December 17th 2016

On december 17th I had a meeting at Big Hit about working on a collab with Taehyung. BTS was still getting back from being in Japan but would be coming back later this afternoon. If I wanted to come back then to work with them I could of but I didn't. I met with Pdogg and Supreme Boi.  We tried to work through some things but in the end we had to wait till Taehyung got there. The rest of BTS would also be joining as well. My manager and their manager stayed near and talked about the collab and promotions with everything in the new year. After lunch the members all showed up and I met them in their dance studio to hang out before we all went to work. 

Before I entered the studio I could hear them talking and laughing. I knocked on the door before walking in and they all looked at me. My eyes caught Yoongi's eyes and I smiled and looked at everyone. 

"Hi" I said softly before bowing. They immediately got up before walking over to me bowing as well. 

"Hi" RM said before motioning for me to join them. 

I walked over and sat down with them on the studio floor. After I sat the guys sat down as well. we were in a somewhat messed up circle. I sat beside Seokjin on my right Namjoon on my left then Hoseok was beside Namjoon and Yoongi on the other side of him. Taehyung was technically next to yoongi but there was more space as him and Jimin were close together and then Jungkook was beside them. 

"We would like to get to know you if that is ok with you." Namjoon said and I nodded. 

"If we are all going to be friends that only makes sense" I told him and some of the guys chuckled. 

"True, I guess first is how old are you?" Namjoon said taking lead in the conversation. 

"I am 22, I am a 94' liner" I told him smiling. 

"Oh so you are the same age as me and Joonah! what day?" Hoseok asked smiling like a ball of sunshine. 

"In November on the 5th." I tell them smiling. "How about all of you?" 

"Well me and Namjoonah are also 94'liners My birthday is in February and Joon's is in September." Hoseok said smiling 

"My birthday is in December back on the 4th" Jin said to me and I looked at him. "I am the oldest here as well I am 24" 

"Yeah Jin Hyung is a 92'liner" Jungkook said chuckling "I am the maknae a 97'liner birthday on September  1" 

"Then me and TaeTae are 95' liners my birthday is in October and I am 21," Jimin said smiling so wide his eyes were hidden.

"And I turn 21 at the end of December" Tae said smiling. 

"I am 93' liner my birthday is in March so I am 23" Yoongi said softly. 

"We are sorry about Yoongi he is a bit of shy boy" Jin said nudging me and I giggle. 

"I am sure he can be talkative if he wanted to be" I said to them and they laugh. 

"Wait why is that funny" Yoongi said looking at them. 

"Hyung, you are the quietest out of all of us" Jimin said "You also sleep whenever you get a chance." 

"But that doesn't mean I am- whatever" Yoongi said and I giggled. 

"I have one more question for everyone, how would you like me to address you?" I asked them "I would be ok if you called me Dayoung or Day. In professional settings Daya could work as well. Nuna as well works for the Maknaes" 

"Well since me and you are close in age, you can just call me Joonah or Joon, If you want to add Oppa you can." Joon told me and I nodded understanding. 

"Most of them call me Hobi or Hobe, you can add Oppa if you want since we are the same age." Hobi told me and I nodded. 

"You can call me Taehyungie, Tae, TaeTae, I basically answer to anything" Tae told me causing me to giggle. 

"You can either call me Jimin, or Jiminie" Jimin told me giving me one of his eye smiles again. 

"You can either call me Jungguk, or kookie, or gukkie" Either one Jungkook told me.

"They mostly call me Jin, but you can call me Jin Oppa, sometimes they call me Seokjinnie. Either is ok" Jin said and I smiled and then looked at Yoongs. 

"Last but not least?" I said getting his attention and he looked at me and smiled slightly. 

"Yoongi or Yoongs. or Suga Oppa if you feel like it" He said and I nodded smiling. 

"Alright do any of you have any other questions for me" I asked them. Jimin looked at me and smirked. 

"Do you have a boyfriend?" Jimin asked and I giggled and shook my head. 

"No I don't, but I am too busy for dating, plus I don't think you are my type. Don't get me wrong you are adorable and cute. But not my type to date." I told him and he pouted. 

"Nuna why??" He joked getting dramatic and I laugh. 

"You are very outgoing, I am a more of stay at home and have a quiet night with a cup of coffee" I tell him and he chuckles. 

"So you are like Yoongi Hyung, Jin hyung, and Kookie" Tae said smiling. I noticed Hobi looked at yoongs and he subtle smirked at him. 

"I guess" I said to him giggling. "But I don't know all of your personalities besides what I've seen online from you all" 

"Do you have a bias in the group because you seem to be basically an Army" Jin said looking at me and I giggle. 

"Oh you know I can't disclose that information, I am not supposed to have a favorite." I said avoiding the answer. 

"Oh you so do, who is it" Jungkook said smirking 

"fine I do have a bias, but you have to guess now" I tell them smirking. 

"Ok we will each ask a question to learn information then." Joon said and I nodded. " Does he have dark or light hair right now?" 

"Dark" I said and looked a Hobi to go next. 

"Can he rap?" Hobi asked and I giggle. 

"can't you all basically rap?" I ask him 

"fine ok what color does he look best in?" Hobi asked and I thought for a minute. 

"Either black or Red" I said to him and he nodded. Yoongi thought for a minute and looked at me. 

"How would you describe his voice?" He asked me and I thought for a second. 

"Silky but rough" I said and blushed. "He also has somewhat of a relaxing calming tone" 

"Ok, do you know if he has any pets?" Tae asked me and I nodded 

"He has a dog I believe" I said blushing. 

"Does he have any siblings?" Jimin asked 

"One I believe" I said 

"is he in the hyung Line?" Jungkook asked and I nodded. Jin chuckles and looks at me and I blush. 

"Does this person produce music?"Jin asked and I blush nodding. 

Jin looked at Yoongi who was turning red in the face with blush. Hobi started laughing. The others joined in and I giggled softly looking at him. 

"Also to be fair there is one more person who is my bias." I said and they looked at me. 

"Who?" The each said and I giggled. 

"Jin Oppa" I said softly and I could see Jin also blushed, his ears turned red. "I mean he is the visual," 

Then the managers walked in and told us we should all get to work. I looked at my manager and she motioned for me to come over to her and I got up and followed her to the hallway. She gave me a smile and started talk about the collaboration. It will be me, Taehyung, and Jimin. She told me that Yoongi has also agreed to help with producing but since I have composition and writing skills that I will also be working on writing it. She told me she was going to give me the rest of my day here to work with them and that she will be on her way home for an early day. I bowed and thanked her before walking back inside. I saw their manger was still speaking with them so I waited by the door to be polite. When he finished some of them started to head out.  I walked over to Yoongi, Jimin, and Tae. 

"Hey" I said softly smiling at them. "My manager has left and told me that basically it is up to you guys on how long I am here" 

"Oh nice, I was thinking we could go to one of the recording studios and mess around hear how all three of your voice sound together" Yoongi said talking to me and vmin. 

"Alright lets go" Jimin said and him and tae lead the way to go to the recording rooms. 

I looked at Yoongi and smiled at him heading to follow Jimin and Tae. Yoongi ended up walking beside me. I could tell he wanted to act closer to me but also didn't know what would be too much. I understood that feeling because I felt that as well with him. Every night I replay when we were in Hong Kong in the hotel room. The way his lips felt still feel like a haunted kiss on my lips. I wanted that feeling again. We walked into the recording studio. I smiled at them and waited to be told what to do. 

"Can I have you Day go in the studio and sing something so I can adjust the settings, since I don't know how the settings for things for you, you understand what I am trying to say right?" Yoongs asked me and I nodded. 

"Yeah sure." I said and I walked in and put on some headphones and spoke in the mic "Just sing anything?" 

"yeah" I heard him say and I thought for a minute before I sang one of IU's songs 

https://youtu.be/9Zgmem9DCfY

I sang a little bit till I realized that none of them said anything and stopped. 

"Everything ok?" I asked them

"Uh yeah, wow" I heard Yoongi say and I blush. I walked out of the studio 

"Your voice is so soft and lovely." Tae said smiling 

"Yeah I can't wait to sing with you." Jimin said and looked at Yoongi. "Should we all go in there and just mess around?" 

"Yeah I can work on blending your voices." Yoongi said and I nodded following Jimin and Tae in. 

"Here stand in the middle" Tae said moving me to the middle. 

"Why not we sing Lost and take turns and blend together our voices?" Jimin suggested and I nodded. 

"let me grab my phone so I am sure of the lyrics." I said stepping out and grabbing my phone from my bag and back inside. "Ok I am ready." 

Yoongi started the music and we all sang and goofed around trying different singing techniques and having a laugh and fun. We then sang and goofed around. 

"Have you ever try to rap?" Tae asked me and I shook my head no. 

"No I haven't" I said and he then looked at me and I pouted. "I am going to fail at it" 

"no just have fun" Tae said encouraging and Jimin chuckled at him. 

"He is a raplines biggest fan" Jimin said making me giggle. 

"Fine but nothing too hard." I said to him. 

"Cypher part 3" Tae said looking like a little kid who got a gift on christmas

My eyes widened and I shook my head no. "No, nope. Can't, sorry" I said 

"Come on please" Tae said giving me this look I couldn't say no to. 

(This was just memorable to put in) 

https://youtu.be/GQ0XGbHjKRE

Around 7-8:00 we all wrapped up and decided we should all head our separate ways. Tae and Jimin left together and I hung back with Yoongs. I sat down as he finished somethings on the computer. 

"Hi" I said softly looking at him. He turned around and faced me. 

"Hi" he said giving me a soft small smile. I got up and walked over to him. I wasn't no longer thinking about anything and it was mostly my feelings leading me to do what I was about to do. I sat on his lap facing him. 

"Day...you shouldn't" He started to say and I shook my head. 

"I shouldn't but I want to." I told him softly before kissing him. 

He kissed me back not arguing with what I did. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist. We both could tell we had feelings for each other. I don't know how long we kissed for, but it felt amazing. He pulled back and looked at me. 

"What happened to being just friends?" He asked me. 

"We can still be friends, we don't have time to give each other the attention the other person deserves if we dated." I tell him and I can see his eyes saddened a bit. "I'm sorry" 

"You care for me right?" He asked me and I nodded. "Then why not?" 

"You know why not." I tell him getting up. "Because, I wouldn't be just dating Yoongi, I would be dating Suga of BTS. We would be the talk of the week and everything we would do wouldn't be just for us it would be for everyone else to know. Plus your band is doing so well, I don't want to be a distraction. You are traveling more now with tours. I am starting out as an Idol, everything I do right now has to be for me to get better and grow as an Idol. You know this you went through it as well." 

"You give me mixed signals Day. You flirt with me saying I am your Bias, you gave me little looks around my friends, in the studio booth you flirted with me. Just now you made out with me, that night in your hotel room we opened up and kissed for the first time. Do you want to be just friends because I don't want to do a more than friends but friends thing you have been doing with me lately. I don't want us to continue playing with each other's emotions." He said opening up about how he was feeling. I felt tears start to form in my eyes.

"Me giving you mixed signals, You give me whiplash with the amount of times your mood around me changes. With your friends you treat me like a perfect strange yet at times when we are alone your a total different person. I shared very much private information with you, you acted as like a comfort hiding spot I could trust with everything. Tomorrow if we were to meet I wouldn't know if it was Yoongi, my Yoongs, or Suga Oppa, or even Agust D I would be seeing."  I tell him getting heated. 

"Fine, well seeing as you don't know who you are working with or even kissing, why not we just end everything here." He said crossing his arms. 

"Fine," I said grabbing my bag. "Min Yoongi it was a pleasure knowing you." 

I walked out and started headed to the exit. Half way down the hallway I turned back and I saw Yoongi in the doorway. I felt a tear fall down may face and I turned and continued walking out of Big Hit. 

I got on a bus and headed towards my apartment. When I got there I knew it was late but I called my sister. I told her about everything while in tears. She reminded me of my latibule, my comfort or hiding spot. She was like coming home and helping me feel safe. I use to call her a lot when I was training a cube but she never knew the full reason why just that I needed someone to confide in.