With tear filled eyes, Louis finally completes typing his goodbye to Harry.

He takes a long painful sigh.

He feels like his heart is a hundred tons weighing his soul down to the ground.

His insides scream for him to stop this misery and confess everything to Harry and not leave.

But he knows better than to think Harry will in anyway believe him.

He wipes his tears and logsoff his email account.

He scribbles down his email address and pasword on a paper then goes downstairs to the livingroom where Zayn's texting Liam.

Zayn's face was scrunched up in worry and Louis knew he was the topic of their conversation.

Oh well, might as well get this over with! Louis tells himself.

"Hey Zaynie?" Louis says to make Zayn aware of his presence.

Zayn looks up and fake-smiles which Louis can see through like clear water but doesn't comments on it.

"Yeah Lou. You want something or want me to help you to pack for London?" Zayn asks like the great friend he is!

"Yeah! I do actually!" Louis sighs deeply. He hands Zayn the paper with his email address and pasword. At which Zayn raises an eyebrow in question. "Its my email address and pasword to the account I used to write drafts for Harry." He explains to Zayn.

"Aaaannnddd??" Zayn drags out, urging Louis to continue.

Louis sighs again and replys in a shaky voice; "I want you to delete that account for me Zayn because I can't do it myself without breaking down."

"But why Lou. I thought it was the only thing that brought happiness to you?" Zayn is still beyond confused because that account quite honestly was Louis' life!

"I know. I know Zayn!" Louis says while pacing back and forth and tugging at his own hair tightly. "But I need to let him go if I ever want the pain to lessen. And by letting him go means to let him go completely! I hope you understand what I trying to say. Am I even making sense? Is any of this making sense Zayn?!"

Zayn nods and englufs Louis is a comforting hug. "Yes it does Lou. But I still think you should tell him everything Lou. Don't do this to yourself!"

"NO ZAYN I CAN'T! I TOLD YOU I CAN'T! I JUST CAN'T!" Louis panics and all but screeches out.

"Shh!! Yeah I know. I know. Sorry I won't ask again. I'll delete that account the first thing in the morning after you leave okay?" Zayn asks trying his best to comfort Louis.

"Okay. Yeah okay. Thanks Zaynie. I love you! You're my best mate!" Louis says standing up and huging Zayn tightly. "I'll miss you Zaynie!"

"Me too mate! me too!" Zayn smiles sadly.

.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.

After endless hugs, tears, goodbyes, love yous and miss yous later Louis finally left and Zayn as promised opened Louis' account with the only intention to delete it.

But when he saw all those drafts he couldn't help but want to read them once since Louis eventhough told him about writing to Harry, he never let anyone read those drafts.

He hid them and protected them from the eyes of the entire world.

Curiosity got the best of Zayn and he decided to read them.

.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.

4 hours later Zayn had read every last of those God-Damed drafts.

He was full on sobbing with red eyes and tear stains on his cheeks.

He couldn't believe his own best mate, the person he'd kill anyone for was hurting so fucking much, much much more than he was showing!

He couldn't help but want to slap Harry for being such a damn oblivious idiot!

He did what he thought was right and best for Louis eventhough if it meant it'd make Louis want to hate and most probably kill him.

He did it for his best mate's happiness and to make Harry pay for hurting Louis this much.

He sent all those Drafts to Harry!