You Are Not My Family Anymore

Your six words destroyed my life.

If only those words never left your lips..

Maybe I would belong-

Be a part of something.

maybe someone would care about me.

But no-

I'm left crying by myself,

Wondering what I did wrong.

What did I do to deserve your hatred?

What did I do to deserve this pain?

Everything around me felt so heavy on my tear-stained throat;

Suffocating my being until I can no longer breathe in your toxic air.

You were supposed to protect me.

You were supposed to hold me in your arms when I cried.

Instead of purposely causing my tears to run down my face,

Just to feel stronger?

And why me?

I followed your impossible, never-ending, unspoken rules until I had no strength left in my bones.

I had smiled every minute until that day.

Even when I was abandoned before... I smiled an untruthful smile.

I was strong then, but I'm battered now.

But why should I be abandoned again?

Why is it that when I start to finally become happy...

Everything within is ripped from my lifeless soul; torn, beaten, and humiliated.

My tears are ruthlessly forced out because of anger and hatred.

They shatter to the floor because I'm hardened.

Why should someone like me feel that pain?

The type of pain that is a soul-wrenching agony from being unloved.

Six words would cause my downfall.

And they did.

In reality, I have no home.

In reality, I barely have a family.

In reality... I feel...

Worthless.

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Original Story. New version is called Ethereal Affliction****