(Doo-Gem) The Lighthouse Gaze (Eng-ver)


The audience erupted like a storm. Spotlights swept across the sea of faces. Hải Đăng Doo wrapped his arms around Gemini Hùng Huỳnh's waist, lifted him effortlessly, and ran a circle around the stage. Flashes lit up like a thousand stars. When the music cut, Hùng tilted his head so slightly, lips brushing Doo's neck in a fleeting touch. A spark in the thunder. The stadium exploded.

Đăng's grip tightened at Hùng's waist - caught halfway between an embrace and a cage. Greedy, he pulled the boy just a little closer. But Hùng jolted awake, suddenly aware of the roaring ocean of fans around them. Hùng broke free and fled, dissolving into the group of other performers at the front of the stage.

For one suspended moment, everyone believed the love story had already been written.

Years later, when memories rewound, some insisted it had only been a performance. Others swore it was real. But when Doo and Hùng were asked, they said nothing. And sometimes silence is the longest confession of all.

Three years after that night, Hùng sat in a small café in a cold gray city. No rings on his fingers, no microphone in his hand. A piano track played in the background. On his phone was a fresh interview with Hải Đăng Doo - his face radiant, his eyes now a trademark of purity. In the comments, someone wrote that even the way Doo looked at a trash bin could bring some sense of romance to it. Hùng closed the screen. He didn't need to read further. He had memorised the world's descriptions of Hải Đăng.

Four months before the second concert, in a small rehearsal room filled only with mirrors and sweat, they stood facing each other, practising the lift again.

The director demanded a moment that would make hearts skip.

"Fan service," one voice said.

"Interactive artistry," another said.

The producer concluded that the market needed something to ignite, a ridiculous truth about how this industry functioned in the twenty-first century.

Doo smiled, a clear, boyish smile, and said, "The gaze can do the rest."

He used it to hide his own unease after six years in the business and still had no clear path, constantly reminding himself how many people out there were more talented, more diligent, more replaceable than him in the eyes of the crowd.

Hùng nodded but avoided looking at the mirror. He was afraid of catching his own reflection there. Both of them could hear their heartbeats pounding as the pressure of career anxieties threatened to swallow them whole. Sometimes those heartbeats mingled with other feelings, but professionalism forced them to ignore it, missing the rhythm of something far more tender.

A week after the concert, Doo vanished from the chat window.

No messages. No calls. No explanation.

Then came the rumours - an Instagram account exposed photos of a young man "looking like Hải Đăng." A lovestagram leaked: holding hands, lips pressed, no attempt to hide. The girl's account quickly went private, captions deliberately vague.

The fandom shook. The ship was battered by a storm. Some fans, furiously, claimed they had been deceived. Others laughed bitterly, saying they'd never believed it in the first place. And the rest stayed silent, silent as if carrying home a fragile secret and buttoning it up tight, not knowing whether their silence was to protect the boys or themselves.

Later, Hùng Huỳnh stumbled upon a concept in behavioural psychology:

Humans don't crave constant rewards. They crave the uncertain ones.

When the timing is unpredictable, dopamine surges higher.

He smirked, half-bitter, half-amused, as if finally decoding Doo's disappearance. In this industry, releases of songs and products could be scheduled, but the release of gazes, of fleeting touches- never. Every ignored Sunday text, every accidental photo, every delayed reply became part of a schedule of intermittent reinforcement.

Idols set the bait. Fans cast the nets.

And sometimes, idols themselves got caught.

A year before that night, during a press rehearsal, Doo and Hùng sat side by side on plastic chairs, unopened water bottles in their hands.

A young stylist teased, "If this couple would just admit it, we wouldn't have to waste so much on marketing."

The room burst into laughter. Other pairings were called out, too. Some fans shipped Doo with Pháp Kiều, drawn to the contrast between Doo's tall, broad figure and Kiều's slight, fragile frame. Others matched Hùng with Đức Phúc for their synchronised performances. A few even bundled them together with Erik, calling it a "roundabout of feelings."

They all laughed as if it were a harmless joke.

Only Hùng Huỳnh felt it like a blade. When you're placed among countless fabricated couples, the real one loses all chance of escape.

The second concert.

Doo lifted Hùng up on his back and ran. Their bodies brushed together. Sweat and light were the only things he could clearly feel. The roar of the crowd mixed with the deafening system of speakers - chaotic, feverish. The mics were fine. The lighting was flawless. The lift was executed on the exact beat.

But there was one detail that wasn't in the script.

The gaze.

In the space of a beat and a half, Doo looked straight at Hùng as though at the only refuge amid the echoing storm.

That gaze wasn't for the world.

It stopped at one person.

In the velvet darkness of backstage, Hùng wondered if he was slipping out of his role.

In the dressing room afterwards, they didn't speak for minutes. Not out of anger, words caught in their throats, refusing to rise.

At last, Doo put his phone down. The screen showed a folder with a single letter: H.

Inside: a quiet gallery of a collection about Hùng is asleep in a chair. Hùng is tying his shoelaces. Hùng grinning after winning a game of "pick the next song."

Hùng whispered, "We're all just victims of our own script."

Doo replied: "Maybe so. But if victims get to choose how they look at each other,... I'd still choose to look at you the way I just did."

Hùng didn't object.

Two weeks later, they were booked for another joint appearance, this time on a talk show.

The host asked, ever so delicately, about the line between fan service and personal feelings.

Doo smiled and said, "The most precious thing about this path is simply being remembered and loved."

Hùng replied, "The stage always needs light. And people always need shadows."

His voice was light, almost playful, yet every journalist in the room wrote it down like the seed of a coming storm.

Another time, their schedule took them to a seaside city.

They wandered past an old lighthouse, hats pulled low so no one would recognise them. The air carried salt and ship horns.

Doo looked up at the tower.

"I always thought of myself as the one who shines. But lighthouses aren't built for themselves. They shine for the ships."

Hùng nudged his shoulder, dimples flashing:

"A lighthouse doesn't get to choose who it shines for."

Doo turned to him. "Then does the one standing beside the lighthouse ever find direction, too?"

Hùng laughed. "No. But that person can choose where to look."

That was their last real conversation before the rumour broke.

They said Doo had a girlfriend in Thailand that the public "leak" was a deliberate claim of possession.

Gossip blogs sketched emotional maps with arrows pointing from Bangkok to Saigon.

Forums sneered that every intimate touch onstage had been nothing but bait.

The word queerbaiting began to appear relentlessly.

Branding teams panicked. PR managers told Hùng not to stand near Doo for a while.

When he left the meeting room, he caught his own reflection in the frosted glass: thin as thread. He let out a sigh.

Months passed. Silence stretched long enough to become a strategy.

Then came their reunion.

A carefully edited behind-the-scenes video was released. The editor whispered, "Shipping isn't just about romance. It's the art of maximising moods for the algorithm."

Hùng shivered. They had wandered too far into a maze where emotions were quantified.

Every "accidental" brush of hands, every unscripted laugh, every stumble and catch—they all turned into fuel for the fandom's fire. And soon, the old scandal was forgotten.

Doo appeared in a special stage with an older artist, their contrasting light and shadow creating a chemistry the fans adored.

Hùng released a new music video, his choreography smooth, intricate, almost signature.

But the moment the MV dropped, comparisons flooded in.

"Copying Jungkook."

"Same concept, same gaze."

Some sneered, calling him a pick-me boy—someone trying too hard to be special, only to look obvious.

The comments climbed to trending, cut into memes, and replayed on loops.

Hùng read them one by one, feeling his heart sink lower each time.

Backstage smiles turned into cracks.

He began doubting himself—was every effort just a distorted shadow of someone else?

One exhausted night, after waves of online attacks, he collapsed into a chair and opened his laptop. Without thinking, he scrolled through an article on behavioural psychology.

It described a classic experiment: a mouse in a box, a lever that dispensed food pellets. If food came every time, the mouse ate and left.

But if food came sometimes and sometimes not, the mouse pressed harder, longer until it became an obsession.

Intermittent reinforcement.

Hùng laughed bitterly. It's the fandom.

Fans never know when an idol will look into the camera, when a hand will brush another's, when a gaze will linger a beat too long. That uncertainty made them scream louder, intentional edits become sharper, imaginations race further.

But when he shut the laptop, he realised something cruel:

He was the mouse, too.

He was waiting for Doo's gaze.

He was addicted to a reward with no schedule.

Not food, but a fleeting unscripted second.

The document explained another concept: illusory reciprocity - the belief that one's actions influence a response, when in truth, everything is already programmed.

Fans thought their ships, hashtags, and comments brought Doo and Hùng closer.

But sometimes Doo did change the way he stood, or the way he looked, because of those very comments.

Fans thought they were steering idols. Idols thought they were steering fans.

In the end, both lost control.

Hùng closed the laptop, eyes burning. He finally understood why his bond with Doo was always so ambiguous: was he an actor or an audience? A puppeteer, or the puppet?

Perhaps Doo was asking himself the same.

Fans saw candid photos and wrote, "What a beautiful love story."

Idols read them and changed how they acted next time.

No one is innocent.

No one is fully guilty.

It was a dance where every step both led and followed.

They avoided each other again—a second estrangement, this time under the crushing weight of expectation.

A minor, unrelated scandal cracked the ice.

Supporting couples were dragged into comparison.

A single backstage clip convinced fans Hùng had ignored Doo at a finale.

Fights erupted at a glance.

Management gave Hùng a longer solo schedule. "Distance can be medicine," they said, with the wisdom of outsiders.

Doo sent a short message: "Sorry."

Hùng never replied.

Not from anger but from knowing that if he answered once, he would have to keep answering forever.

Time piled up like overlapping jobs.

Sometimes, in the practice room mirrors, Hùng thought he saw a younger version of himself walk past - the boy who still believed in everything.

And Doo, at times, found a weary man staring back at him from the black screen of his phone. Eyes still bright, but bright like the scattered lamps of a muted city.

The café reunion.

An afternoon gray with drizzle, the glass window reflected their faces like a candid double portrait, intimate yet distant.

Doo entered, hand on the chair, with a small smile.

"It's been a while."

Hùng looked up, his smile thin, as though stretched over a fracture.

"Yeah... a while."

They ordered two Americanos and a small plate of cake. No cameras. No spotlights. No hashtags waiting to devour whatever truth was left.

They spoke like old colleagues: about a new song, about how singing slowly was harder than fast-flow, not noticing their standards for themselves also had risen over time, about knees that needed warmth or the next day's dancing would ache.

As time passed, the cups emptied. Doo slid his chair closer, voice lowered like those backstage whispers:

"I was reading an article on behaviour the other day. It said fans aren't just led. Sometimes... they're the ones leading us."

Hùng nodded, eyes tracing the shine on the wooden table. He spoke slowly, each word a drop of water from far away:

"We're all drinking from the same river. It runs through fans, through the stage, through us. Everyone thinks they're in control. But really, we're just drinking to survive."

Silence. Doo's finger touched the rim of his cup.

"Then what about us? Where does the river go?"

Hùng lifted his gaze, calm, as if tired of all suppositions.

"Maybe... into silence. Where there's no audience, no script. Just us looking at each other without proving anything to anyone."

The café door chimed as the wind slipped through, but in that instant, the world seemed to stand still.

Sunlight cut through the glass, scattering across the water in their cups. Hùng suddenly saw the stage nights replayed: the perfect lifts, the roar like waves on stone, the hurried kiss at his neck, enough to ignite an ocean. The silences, the cycles of reunion and estrangement, the hands laid over each other like unspoken promises.

Hùng remembered the lighthouse by the sea, and the question from years ago: "Does the one standing by the lighthouse ever find direction, too?" He had said no then.

Now he wanted to change his answer. That person had found the lighthouse.

Doo seemed to read his thoughts. "I'd still choose that gaze onstage. Not because it made the crowd scream. Not because it sold tickets. But because, for once, I looked at someone without fear of being misunderstood."

Hùng smiled with his eyes. "We've lived lives that needed misunderstanding to survive. Maybe it's time to choose something that doesn't need anyone to understand at all."

The phone buzzed.

A message from management: an offer to sing together at an international event.

The director suggested they keep their distance and avoid scandal.

Hùng showed the screen to Doo.

Doo looked at it for a second, then pushed it back.

"Your choice is my choice."

Hùng nodded, pressed call. The voice on the other end was flat, businesslike: "We want to change the script. They'll stand closer. No staged touches. No fan service. Just the music."

The international concert.

A vast arena, crowds from every corner of the world.

No one knew the old rumours. They were just there to listen.

Doo in a black suit.

Hùng in a white shirt.

Between them is a single breath of space.

When the verse softened, their voices met, two beams of light merging into a new colour.

No arm around a waist.

No lifts.

No hurried kiss.

Only the gaze.

A gaze that refused to fade.

After that night, other rumours would still come.

New couples would be built, fresh faces fed into the algorithm's hunger.

Doo and Hùng didn't fight the current. They simply rewrote a rule.

When forced into darkness, they would stand back-to-back.

When called into light, they would walk side by side.

When silence was demanded, they would be silent together.

And when it was time to speak, they would speak in short sentences—like clear notes in music.

One day, an old friend asked Hùng what he thought about the "relationship" between fans and idols.

"The word relationship makes people forget the word influence," he answered.

"Everyone is influenced. The question is: after the influence, do we become good people, or machines?"

The friend laughed, saying he was too romantic.

Hùng smiled. "Romance is the second revenue stream of this industry—right after discipline."

Far north, Doo sat by a window, writing in his journal.

He wrote of lighthouses, of the one who keeps the light, of storms.

One line: "A lamp can be switched off for maintenance. But a gaze has no season."

He closed the book, took a picture of the window, and kept it.

No posting. No messages.

Just proof that some moments belong only to their keeper.

New Year's Eve.

By coincidence, both posted a photo of the sky. Different cities, same hour.

Fans erupted.

"Fate really is the best scriptwriter."

"They're feeding the shippers again."

Some just sent heart-eye emojis.

Doo saw it and smiled.

Hùng saw it and smiled.

Both turned off their screens.

They stepped outside, unknowingly toward the same riverbank.

City lights broke into shards across the water.

Somewhere in the crowd, someone probably believed they'd just received a gaze meant only for them.

Maybe true. Maybe not.

What mattered was that Doo and Hùng stood still for a minute, listening to their hearts slow, before moving on.

They had split and reunited like tides.

They'd been shoved into countless fabricated pairings like trial edits in a studio.

They'd learned to love in silence, so love wouldn't be decoded by captions.

They'd learned to perform without lying to themselves, without lying to each other.

Night deepened.

A star fell.

No one made a wish.

Perhaps because what they wished for had already happened long ago.

Perhaps because what they once feared no longer frightened them.

The gaze refused to die.

Not for the stage.

Not for the phone.

Not for the market.

But because, when they looked at each other, they realised the truest part of themselves was still alive.

They returned.

Not by the same path.

But when they looked in the mirror, each saw someone else reflected in their eyes.

Someone close enough that a name was no longer needed.

And that was enough for a lifetime beneath the lights, without losing each other.

The End.



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