you're annoying

no one wants you here

why are you still here?

i'm sick of you.

i'm sick of you.

it hurts looking at you

stop opening your mouth

for god's sake

just sew it shut

cut out your tongue

anything.

oh, you're mad about something?

bad news

your opinion doesn't matter

at all.

hypocrite

all you know is how to take

and never give, and never give back

your hands touch flowers and they disappear

why can't they do the same for me?

you only know how to disappoint, do you?

learn how to read the mood

you don't have friends

only people who tolerate you

people who you drive away

there's already a wall

and the gap between them and you

widens, widens, widens,

widens, widens, widens.

you can't expect them to

be there for you

they have their own lives

their own troubles

one that doesn't involve you

the sooner you realise that,

the sooner your disillusioned mind

will break

look! now you're alone!

are you happy?

are you happy?

i'm not.

i will never love you

because you are me

and i can never love

someone like me.

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h still can't get over my emo mood,,

idk whether to say this is personal or not? like i'm 50/50 about the whole thing- maybe it's actually happening and maybe it's all in my head and i'm overthinking- but i've worried myself sick and i've been having really bad spikes of anxiety

i wish i could talk to a friend but ,,, considering i can't talk to someone without overanalysing every little word and jumping to the worst possible conclusion rn, it's probably not the best option haha