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The issue about sharing the bed didn't push through. Seunghee is a little upset. After that morning, Jeonghan hasn't talked about it at all. Seems like it's his final decision. Is it that hard? They've been living under the same roof for more than a month now. And she's about to take the stage in less than a week. But she thinks there's still something missing between them. Maybe it's just her. But the feeling is a little hard to ignore. She stares at him from the counter of the bar. S3 is rehearsing something for their special stage tonight. And she just can't help that longing feeling.

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It's S3's special stage and a lot of fan girls are already standing by the front row. Almost all the girls are pretty. And it's pretty obvious, they all want to steal their idol's attention. Seunghee is just watching silently as she does her part time work. She won't be performing till a couple of days left so she's stuck with serving for now. Today's crowd is a little more enthusiastic. She wonders why, when it's the same venue and performance for S3. Well, maybe because it's a special stage. She wonders what happens during a special stage? Her boyfriend hasn't told her anything about it.

"Are you having fun yet!?" Soonyoung screams upon stepping up the stage.

Jeonghan and Seungkwan follow behind.

"Yeah!!!" the girls shout.

"We haven't even started!!" Soonyoung exclaims.

The crowd goes wild again.

"Alright! Let's begin the night!" Soonyoung ends and the music starts.

It's practically the same stage. They perform the same songs. But in the midst of the performance, they halt singing and each of them walks down the stage. The music continues as the three of them pick some random girl amongst the crowd, holding their hands while assisting them on stage.

Seunghee is quite surprised. So the special stage is something like this. She's on her way back to the counter to fetch some orders but she stops on her tracks as she watches her boyfriend hold another girl's hand on stage and starts singing to her. She shouldn't be, but her temper is rising. It's apparently a fan-service stage. And these fan girls are having the times of their lives. On the other hand, her mood is slowly hitting the danger zone.

She suddenly hits someone cuz she's too focused on watching her man as she advances slowly to the counter. "Oh sorry," she apologizes.

The performances continue and the girls are still there on stage with them. What's worse, they let them hug them, hold them and flirt with them. It's not a nice sight for a girlfriend in the audience. Seunghee already wants to pull her out of his arms, if she can only walk up that stage and ruin the performance. And what's with him enjoying it? He's all smiles as the girl snakes up all over him. She doesn't care about Soonyoung or Seungkwan. But Jeonghan? She didn't see him as this type of flirt. It's unforgivable.

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While going home, Seunghee is silent. Since they met after his stage, until now that they're on the bus home, she's not uttering a word. So Jeonghan can only deduce she's mad about something.

"Are you mad?" he asks.

They're beside each other but she finds the scenery outside more interesting than talking to him.

"Is this about the special stage?" he adds.

She's still not responding.

"It was just an act. Soonyoung thought about something to give back to the fans so we did it. Our fan base is growing so we really have to take care of them. It's just the second time we did it. The first one was in Jeju. We really have a number of followers back there."

Knowing it's the second time makes her even madder.

"Hey, are you listening to me?" he asks again.

Sadly, Seunghee's too caught up in her own state of mind that he's totally ignored all through the night. Poor Jeonghan. He doesn't have any idea about what suddenly made her this angry.

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While laying on the bed, after giving Jeonghan the cold shoulder for the rest of the night, Seunghee ponders on it a lot. So it's only fan service. But she feels really insecure and immature right now. She knows it herself. Being in a band, there will be times they will have to reach out to fans. It's just that, they don't really make that much physical contact. It's all those girls fault, for being frisky and clingy. But thinking on it, she doesn't have to be feeling this way. Fans are fans and they are the reason they have the chance to perform every night. She should be grateful of them instead right? But everytime she remembers another girl holding him, she just can't get her anger out of her veins. With that, she sleeps her agony with the darkness of the night, hoping it dies out with it.

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Early morning, Seunghee walks out of the room to an early bird Jeonghan who's brewing some coffee.

"Good morning Seunghee-ya, did you sleep well? I made you some latté," he greets sweetly.

She's staring at him as she approaches. How in the world can she let other girls touch him? He only belongs to her right now and her arms should be the only ones holding him. She walks directly behind him and hugs him tightly. He's a little surprised but it feels good that it makes him smile.

"I'm sorry about last night," she tells him.

"It's okay, come here," he turns her around and gives her a warm hug upfront which she returns firmly. "But next time, tell me what's wrong okay? I couldn't sleep last night thinking about it."

She looks up to him feeling sorry, "I'm sorry!"

"It's okay."

"I was just shocked about the fan-service."

"I knew it. So you were really jealous." He laughs at it.

"Who wouldn't be? It's not every day I see my boyfriend hugging a nameless girl like that."

"It was Soonyoung's idea. And they love it so please bear with it every time."

"I think I just have to close my eyes and pretend not to see anything."

It makes him laugh even more. She's so cute so early in the morning. He gives her a kiss on the forehead. "How can I not love you more with this?"

"You have no choice but to do so. I'm not handing you over to any of those girls you hear?" she gives him a quick kiss instead.

"You don't have to worry about a thing. I'm all yours okay?"

She feels secured and at ease as she stares up at him. Maybe she doesn't really have to feel jealous after all. Those eyes, these arms, those lips are only all about her. She's doesn't have to worry.

"I trust you and I support you. So just do what you have to and be successful. I'll always be behind you."

"Thank you."

She knows she just have to have faith in him. And her jealousy is really uncalled for. It's part of his career, it's part of his path. Just like her, he has to give it his all. It's not an easy job and it's definitely not easy to succeed. So her support is indispensable.

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But contrary to what she felt that day, for the next two days, she still hasn't gotten over the jealousy thing. What Jeonghan said about fan-service is really testing her patience considering the special stages are a series, S3 has been reaching out to more and more girls in the crowd each night. It sometimes doesn't let her sleep much, thinking that any of those girls' touches might become too attached to his skin. And the possibility of him, getting tempted of other girls is not so far from coming true, in her mind. She hasn't realized it, but right now, she's becoming the obsessive girlfriend, even if she doesn't really show it by actions.

She's silent all the way home, glancing at him by her side all throughout the train trip. Recently, there has been a pretty girl she's been seeing in the crowd. That girl usually sits at front row everytime S3 performs and only reaches out to Jeonghan every time he comes across the crowd. Sometimes she even walks up to their VIP lounge to offer them drinks and stuffs. She once served that girl's groupie and heard her say, "Jeonghan is too hot! I wonder if he has a girlfriend? You guys know something? Maybe I should hook him up, don't you agree?" It was just a brief moment and she didn't hear the rest of their conversation, but it really left her mad. She just had to suppress her mood and not lash out on the girl. It would put her in trouble and besides they were just talking girl talks. She just had to treat it as hearsay.

She's in some melancholic mood until they reach their apartment.

"You're quiet, do we have a problem again?" he asks, opening the door.

"Jeonghan-ah, I love you," Seunghee tells Jeonghan right after entering the apartment.

They're both a bit tired but they have a long night ahead of them because she just can't let her feelings slide anymore.

He closes the door feeling a bit surprised she tells him this out of the blue. It makes him smile as he turns to her, "You know I love you too."

She then hugs him, bringing him more surprise and says, "I want you. I want you all to myself. I can give you all of me right now. Can you give me all of you in return?"

He doesn't know how to react. Considering that little junior has been a little unstable recently, with his overflowing yearning for her, she just added an eternal flame to his burnings desires. He slowly puts a gap between them and grips her arms, staring intensely into her already dreamy eyes.

"Seunghee-ya..." actually, he doesn't have anything else to say.

"I love you. I seriously love you," she murmurs at him.

"Seunghee-ya, it's late and we still-"

She kisses him, slowly and temptingly, while touching his face softly. He freezes on the spot, amazed by what his girlfriend is actually doing. He lets her, and for a moment, she pulls back to say to his face something so enticing, he loses himself.

"Please... make me yours tonight."

It drives him senseless hearing her words and seeing her inviting and tempting features. Who cares about the consequences? Who cares about what other people will say? He wants his girlfriend the same way she wants him. It's now or never.

He shoves in and gives her his most ardent kisses. They hold each other like tomorrow will never come again leaving their things unattended at the door and head off to the bedroom kissing like that.

He carefully lays her on the sheets under him as they continue to battle each other's mouths. They are going to a month into the relationship and this happening only now is like a deferred celebration.

Jeonghan gently touches her skin not to startle her. He brushes his palm on her smooth arm and the other roam around her waist. His hand eventually sneak under her buttoned blouse, feeling her bare skin, not trying to hold back anymore. She feels like melting. The bizarre and funny feeling is overwhelming and she loves it. She won't ask for anything more than this. All her uncertainties and anxieties fade little by little.

He cuts off the kiss for a minute to take his shirt off, then dives in again for a hot kiss. He begins unbuttoning her blouse from the waistline to the upmost one. And after undoing the last one, he hovers over her to watch her nakedness in delight. Her spotless milky white skin meets his eyes, as well as her full breasts hidden under the lacey bra. Her heart is beating so hard, she can hardly breathe. The excitement is killing her. Meanwhile, his cravings just doubled big time. If this continues, he really won't be able to fall back, even if she says no.

"Are you really sure you want to do this?" he clarifies one last time. "Starting from here, I won't be able to hold back anymore."

She reaches out to his face with a flustered smile, "I won't change my mind no matter how many times you ask."

"Dammit Seunghee, I love you so much!"

It's really now or never. He finally lets out the beast inside him. However, he does it very gently but passionately to let her feel how much he loves her. And for her this isn't just about sex. This is something more than just two bodies colliding. It's about their love being fruitful and solemn. It's a start of their journey paving the future together.

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TO BE CONTINUED...

Published: 02/09/18