Heyo! Here's the next update, and it's on time! It's gonna be a long chapter! I dedicate this to ari_adashek although you haven't read this, I'm dedicating this to your for being such an awesome fellow yaoi lover who always has my back and I just love your comments! XD

WARNING:Feelz up ahead
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Kira's POV

What?

He........

Valar doesn't want me at his.........

Wedding in February?

I reread the letter.

'Dearist Kira,

I love you but my hate for you is stronger and I'm abandoning you by agreeing to the marriage that was moved to Valentine's Day.I hope you understand because, I mean, you have Teito and Dina.I won't and don't miss you, to be honest, I wonder how our friendship lasted this long, being friends with a dull is boring and horrid, being teased when I was young is NOT fun.And just to let you know, I've already 'done it' with Carla and I plan on doing it with her till she's pregnant.And I'm doing it with her, NOT you, you're a lowlife swine (pig) who doesn't know her place.You are NOT invited to my wedding.Actually, unwanted.I don't care about you anymore.
Hated by,
Cross Valar'

By then, I was hysterically laughing and sobbing at the same time.

"V-Valar doesn't love me?! Ha! Sounds so familiar!"I shouted, crying.

Then, the more I repeated it in my head, my hysterical laughed turned into a flat out sobbing.

"Why?!"I sobbed, heaving to get breath.

I ripped the letter up and throwing it into the trash can.I was just sitting on my bed after that, holding my ears while tears poured out of my eyes.

'Why? Why? Why? Why?! Why?! WHY?!'I shouted in my head.'Everyone around me ends up hating me! What did I do to them, God?! What have I done to them to make them angry at me?! Please! Just tell me what I did! To Dina, to make her break her promise, to Teito, who has to take care of my waste of space that is I and who had to go through my pain as a science experiment, to Valar, who hates me after all the years of all the things we've been in together, and most importantly, to Nathan, and his mom, when I went over to their house the day there was an earthquake, were I could've not been there and his mother live and Nathan, you were prepared to embrace death, if I wasn't there, you would've gotten more air to breath.'I thought, slowly rocking myself back and forth while still holding my ears.

I got up and walked around my room, not knowing what to do with myself.

'Yes, that's right.

I'm just a waste of space.

A thing that need disciplined.

Someone who seems a burden on everyone she meets.

And most important,

I'm someone who has taken many lives.'

[Guys, I officially broken and started to cry writing that part, unless I'm getting soft. Did you guys cry?]

Kira, give into me.Do you see the sate you're in? Just cave in and take your barriers down for a while and you'll feel better.Depression whispered.

It's only 8:36 pm and what about Teito? No, I won't let you.Loyalty said.

I agree with Depression, this is the only way to feel release or happiness is to cave in.Im fearful of what would happen if you don't.Fear resorted.

'Just.......let my barrier down for a little bit.'I thought to myself, as if I weren't myself.

Yes! Just let your barriers down for a while.Both Depression and Fear said.

No! No way! Do you want to hurt Teito?!Loyalty shouted, panic in her voice.

'But.......but I don't want to feel disowned.I'd rather let my barriers down than feel abandoned again.All alone.....in the dark...........feeling as if I'm being drowned in my own body............the envy of others who are surrounded by love haunt, stab, and kill me inside.I want to feel wanted, loved, not a waist of space.'I thought, tears rolling down my cheeks and I held my arms.

But, you're already all of that.Loyalty said.

I ignored her.

"I'm letting my barrier down."I mumbled.

I felt as if I was a puppet, able to see what I was doing but unable to move myself.

I jumped out the window again and ran to a bar called 'Bunny Ears.'As I entered, the nauseous sent of alcohol made me gag slightly.

A waiter, around my age, walked up to me, a bunny outfit.He had torques blue hair, pink eyes, peach skin, and did well on making himself a bunny.His hair had three hair clips that were X's, the waiter suit, black bunny ears and stick-on crystals underneath his left eye.

[He's the pic at the beginning of the chapter.And, from his point of view, it is the left eye.]

On his name tag, it read: 'Bryan Vence'

"What can I get you, pretty lady?"He asked, winking at me as he pulled on my chin and kissed me.

'W-what the hell?! Why is a stranger kissing ME?!'I shouted at my inner selves.

You Baka, Bunny Ears is a seducing bar! There are nothing girl and boy waiters.The boys seduce the girl costumers and the girl waitresses seduce the boy costumers.Just go with it.Depression said, face palming at my stupidity.

"Oh? Not going to kiss back? Well, I can defiantly change that."Bryan said.

I blushed at his comment.

"I-I'm not use to........this."I mumbled, turning my face from his.

"Well, then I'll get you use to it."Bryan said, turning my head back to his and kissed me, slipping his tongue in my mouth at one point.

'I-is this okay to be doing? I feel like I'm betraying everyone.'I asked Depression.

Of course, it's just that stupid Loyalty making you feel like that.I'm giving you control of your body again.Have fun.Depression said as I felt like the puppet strings had disappeared.

Suddenly, a glass shattered.We parted from the passionate kiss to see another boy waiter staring straight at us.

[I just realized, I never did mention Nathan's last name, did I? Oh well, his full name will be Nathan Nagia]

The blue haired waiter glared at the blonde haired waiter who was standing by the bar counter.

"Stop being so clumsy, Sugi.(sue-guy)"Bryan scolded.

Sugi didn't even flinch but replied,"Right away, Vence.I'll be less clumsy in the future."Sugi said.

"So, anyways, what brings you back here, Angel?"Bryan said, holding my chin again, smiling down at me.

Even thought he looked around my age, 17, he was a good 5 inches taller.And I was 5'4.

I gave him a quizzical look.

"Don't you remember me? You seemed so hung over and cute that I almost devoured you till my idiot co-worker/ friend over there,"Bryan said,pointing to Nathaniel,"stopped me."Bryan said.

Bryan was your waiter last night too and since this club evolves things like that, you probably understand what he means by 'devouring you'Depression stated.

Once I realized what that meant, I turned cherry red.

"So, what would you like tonight?"Bryan asked, pulling me over by my wrist to a half-circle booth and draping a arm around my shoulder.

Bryan was close.Too close.

"Um......well....ugh......"I was a lose of words as I was a blushing mess.

'Crap! I'm never good with boys I don't know! I get all shy and nervous as if they were my crush!'I thought, trying to frantically gather my scattered thoughts.

[For my K Project fans out there, does it sound familiar? Misaki? No? Okay, goodbye]

I was just too nervous and I pushed his arm off of me and ran for the door.

Time Skip:Cuz who really wants to hear about Kira running home and climbing back up her window?

Everything sucks.

After calming my blushing mess, I went back to being depressed.

'Dina's dying in a virtual game; my childhood friend/crush has proposed to another girl and said he hated me and doesn't want me at my wedding;I'm a burden to Teito; I can't even go to a club without breaking down; no body wants me; I'm useless and just a waste of space.'I thought, sighing as I fell asleep, a thing I did to get away from the pain and hunger.

Valar's POV

I sat down at my desk, finally.After a few days of annoying wedding plans, I could finally get back to the letter.I looked down a at my desk to find it not there.

I moved my papers around, looked under my laptop, and even in my drawers but to no avail did I find the letter.

"Carla, have you seen a letter here?"I asked.

"Ah, that letter.Yes, I did.But, I wanted to be nice for once and I sealed it up and shipped it off."Carla said, giving me a cheeky smile.

She walked off, leaving me in silence.

'No, that's impossible.Carla would never do anything out of her true heart.She would only do things that would benefit her.Something seems wrong.And I'm gonna find out what.'
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Okay, sorry for da late update but I got so lazy last night and had no wifi in my car today so, yeah.Next update will be Monday! And, I updated extra to make up for the late update! More surprises are up ahead!