I saw you today!

And I'd never thought in the entirety of my pathetic life I'd be so disgusted of the sight infront of me!

To be exactly clear I saw you making out with Nick Fuckshaw in the hallway.

I don't understand what I had done to deserve such a disgusting, heartwrenching sight!

What did I ever do YOU to hurt this much!

I...I just don't understand!

I knew you'll never love me and will find someone whose better than me,

But this Grimbitch!

What is wrong with you Harry Froghead Styles?!

Have you lost your fucking mind?!

He doesn't deserve you!

He's a complete Asshole, cheater and a fuckboy who called you a whore and now you are dating him!

I beat him up to protect your honour and to defend you,

Yet you decide to reward him but shoving your tongue in that Fuckshaw's mouth!

What is wrong with you!?!

Better yet what is wrong with me?!

Ugh! Why do I love you this much?!

You've no idea how much you've hurt me Harry Edward Styles!

I'd have never fogiven you if I didn't love you this much,

But I do love you and I can't hate you for making me suffer this unbearable pain.

You know Elizabeth Gilbert once wrote;

"Its a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something."

I don't care if she was right though.

Because it's fucking miserable and painful!

Oh wait, you don't know how that feels like cause you've never loved someone like I do, right?

Oh well, then let me give you a explanation to what I feel like.

First you'll feel a sudden pang in your chest like it's somehow contracting and all your insides will fill with such an unbearable pain that you'll want to scream your heart out,

But no you can't even scream because your voice gives out, just like your lungs, heart, throat and everything else.

You will struggle to breathe but all the air will be like acid to your body and you won't be able to well, breathe.

Clichè right?

But wait, it doesn't end there!

Oh we are just getting started!

Then your stomach completely shrinks or clenches and everything you have eaten is thrown out!

Your body is beyond the edge of healthy shakiness, if there is any!

Your mind is completely foggy and keeps playing that stupid disgusting heartwrenching scene of your significant other that you love so much kissing someone else that is not you like a broken recordtape or something.

Your tears are to point of running out yet they are still not enough and you want to cry till your eyes bleed to death!

You curse yourself for being so pathetic and ever being born or ever existing in this stupid pathetic world filled with nothing but pain and misery!

And then you even try to kill yourself like the pathetic peasant you are!

But your stupid not-so-pathetic friend stops you from doing that and doesn't leave your side, not even when you go to the washroom.

But I guess I should thank Zayn for being such a great mate for that yet I can't help but be mad at him for stoping me.

Oh well, now you know.

I'll leave now.

Zayn is scolding me again for loving you "like a stupid idiot!" in his own words, which in a way is completely true.

Anyway, take care of yourself love and don't let that Fuckshaw take advantage of you in anyway.

Goodnight Hazza!
Sweetdreams my fair princess!

Yours sincerely,
-Louis♡