In Minor Crises

Sometimes you make me feel stupid

Useless, pointless

Idiot

I know I'm capable

I know I'm smart

I score well at school

You tell me I'll have my pick

Of colleges, when I get

There, yet


Sometimes you make me feel stupid

How could you

Yell like if I was just a little smarter

More clever,

Things would be better?

"It's not my fault,"

I want to scream

And even if I were

That stupid

Useless, pointless,

How could it be

My fault I don't know any better?

How do I please you?

What do I do?

Or if it's a crisis,

Am I just screwed?


Sometimes you make me feel stupid

Even if it's nothing that I did

And I just want to know,

Is there no winning?

Can I make you happy?

Too many things

I can think of,

Too many situations

That every choice leads only

To a dead end.


And I'm not even mad

Not after a minute, at least

Just frustrated—

Because I don't want to be

Stupid, useless, pointless—

And filling up on the inside

Filling up with desperate

Meaningless sadness

And tired,

Tired of not being able to do anything

Suffocating under

Forced silence


Because you tell me to speak

If there's an issue

But resistance to your speech

Is disrespect

So I'll stand still

And take it

And five minutes later when you're fine

I'll smile, and laugh, and play

And pretend

That the stripes aren't still healing

That I'm not slowly feeling

More stupid

Useless

Pointless

AN:

If you know Jesus Christ as your Savior, then let us praise God together!

If not, then I pray that you come to recognize Him as the only way of salvation from your sins, which earn you God's wrath and just punishment in Hell. Jesus is the Way, the Truth, and the Life, and no one will go to Heaven but through repentance from their sins and believing in Him.

If you have any questions, comment or PM me! I'd love to talk. <3

God bless!

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