"I can't. Please, I can't."

"Yes, you can. You don't even have to talk. Just let them do the talking."

Izuku looked back at the forest.

As soon as I walked up to the two girls, I motioned for them to sit down on the grass. We sat down in a circle.

My arms felt relief as Izuku's weight was now on the ground. I knew he wouldn't shift in front of them and run away. That would mean telling them he was the UA wolf. We sat there for a long time. No one said anything. One of the girls leaned back and lay on the grass. At this time Izuku had moved to hide behind me. Even though it shouldn't have, it made me thrilled. Now, that it's been about seven months Izuku has finally started trusting me.

One of the girls spoke up, "My name is Sora. The one next to me is Aki."

"Nice of you to both come here." Aki was in my homeroom, the other one was in one of my classes." I nudged Izuku, "Just tell them your name, that is all you have to do."

We waited.

"Izuku." He said quietly.

"Now Izuku before we leave, I think you should look at Sora and Aki."

He crept out behind my back, saw them then ran away towards the forest. When he was gone all three of us stood up.

"He is a cute kid," Aki said.

"Girls this is another part of being a hero. Nezu knows that both of you want to focus more on rehabilitation. I want you to keep meeting with Izuku. I know Nezu has already informed you about how to behave. We just need him to be less afraid of people so he stopped lashing out in fear."

"Of course, Sempi." The girls walked off. 

I now more than ever want Izuku to meet up with Bakugo again. He let that kid hug him. Twice. 

I watched as Izuku walked out of the woods, completely a different person now. "Where is LunchRush? Are we going to train today? I'm still planning to eat your cat's, you know. Can I go to the park? I'm hungry."

I laughed.

"Yes, I'm hungry too. Let's get some food. And Izuku," I spoke, "Let go to the park on Sunday."  

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