Jungkook's POV

I have always said that Namjoon Hyung is not just my leader in BTS, but in life.

I know everyone sees me as the Maknae that cries every time his Hyungs cry, but that's not true. I only cry when my Hyungs are in emotional pain.

Can you remember back in 2015 when we won Music Bank for the first time? I didn't cry, but I did wrap my arms around Namjoon Hyung because I thought he might.

I actually watched that video, and to be honest, I look like I was thinking, 'Hyung you can't cry now. We just won an award.'

Anyway, sorry, I will get to the point.

Namjoon Hyung is more sensitive than people think.

And I have found that out over the last four years.

But in recent times, I have come to find out just how sensitive he really is.

It was back in August when Namjoon Hyung turned up at my house.

"Hyung," I said.

"Can I come in?" he said.

"Of course," I said.

After Namjoon Hyung came inside, Bam started to fuss at him.

"Bam, down," I said.

"It's okay," he said.

"Can I stay here tonight, please?" he asked.

I was confused, but I said yes.

It is Namjoonie Hyung, and he never asks to stay over so it was serious.

It was late, so I asked Hyung if he wanted to get ready for bed.

He agreed and went to the bathroom.

Afterward, I told him he could stay in my room and I would sleep in the living room with Bam.

He said thank you and headed straight for my bedroom.

Knowing Hyung finds it hard to go to sleep, I tried to stay as quiet as possible.

But after half an hour, Bam started scratching at the door and whining to get in.

"Bam, come here," I said.

Bam did not move.

I got up and knocked on the door.

"Hyung, are you okay?" I asked.

There was no answer.

I took that at first to mean Hyung was asleep, but then I heard it.

The heavy breathing which was a sign that Hyung was crying.

"Hyung, I'm coming in," I said.

I opened the door and saw Namjoon Hyung lying on the bed, shaking.

"Namjoonie Hyung, are you okay?" I asked.

"No," he said.

"Do you want me to leave you alone?" I asked.

"No," he said again.

Hyung suddenly turned around to face me, and it broke my heart to see him like that.

His eyes were red, meaning he had been crying for a while. Maybe even since he had gone in my room.

No matter how much it hurt me, I knew it was one of those times I had to stay strong. Because if I had started crying as well, Namjoon Hyung would force himself to stop, and I didn't want that.

Now before you say anything, what I mean is I wanted Hyung to feel comfortable letting out his emotions, and he wouldn't do that if I started crying.

"Kookie," he said.

"Yeah, Hyung?" I said.

"I'm sorry," he said.

I was shocked.

"Why are you sorry, Hyung?" I asked.

"For me. I shouldn't be here. You shouldn't have to deal with me," he said.

"Hyung, you don't have to be sorry. I don't mind," I said.

"Okay," he said.

"Hyung, what's wrong?" I asked.

"I think everything that's happened recently is getting to me," he said.

"I understand, Hyung," I said.

"Kook, will you stay with me tonight? Just while I fall asleep?" he asked.

"Of course, Hyung," I said.

I don't know when Hyung calmed down, but I remember when Namjoon Hyung said...

"Thank you, Jungkook."

"You're welcome, Hyung. And remember... You will always be my forever leader," I said.

He smiled and said, "Love you, Kook."

"Love you too, Hyung," I said.

Then Hyung was asleep.

I smiled and kissed Hyung on the forehead.

"Don't worry, Hyung, I'm always here," I said.

Then I left the bedroom and went to get ready for bed myself.

When I laid on the settee, I smiled and said to myself, "I'm happy you closed me to open up to, Hyung."

Then I fell asleep.