i sit alone, on a chair

the sunlight shining through a hole in the curtains

like a flashlight beam

the cat munching on a piece of dried toast, that fell on the floor

my dirty cup, half filled with

watered down orange juice, washing down

the pills i pop like vitamins

just to stay alive

a tattered teddy bear

lays on the bed

a sad reminder of the past

toying with my emotions

i feel like a dragon, hiding

but i will not rise again

this is not living

but it is my life