Let me tell you guys the truth... Everything you need to know about me... And all what I've been through and how I actually feel... I don't wanna do this but I have to let you all know... I really do...

Ok so you all know me as penguin insanity and/or chiller... I honestly don't like those names...

Chiller: a cold and cruel person who doesn't give a shit about any fucking thing

And

Insanity: someone who is mentally and physically insane and does whatever the fuck she wants cuz she doesn't give a fuck and she fucking does everything fucking wrong!

I NEVER WANTED TO BE INSANE AND I NEVER WANTED TO BE COLD! I FUCKING NEVER WANTED TO BE WHO I AM TODAY CUZ IM A FUCKING BITCH THAT NO ONE LOVES! AND THE PEOPLE WHO SAY THEY LOVE ME ARE JUST SAYING THAT! CUZ PEOPLE FUCKING HATE ME CUZ IM A FUCKING BITCH! WHEN IM INSULTED BY SOMEONE MY DAD SAYS SHAKE IT OFF AND DONT LISTEN TO THEM! HOW CAN I FUCKING DO THAT WHEN THEY FUCKING DO IT EVERY FUCKING TIME! AND YOU KNOW HOW INSANE I AM?!?! WHEN I WAS LITTLE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK A COMPUTER WAS! I DONT KNOW ANY SUBJECT IN SCHOOL! AND I SUCK AT EVERYTHING I DO! I TRY TO UPDATE BOOKS EVERY DAY AND I FAIL! I TRY TO DRAW THINGS AND MAKE PROMISES I CANT KEEP!!! I FAIL YOU GUYS EVERY FUCKING DAY AND I FAIL EVERYONE I TRY TO PLEASE! EVERYONE HATES ME CUZ IM A BITCH WHO KNOWS NOTHING! I HAVE A SPEECH PROBLEM AND EVERYONE MAKES FUN OF ME FOR IT! I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THE REAL WORLD! IVE LIVED IN A WORLD WHERE EVERYTHING IS PERFECT EVERYTHING IS GREAT! BUT ITS A MOTHER FUCKING LIE! IVE BEEN LIED TO MY WHOLE LIFE OF WHATS OUT THERE! I ALMOST KILLE A KID! TWICE! AND I BEAT UP EVERYONE THAT ANNOYS ME! HECK I KICKED A KID IN THE PRIVATES AND I DIDNT GIVE A SHIT! EVERYONE IS AFRAID OF ME AND ITS NOW JUST PITY FRIENDSHIPS!!! I CANT DEAL WITH ANY OF THIS SHIT AND I PUT ON A FAKE FUCKING SMILE EVERYDAY AND I LAUGH ALOT CUZ I KNOW IF I DONT LAUGH EVERYONE WILL KNOW IM NOT OK! I DONT LET PEOPLE WORRY ABOUT ME CUZ I DONT WANT THEM TO! I LET PEOPLE HAVE THEIR DREAMS! FOR PETES SAKE I CRUSHED nerdqueenrules  DREAM OF BEING A YOUTUBERS TRUE LOVE! I FUCKING DIDNT GIVE A SHIT AND I FUCKING LIKED DOING IT TO HER! BECAUSE I WAS BEING SUCH A BITCH THAT I HURT MY OWN FRIEND! BUT THATS JUST GIVING SOMEONE THE TASTE OF REALITY! REALITY ISNT MADE UP! SO JUST GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS NOW SO REALITY WONT KICK YOU IN THE ASS LATER!

Lloyd: MARIA STOP SAYING THAT!

Jace: WHO CARES ABOUT REALITY YOU CANT CRUSH EVERYONES DREAMS!

YOU TWO CAN FUCKING LEAVE AND NEVER COME BACK! YOU TWO ARE JUST THINGS THAT DONT EXIST! I WISH I NEVER THOUGHT OF YOU!!!

Lloyd: wha?.....

Jace: maria....

GO AWAY!!! YOU TWO ARE JUST MADE UP!!! YOU WERE MADE BY A TEN YEAR OLD WITH AN IMAGINATION!!! THAT GIRL IS GONE! *tears up* GO AWAY!

Why do I even have friends......

Why do I even have followers......