[a/n a little bit of heavy stuff discussed my boys, so enjoy, and buckle in... it's going to be a ride... and hopefully suprising.]

At 4pm on the dot, Milla turned on her stream. Since posting the tweet at around noon she hadn't checked her constantly buzzing phone. If we were being completely honest, she was scared. This is what she never wanted to happen.

For the first ten minutes of the stream her face cam was off, and she was allowing time to make sure that everyone had an opportunity to get in. Her stream showed the 15k people were on. It appeared that many people were either desperate to bash her (as seen through the chat) or genuinely wanted an explanation. When she thought that she was ready to face the music, she turned face cam on. She gave a sombre smile and started, "Hey guys... uhm, if you didn't see the tweet, or you're here to see some minecraft, unfortunately there isn't going to be any of that today, and i'm streaming solo. Ren is in the other room, for emotional supoort if need be, hopefully not but she is here, and she knows what's going on."

"If you're new here, or dont know what's happening... Hi. I'm Meimoo, or Milla, and I have royally screwed myself over. Uhm... I started streaming about two months ago roughly, and I've seen a sharp incline in viewership and following thanks to Tommy and Tubbo. And that's kind of where everything starts. I'm pretty good friends with Tubbo, and on stream last night I said I'd tell him my name if he got TommyInnit to friend Ren and I back on discord. He did, and we called him. Ren and I have been friends for a very long time, about ten or so years I think, and she is very used to my... sarcastic nature. I am very new to this... internet buisness, and especially twitter, that I've messed up."

"And if there's anything you want me to address this stream, put it in chat and I'll try my best to answer. So, last night Ren and I were arguing like we normally do, but Tommy joined the call. We were goofing around, and talking abot college and things when Tommy said one of his 'women' jokes. I wasn't offended, neither was Ren, but we made a bit out of it, where I was flaming him for being a 'weird champ'. I then said I'd 'cancel' Tommy as a joke, and then tweeted about it. I have clips pulled up on my screen so that I can show you guys what I mean."

Milla played the clip, and showed a picture of her tweet, before going back to face cam only, and continued with the story, "So, about five minutes after that we all chilled out and Tommy understood that it was a joke, and he wasn't bothered by it, but his stans on twitter definitely were. I want people to understand that I look up to Tommy and admire everything he's done with his career, and I also didn't mean any harm in what I did. I didn't have Twitter in highschool at all, and I frankly dont understand it. I understand that I've made a mistake, but I also want to address something else."

The mood quickly turned sombre, and almost angry, "In the past 18 hours I have received a multitude of death threats, my name slandered, and I have had a cup of coffee thrown at me. I understand that what I said was probably too far, and I'm much too sarcastic for that platform, but what has happened is not okay. The harrasment online has been beyond inappropriate. To say "I will come to your house, and shoot you dead, " is never okay. In any circumstance. I do not care if I insulted your favorite content creator, threatening someones life, without just, lawful reasons, is unacceptable. And I believe,  against the law. If you want to insult me, drag me, whatever, fine. It may hurt my feelings, but I will never accept a threat to my life, nor a threat to anyone I may care about, that includes Ren, and Tommy, and Tubbo."

"I can accept being called a "worthless bitch", or "a waste of space", or even "a gold digging hoe" which isn't even relevant to the situation by the way, but threatening me, or actually attacking me in real life is unacceptable. I would also like to address everything that people have been sending to Tommy. I understand that it is in good consience to protect him, or his platform, as fans, but harrassing him into unfriending Ren or I isn't okay. If he truly was hurt by what was said, I'm certain he would've told me, and to further that, I even texted him after the stream to make sure I hadn't hurt his feelings. He said he found it funny, and it wasn't too bad. So please stop dm'ming Tommy, or spamming his chat with hate for me, it's not worth bringing Tommy anymore into this than he already is."

"Now that that's over... I'd like to apologize just once more for any turmoil I might've caused by my tweet. I didn't mean it, and I truly do like Tommy, I look up to him, and I hope to become a friend. If theres anything else you want me to address, put it in chat now, and I'll try my best. Or if you just want to ask me anything, go ahead."

Milla stayed silent for a second, scrolling farther up the chat to the first question, "You said that someone threw coffee at you? Are you okay, what happened?"

"Thank you for your concern, but if you didnt know, I am in college, and I was on my way to class when a girl chucked her, thankfully, iced coffee at me. I hadn't at the time checked my phone, and didn't know what was happening, and I was very confused. I'm okay now, and I'm certain it will eventually be a funny story to tell, but at the moment, I'm still upset about it."

"why did you tweet in the first place?"

"That is a good question, and if I'm being honest, I was just joking around and doing a bit. I didn't think this would ever happen and I really wish I hadn't tweeted it at all."

"Have you talked to Tubbo or Tommy about any of this?"

"No... the only person I've talked with is Ren, and I probably should speak with them, and I will, but I wanted to talk with you guys first and foremost to clear things up, and send my message."

"how have your parents reacted to this/what did they say?"

"Well, uhm... my mom doesn't actually know that I stream. So uhm... she has no clue that any of this is going on. Thank goodness, she'd flame me for all of this."

The stream continued with chat asking questions, and her answering for around another hour before Milla felt that it was enough, and she had explained enough. "Okay, well... I'm going to go now guys, and I hope that was an adequate enough reason/explanation for you all. Thank you guys for listening, and to the people still making fun of me, or hating me, know that I hear you... but I don't have time for you. I'm very busy in my everyday life and I don't have room up here," She tapped her temple, "For you lot to fit. My own demons take up too much room. So just know your precious seconds you spend shitting on me don't do anything, because I don't have the time, nor energy to care that someone doesn't like me. But on the flip-side, if you've ever said something nice, I've most likely seen it and it makes my day. It is so wonderful to see the support for myself and Ren's careers, and we're so lucky to have you guys. That's all, and I'm signing off for today, goodnight guys."

[a/n, wowee what a chapter. i wanted to address the most toxic sides of being a content creator because I feel like its not talked about enough. On the other hand, I know it seems as though it's only following Milla but that's only because there has to be a bit of a lead up to introducing Tommy, and furthermore, deeper into Ren's storyline. So more Ren content soon!]

p.s. roughly edited. there's most likely some errors, but I got the big boi ones I could see. :)