⚠️ MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING FOR THIS CHAPTER ⚠️

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Aidan breathes out shakily as he wiped his hands on his jeans, being absolutely nervous for today as he waited outside the gates of the village. He smile wryly at people that walked past him, making sure his sunglasses somewhat kept his identity obscured from anyone that might know him and so far smooth sailing. He anxiously waited for (y/n), desperately wanting to see her and he perks up when he hears a beep before a door opens. He swears a princess walked out, seeing his love come out in a beautiful vintage 50s floral teacup dress. The gown stopped just at her knees, flowing around her while she fixed her sweetheart tulle sleeves. There was even a matching large bow in her hair, going for a sweet princess style and it fit her so perfectly. Oh, she looked like an absolute dream, smiling brightly at him as she pads over to him in her flats.

"Hey-Aidan!" she gasps when he suddenly sweeps her off her feet and picks her up to spin her around her princess style, her holding his shoulders as she giggles. Oh even her laughter was so sweet, bombarding her face with kisses that makes her laugh.

"You're so beautiful (y/n). My Disney princess. You're absolutely perfect."

"Does that make you my Disney prince then?" she muses as she hooks her arms around the brunette's neck when he sets her down back on her feet and he smiles brightly at her.

"Who else would I be except your dashing knight in shining armour?"

"Well, my prince, what have you planned for today? You gonna slay a dragon?" His love jokes and the brunette pinches her nose playfully.

"Nope. I'm taking you on our date. I'm assuming you haven't had the time to explore the Disney park yet, have you?"

"Nope! Are we going to the park!?" She gasps in excitement and he nods. "LETS GO!" She exclaims in excitement and takes his hand, pulling him out to the street but he takes the lead to take her to the car he rented.

"I'm driving you today lovely." Aidan laughs softly seeing how amazed (y/n) was when she witnessed the blue 2017 Chevrolet Camaro convertible.

"This is one nice-looking car."

"There's more." The brunette presses a button and the top comes down.

"Hell yeah!" His love fist pumps the air, jumping into the car in excitement. "Let's go!" He laughs happily at how thrilled she was, quickly getting in the car and revving up the engines. He kisses his love's cheek, looking behind him to back out of the parking spot before driving off to the Disney Park.

This whole moment felt like a dream to him, having the love of his life next to him with the sun in the sky and the warm breeze blowing over them. He reaches over to hold her hand tightly, kissing the back of it and he notices the ring on her finger. The same one she bought in India and obviously he had his on. She leans her head on his shoulder and he tucks her hair behind her ear, speeding down the highway as the music blared out from the radio.

Aidan wished this moment lasted a little longer when he parked the car but he was still happy to be with (y/n), her jumping out of the car and being all jittery in excitement that made him smile lovingly at her. With the car locked and the hood up, he walked over to hold her hand and they walk to the entrance. The couple was able to walk in for free since one of them worked there, being in awe at how massive this park was.

"Holy shit..."

"You got that right..." the brunette gasps. "What do you want to see first?"

"To be honest I don't know. It's my first time going to a Disney Park in my entire lifetime. And there are four sections here!"

"Good thing we got here early in the morning so we can explore."

"I need to find Loki!" (Y/n) gasps suddenly and Aidan blinks at her in surprise before chuckling.

"Let's go find him then."

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The couple had an absolute blast together, exploring the park and looking at all the architecture as well as going on rides together. They were even greeted by the character actors since they knew (y/n) and wanted to tease her for being on a date with her boyfriend. All the princesses interacted with her and the princes interacted with Aidan, them singing one of the classic love songs from Disney and pushing the couple together afterwards. It was a whole performance that even people came to watch and the poor couple were blushing the entire time but they were gifted with trinkets from each Disney character.

The brunette even helped his love look for Loki just as she asked, asking him for a picture since she was too shy to ask and all three of them took a picture. His love almost fainted when they snapped a picture with both of them kissing her cheek on either side of her. There was playful fighting between the men in trying to win the hand of the girls hand in marriage but Aidan won obviously.

They had lunch together at the Crystal Palace where (y/n) worked, getting free meals since the chef loved her and even the character actors that knew her performed with her. The Beast, Mickey, Goofey, and Peter Pan all danced with her before passing her to her boyfriend-who danced with Cinderella, Esmeralda, Belle and Minnie-who danced with her last.

The couple watched the parade, having a small picnic dinner together while watching the fireworks together. It was the most beautiful and cliche date ever but they loved every minute of it together.

Aidan waited near the bathrooms for (y/n) when she went to freshen up a bit, smiling at her when she walked out and tried to look for him in the crowd. He walks over to her and taps her shoulder making her turn to him. "What's a beautiful girl like you doing here all alone this late at night?"

She raises a brow at him with a cheeky smile but goes along. "Well I was on a date but it looks like he ditched me." She pouts and he gasps dramatically.

"How could he leave someone as lovely as you!? He fumbled with a princess here! What if I took your date's place?"

"Hmm, I don't know." She feigns contemplating, chuckling.

"I promise you to be only a gentleman. Let me take you home."

"How do I know you won't do any funny business?"

"I would never. You have my word." Aidan bows and (y/n) laughs softly.

"Alright. You're more chivalrous than my date."

The brunette holds up his arm for his love to hold and he takes her back to the car, the both of them laughing at the goofy acting before they got into the car. He drove her home while holding her hand and kissing the back over and over again, parking with one hand before he got out and opened the door for her.

"Hmm, you really are a gentleman, aren't you." She jokes, taking hold of her love's hand to be pulled out of the car, closing the door behind her after.

"Of course I am. I need to drop you off at your front doorstep." He muses.

"You wish honey." (Y/n) nods over to the security guard that was by the gates and Aidan pouts, his plan of getting a kiss when he drops off his love at her door ruined. "But I had fun today Aidan, seriously. It really was-"

"-magical?" He smiles softly and his love nods happily, holding both of his hands as she steps closer to him. "You really are an absolute dream (y/n)." He sighs blissfully as he holds her chin up and leans down to press a sweet kiss on her lips. It was gentle and loving, sending sparks through the couple. He tilts his head to kiss her deeper, stroking her jaw and her neck before pulling back slowly. They both breathe in each other before leaning their foreheads on each other. "Can I see you again?" He whispers, bumping his nose against hers and she grins.

"Of course. When?"

"Day after tomorrow."

For our one year anniversary. I need the whole of tomorrow to plan and buy everything for her.

"I'm working-"

"-doesn't matter. I'll pick you up from work. Just... let me see you again."

"Of course. I'm not going to say no to you." The brunette smiles wildly, stealing another kiss from his love as she giggles.

"Now go on beautiful. Get some rest." She pouts at him, not wanting to leave but nods. She walks off and he watches her to make sure she gets home safe but she stops and turns around to run back to him, stealing a kiss from his lips before running off again.

Oh, Aidan physically melted on the spot hearing (y/n) laugh as she got into her village, walking back to his car all wobbly with a lovesick smile on his face.

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"Hey-" Aidan falters seeing how tired (y/n) looked when he opened the door of his hotel room, frowning softly from the bags beneath her eyes. "(y/n)-"

"-I'm fine." she shakes her head, dismissing him and he didn't like that, that was her immediate response. She hadn't slept the night before, unable to quiet the darkness in her head and she ended up just sleeping in the dark bathroom. "I just couldn't sleep last night."

"Why?"

"To be honest, I don't know." She lied and she didn't know that he knew she was lying.

"(y/n)-"

"-Aidan, I promise you I'm fine." she smiles at him and his heart falters at the sweet smile that he was effortlessly in love with but something seemed off about it but he just smiles and takes hold of her hand, slowly pulling his love into his hotel room. "I got you something." he gasps when she passes him a little wrapped box. "Happy one-year anniversary Aidan." She whispers with uncertainty. "I know it's not much but-"

"-(y/n), just having you here with me is enough. Whatever it is, I love it already. I don't need big gifts, I just want you." the brunette says, his heart jumping in excitement but hers beats in sadness when she heard him say the last sentence.

Aidan excitedly unwraps the gift to reveal an elegant glass case with two guitar picks siting on a velvet purple cushion. Not just any guitar picks, limited edition Disney guitar picks that he wanted to collect!

"No way!" 

(y/n) smiles warmly seeing her love do these cute little jumps of excitement when he saw his gift. "Turn it around." she urges him and he does, his eyes widening.

"You got them signed! With our names!"

"I got them custom-made with our favourite characters-" the brunette jumps on his love to hug her tightly, squeezing her in happiness and she breathe out in relief that he liked his gift.

"I love it! (y/n) They're amazing!"

"I'm glad..." she sighs out, feeling light before pulling back from the hug.

"I should've gotten you something besides making you dinner, especially when you got me something expensive and special and-"

(y/n) holds Aidan's cheeks to shush him from talking, trying to ease the guilt on his face with a thankful smile. "Aidan, I don't need anything else. The dinner is perfect. Like you said, I just need you." he smiles down at her and hugs her tightly before stepping back and holding her hand to take her to his bedroom.

"Relax and take however long you need. I ran a bath for you. Dinner is almost ready and you can wear whatever you want." he beams at his love who blushes when he takes her jacket off her after setting his gift down carefully on the bedside table, helping her strip out of her shirt and work pants before tying up her hair gently. He holds her waist and presses soft kisses on her shoulder as he guides her to the bathroom that smelled so lovely with jasmine and citrus. "Call me whenever you need anything." he kisses the top of his love's head and lets her relax in the bathroom, going back to the kitchen to finish cooking the dinner. He had bought everything the day before to make a big feast for her, having sweets and cakes in the fridge for her as well whenever she wanted to eat some.

The brunette smiles when he hears soft footsteps and looks over at his love who walked out in his sweater only, yawning into her hand and his heart yearns for her as she walks up to him and hugs him from behind.

She nuzzles her face against his back, feeling drained and tired and weak. She hated feeling like this on their special day. Their one-year anniversary and on valentines day too. She hated being such a mood killer and a downer but her love didn't mind. But she did. She stepped back when he turns around, gently placing a plate of food in her hands before kissing the top of her head. She blinks up at him, staring down at the plate and then back at him when she gets hit with an emotional wave. Again.

"Go sit down lovely, put your feet up and relax. I know you must be tired." her love says, not noticing the way her hands shook when she held her plate. She nods and walks over to the couch to sit down as she set the plate down in front of her. She couldn't eat, her mouth dry but not at the same time, a sick sinking feeling in her stomach.

Aidan was unaware of how (y/n) felt, just happy to be with her as he plated different kinds of food for her and poured her a drink. He was unaware of how empty she felt, how her chest felt heavy as her mind screamed at her for being a burden. She couldn't comprehend why he cared about her so much, why anyone would care about her at all. She looks up at him with a deep frown, her heart and chest hurting as she held back her tears.

Why...?

Why me...?

Why are you doing this...?

Stop...

Just stop.

I don't deserve this... an of this... 

I don't deserve you...

She gulped when he suddenly turned around and caught her staring, his smile falling immediately seeing his love look at him with such a broken look. "(y/n)...?" he silently set the plate down to not make her jump, slowly walking up to her and kneeling down on the floor before her. "Why are you crying...?" she hid her face in her hands, trying so hard not to cry in front of him.

"It's been a long day..." (y/n)'s voice cracks and she's disgusted with herself for being so fucking weak but Aidan didn't think that, he was just worried about her.

Why is she holding back?

Why is she lying to me?

What's hurting her?

"(y/n)-"

"-please... I just-not now..." she begs him and he stands up to pick up her plate and take its place on the couch, setting it on the coffee table. he reached out for her, carefully placing his hands on her shoulders to not scare her. The brunette's heart breaks hearing his love let out a shuddering breath and he hates that she held back from crying, wiping her eyes and just sitting normally like nothing happened. And this terrified him. Because he realised this wasn't the first time this has happened to her.

How long... how long has she trained herself to not cry... how long she bottled everything away... how long has she been hurting herself like this...?

"(y/n)-" He reaches over to hold her hand but she rips her left arm out of his grip so suddenly that it was an instinct. He looks down at the sleeves that covered her arm, furrowing his brows.

I'm sorry...

She hated that she ruined their first anniversary.

Why now?

Why today?

Why did you ruin this!?

"I'm sorry Aidan... I know you cooked all this amazing stuff but I'm not hungry..."

That was a lie but she didn't know if she could physically stomach anything.

"Come here sweetheart." Aidan pulls (y/n) into his lap only after she was ok with him touching her, having her rest against his chest. "You have to eat." she doesn't say anything when he reaches over for the plate and holds it, feeding his love by hand to make sure she eats. This makes her tear up again at how someone could care for her so much like this, sniffling as she ate when she couldn't hold back her tears. It was like the dam had broken inside her and it just didn't want to stop. 

Years of bottling everything up...

She buried her head against her loves chest when she didn't want to eat anymore and he sets the plate down after only a few bites, wrapping his arms around her to hug her tightly as if he was trying to protect her. "Whatever it is, I can help you through it (y/n), we can make it better, you and me.

"I'm sorry..."

"Why are you sorry? You have nothing to apologise for."

"For ruining today..."

"That doesn't matter, you are more important." this makes her tear up even more, feeling even worse. "You mean the world to me, you are everything to me. I need you, I can't live without you. You have my heart (y/n), I'm entirely yours. I'm not going anywhere. I'm not leaving you, you're not alone anymore. I'm not leaving you behind." Aidan couldn't help but tear up himself, leaning his forehead ontop of (y/n)'s head as he held her tightly. "Because I lo-" he grits his teeth when his phone rings, glaring at it when it ruined the moment he was going to say what his heart felt to his love. The ringing stops and he opens his mouth to say it but gets cut off again when his phone starts ringing again. And again. And again.

His love moves away and sits at the end of the couch to herself as she wiped her tears and passed him his phone. "I think the call might be important..." she whispers so softly and his heart just shatters, taking the phone from her hand. Before the brunette could stop her, she got up to clean up the plates and pack the food away in Tupperware. He grips his phone tightly in anger, looking at the screen to see who called him and saw that it was Steve. He answers the phone, not realising his love looking at him with a frown as he got up and paced the living room.

"What do you mean now!? As in now now!? I can't-I'm with (y/n)-no I can get there tomorrow-you got me tickets already!? I can't leave! I can't leave her!"

"Aidan, it's ok." she speaks up and he looks at her sadly.

"(y/n), no-" she shakes her head and he purses his lips, listening to his director and begrudgingly agreeing. "Fine..." he ends the call and she hated how miserable he looked as their anniversary didn't go exactly as planned. "They're asking me to come back for the TUA Season 4 drop, interviews and stuff-"

"-I understand."

Aidan hated that. Hated how understanding (y/n) was. Hated that she let him go so easily because she knew his life would be demanding. He hated that he was a terrible boyfriend to her, leaving her alone for so many months because he was too busy filming, hated that she was ok with that, hated that he was so love with someone who still waited for him to come back anyway. He has to be hurting her like this but why isn't she saying anything?

"(y/n) don't... our one-year anniversary..." she doesn't say anything and walks up to him, hugging him tightly and he immediately hugs her back.

"Thank you. You worked so hard to make tonight perfect."

Say something else besides that (y/n)... please...

"Do they want you back immediately?" she asks and he nods slowly. "Let's get you packed then." 

Don't keep sacrificing yourself for me, fight back, please yell, scream, argue with me! Stop being so quiet! Stop taking this just as it is!

(y/n) pulls Aidan into his bedroom and he slowly starts to pack, her helping him and he looks at her. Her face was blank, tired...

Is this why she was so calm? So logical?

His stomach sinks thinking that what he thought was a strength he admired in his love was something that was killing her inside. "(y/n)-" she zipped up his luggage once everything was packed, rolling it out to eh front door and he followed her. "Please-"

"-I'll drop you to the airport." She smiles at him and his frown deepens.

"I'm begging you-"

"-come on. I don't want to get you in trouble with Steve."

That sentence would've made him chuckle but now it just made his stomach feel queasy.

He couldn't stop her when she left his hotel room, leaving him standing in the living room all cold and heartbroken.

"I love you, so much (y/n)..." Aidan croaks out, not realising that (y/n) was only a few steps down the hallway. She didn't hear what he said over the pounding in her ears at how heartbroken she was to be alone again, that he was leaving her again.

She didn't want him to leave.

And he didn't want to leave.

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(y/n) trudged back into Aidan's hotel room after saying goodbye to him at the airport, waiting until he got on his flight to come back to his place. She couldn't go back to her dorm room an absolute mess and she promised him she would clean his place anyway and return his keys to the front desk. She gently locks the door behind her and heads to the bedroom before closing that door, crumbling to the floor as she sobbed into the silent air. She cried as she thought about the kiss they shared, somehow filled with pain and unspoken words and she didn't know why. She clutched her shirt in agony as she just cried and cried, feeling so alone in the bedroom that smelled exactly like him.

The skin on her left arm itched for a relief from her mental pain, needing that relied of physical pain but she left her pen in her room...

She deserved this. Deserved the pain.

This was all her fault.

She was the problem.

Why couldn't she just be a fucking normal person!?

She clutched her head, screaming at the voices to just stop as she leaned her forehead against the floor and cried.

What's wrong with me...?

Unknowing to her, her phone lit up with two messages.

One from Aidan who was crying on the plane begging for her to call him.

The other being another threat.

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