Today's the day
The wedding day
The day you go from single, to engaged, to married
The day I say goodbye to my one and only love
Of course you would laugh at that
You never saw me that way, did you?
I was your best friend, and that was all I would ever be right?
That's all I ever was,
Harry Potter's best friend!
No one knew about my feelings, not even you
I tried making it obvious
I really did
Yet here I am
In the bathroom
As you and her dance your first dance as a married couple
Here I am throwing up
Throwing up Poppy flowers and blood
I was oblivious, I was not aware of what a cruel world we were living in, of course I was too caught up in my thoughts about you to realize
I let my mind imagine a little world in which you and I were married, have a small family
Where we were happy
One where you loved me too
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You just left my house
You came over smiling
That smile that I love to see
Now it's a constant reminder of what could've been mine
But hey at least your happy!
That's all that should matter
Fuck my feelings
You're the boy who lived, of course you have the happy ending
You hugged me and I appreciated that
Yet I noticed something
You held me tighter compared to most of our hugs
You held on longer compared to most of the time
Maybe I'm over analyzing it
I am aren't I?
Silly me
Here I go again
I can feel the petals coming up
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You and her had your first big fight
You said she's cheating on you
This wouldn't be the first time you guys had a fight like this
But it's your first big fight as a married couple
You came over because you wanted to give her sometime to herself
I know how to make you feel better
And that's what I did
We cuddled and watched movies
Just like the good old days
We were watching some stupid comedy movie when the petals began flowing up
I quickly ran to the bathroom, I tried shutting the door but you were always stronger
You saw the Poppy petals come out of my mouth along with blood
You didn't freak out
You just comforted me and made sure I was okay
God it's the little things that make me fall in love with you even more
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she left you
All because you wouldn't have sex with her
What a bitch
You've stayed at my place as she packed her shit
I always knew she wasn't right for you
You were just too oblivious to see
You found out about the petals and the reason I have it
You think it's because I love Pansy
Silly you
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You brought it up during breakfast
The operation I could get
It will get rid of the blossoming and wilted flowers
But it would also get rid of all my feelings
Including my feelings for you
You said to just simply confess my feelings to Pansy and get rid of the disease once and for all
And so that's what i did
I confessed my feelings
To you
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You kissed me
I didn't kiss back
Not because I didn't want to
I was just in shock
Eventually I kissed back
A week passed by and I haven't thrown up
We had a special night a few months later
And it was
Amazing
We were so happy
Until she came back
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You packed your bags and left
You moved back in with her
You said you two were starting with a clean slate
And so it returned
The burning pain I felt was unbearable
Not just from the petal I kept throwing up
But seeing you with her after everything
That hurt
I won't get the operation
I don't care if I die
I want my last moments on earth loving you
Even if you don't love me back
Because life isn't a fairy tale
We don't all get our happy endings
Some of us don't get the knight in shining armor or the Prince Charming
Some of us aren't lucky enough
And that sucks
Why?
Because I was never happy
Until you showed up and changed that
You waltzed in and made me fall in love
You made so many people fall for you
But as they say, she got lucky
In the end she won
She must be happy knowing she got what we all wanted
What I wanted the most
Or who I wanted the most
She always hated how close you and I were
She's happy that we were torn apart
That's why she came back
She doesn't love you like I do
She won't love you like I do
wait no
She doesn't love you like I did
She won't love you like I did
Because let's face it
My times almost over
There's nothing we can do now
So to my lover who never was
This long letter is for you
I wish you the best in life
Cherish your life and live your fairy tale life
You deserve it
And although it means nothing now,
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
See you then

All the love,
Draco Malfoy xXx

Harry sat there, holding  the letter as he looked into the ocean. He didn't understand the pain Draco felt until now. He thought it was because of her, but boy was he wrong. As soon as Draco passed away, his hands intertwined with Harry's, small purple hyacinths began to come out of his mouth along with little bits of blood.  He cried, the pain was too much. Loosing his best friend, the one person who truly loved him, and the flowers that began to come out of his mouth.

(Poppy flowers represent: oblivion and imagination
Purple Hyacinth represents: deep feelings of sadness and regret as well as asking for forgiveness)

Hey guys, this is it. Our 200 chapter. Woah, just whoa. I hope you enjoyed this book, and I just wanna say thank you for being supportive and nice. You're all amazing people and I just- I'm crying ha. Just yeah thanks for everything. Thanks for your time and support, I will be editing some old chapters as well so yeah. Thanks for your kindness and support! You truly are amazing little nuggets of joy.