In Minor Crises
Sometimes you make me feel stupid
Useless, pointless
Idiot
I know I'm capable
I know I'm smart
I score well at school
You tell me I'll have my pick
Of colleges, when I get
There, yet
Sometimes you make me feel stupid
How could you
Yell like if I was just a little smarter
More clever,
Things would be better?
"It's not my fault,"
I want to scream
And even if I were
That stupid
Useless, pointless,
How could it be
My fault I don't know any better?
How do I please you?
What do I do?
Or if it's a crisis,
Am I just screwed?
Sometimes you make me feel stupid
Even if it's nothing that I did
And I just want to know,
Is there no winning?
Can I make you happy?
Too many things
I can think of,
Too many situations
That every choice leads only
To a dead end.
And I'm not even mad
Not after a minute, at least
Just frustrated—
Because I don't want to be
Stupid, useless, pointless—
And filling up on the inside
Filling up with desperate
Meaningless sadness
And tired,
Tired of not being able to do anything
Suffocating under
Forced silence
Because you tell me to speak
If there's an issue
But resistance to your speech
Is disrespect
So I'll stand still
And take it
And five minutes later when you're fine
I'll smile, and laugh, and play
And pretend
That the stripes aren't still healing
That I'm not slowly feeling
More stupid
Useless
Pointless
AN:
If you know Jesus Christ as your Savior, then let us praise God together!
If not, then I pray that you come to recognize Him as the only way of salvation from your sins, which earn you God's wrath and just punishment in Hell. Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and no one will go to Heaven but through repentance from their sins and believing in Him.
If you have any questions, comment or PM me! I'd love to talk. <3
God bless!
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