A/N: More Soul Eater AMV memories. I seriously might cry. This is Like a G6- Soul Eater.

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Kira's POV

August 2,2025

Ever since I've even release from the hospital, I visit Dina to check up on her.And, eery day, I go onto ALFheim to help Kirito.

Teito is starting to worry about my Heath and eating habits.

"Kira, since I'm a traveler, would it be alright if I stayed over at your house for a few months? Just to make sure that you're truly okay?" Teito's worried voice on the other end of the phone rung in my ears.

He asked my two days ago on the phone and I agreed, but I'm still going to hide what I do to myself to forget the pain, not wanting Teito to worry.

"Welcome to ALFheim Online."The same female voice said.

That's right, I started to forget that ALFheim was a fake world, I get on it so often that it feels like the real world, not a fantasy.

As my avatar woke up, I sensed another presence hovering over me and stayed still, pretending that I didn't notice them, keeping my eyes closed.

Then, in the spleen of light, I was I too of the intruder with my sword to his throat.

But when I looked down at my position and the feeling of the sword in my hand, my sword instantly clattered down to the hardwood floor.

My characters body was shaking with fear.

When I looked down at my hands, they were covered in blood.

"Kira?"The somewhat familiar voice said.

But I didn't seem to her it.

My breath bathed and my breathing rate picked up.my body started to shake more violently and I collapsed onto the floor besides the intruder.

"Kira!"The voice shouted.

I started to see spots in my vision. The inn room was covered in blood and I wrapped my shaking arms and hands around myself while I was starting to hyperventilate.

"Kira!"The voice shouted.

I looked to see who I was sitting next to me but he darkness of the room and my teary eyes made the figure difficult to identify.

"Kira, I'm going to logout and then remove your NerveGear in the real world, okay?"The voice asked.

I couldn't reply, my hyperventilation preventing that.

The figure disappeared an I was left there, laying on the floor, shaking hard while seeing blood an hyperventilating. My mind wasn't thinking straight.

Suddenly, I felt a tug and the scene changed to a bedroom that seemed familiar.

"Kira! Are you alright?"Teito asked, shaking me slightly.

I was hyperventilating and shaking. Everywhere I looked, blood was there, like a sea of blood.

"I need to calm your breathing somehow. Okay?"Teito asked me slowly and carefully, trying to make sure that I heard and understood him.

I didn't reply.

Teito kissed me fast, trying to slow my breathing and make me breath through my nose.

But my body wouldn't stop trembling and my eyes wouldn't stop deceived me into seeing blood.

While Teito continued to kiss me, he hugged me tightly, trying to stop my shaking.

After a few minutes in that position, he released me of the hug and the 5 minute long kiss.

He was panting hard and blushing slightly.

"Are you okay, Kira?"Teito asked me, worry on his face and in his voice.

I nodded slightly, my shaking slowing and my breathing back to normal.

Teito's POV

I know this isn't the right way into Kira's heart, by kissing her when she's having a panic attack.It honestly scares me so much to see Kira in this state.

She's become so bad that he can't take care of herself.I cook most of our meals, I have to do all the chores, and anything after that.And Kira doesn't eat that much, she spends most of her time in ALFheim.

I feel like I'm loosing Kira.My Kira.

And it aches my heart at the thought of it.

"Gomen."I whispered, hugging Kira by the neck as tears escaped my eyes.

Kira opened her eyes in shock.

"What for?"She asked me.

"For not being a better friend."I replied.

Kira didn't reply but hugged me back.I knew that she wanted to reply, to comfort me, but she just didn't know how.

"What you went through must've been harder than what I've been trough and I've been trying to ignore it, making it seem that I've gone through worse, but, in truth, you've been having the weight of the world placed on your shoulders." I whispered into her ear.

We sat on Kira's bed in silence, the darkness of the room chilling me to the bone.

I released Kira and smiled down at her.

"Maybe we shouldn't go into ALFheim today, you need some rest."I said.

And with that, I left Kira on her bed, in her darkened room, unaware that her personality changed.

Kira's POV

I still saw the world, the dark cold bedroom I called home, but, my personality changed.

After Teito left, I stood up and went to my drawer, moving aside the cloths and pulling out the pocket knife I was all too familiar with.

My room was connected to a bathroom but it was a bathroom only attached to my room, so there was no other door besides the one in my room.

I walked into the bathroom, switching on the light, my eyes hollow and hazy, as if I was in a trance.Because I was in a trance, my body being controlled by another personality.

"Don't fight it, embrace it."I muttered. "Don't fight it, embrace it."I repeated.

But t wasn't me, it was the personality of Depression.

'Dont fight it, embrace it.'I replete in my head.

I smiled evilly but it was truly Depression who smiled.

I walked over to the sink and without hesitation, cut my right arm.

Warm, think blood poured from the wound and into the sink, going into the drain.

'The pain of fighting the real world is more painful than this.But this goes me relief and release from the pain, sorrow, worry, and my own darkness. It's too late to save me at this point. I'm going to loose myself in the personalities, either going mad, or letting the personalities use my body to their will.I can't hold out any longer by myself, I might as well give in.

After all, who else would be willing to carry my burden for me? To help me when I'm in pain? I don't think there's anyone out their will to do that. But Raidon Yoshi is correct; I need to be killed.

I thought this as Depression made another cut, deeper this time, causing more blood to pour out.

Suddenly, there was a knock at my door.

"Kira, I have dinner."Teito called through my bedroom door.

I ignored him and continued.But I had forgotten that I didn't lock the door.

Teito walked in and headed for the close bathroom door.

"Kira? Are you okay?"Teito asked worriedly through the door.

I don't reply but kept on cutting, at least 10 slashes were on my arm and counting.

"Kira, please open up, I have dinner."Teito said, more panic on his voice.

'Don't listen to him, continue, you'll better, more release and relief, and less pain.'Depression said.

I just nodded in agreement and continued, my eyes still unblinking and emotionless.

"Kira!"Teito shouted, opening the unlocked bathroom door.

He looked at me in horror and disgust.

'You hate me too, don't you? You don't think I belong, right? If you keep looking at me like that, I might as well carry on.'I thought, staring at him.

"W-why?"He whispered.

I didn't reply but, I closed the pocket knife and placed it on the sink while letting my right arm fall to my side.

Every few seconds, a drop of blood fell from my fingers.

"Kira, why?"Teito repeated.

"Because the pain of the real world is too hard to handle."I whispered, my eyes still hollow.

He stepped towards me and hugged me, even thought my arms were still by my side, trapping me.

"Promise me, please, promise me that you won't cut yourself anymore."Teito pleaded, sobbing,

I started to cry too for some reason.

"Okay."I whispered as we stood in the bathroom, him hugging me tightly, not letting go,mad if I was something precious that he couldn't loose.

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Two updated in one day?! What?! Haha, I stayed up late working on this chapter! I might, MIGHT update again tonight and, I'm still going to update Tuesday! I'm trying to make up for the late updates here, so, you should be thanking me. XP Jk. But, anyways, Q&A's are still open and I hope you liked this sappy chapter!