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“What do you want with your sandwich Seunghee-ya?” he asks. He’s busy preparing their snacks for later since it’s a Sunday and they’re having a movie date at home.

“I’d like some tuna,” she replies.

“Alright. Tuna sandwich coming up!”

He’s still doing the kitchen thing and she’s watching him from the living room, simply idling on the couch. It’s been two weeks since that night’s steamy kiss. That night they officially became a couple. Since then, all she gets are pecks on the lips and cheeks and some handholding. It’s making her think. She wants to hug him all the time. She wants to give him her sweetest kisses. But why does it feel like he’s not interested? It’s somewhat frustrating. She just sighs on it.

He comes to her carrying the sandwiches and two cans of cola for them to share. He sits beside her and after getting everything ready, he finally presses the play button. The movie “Now You See Me” plays. It’s not a new film but it’s one of Jeonghan’s most favorite. He said she should watch it with him so Seunghee obliges.

As the movie goes, he’s absorbed in it, like he’s watching it the first time again. His attention is 100% on the television set. Meanwhile, she glances at him most of the time. She doesn’t know if he’s doing it on purpose or he’s really just like this when it comes to his favorite things.

In the midst of the movie, she moves a little closer and snuggles to him, clinging onto his arms without a word. That’s the only time he tilts his head to look at her.

“What?” he asks.

“Come on, I just wanna be close to you,” she replies.

He doesn’t seem to understand but he puts his arms around her instead as she leans on him on the couch.

“That’s better,” she smiles at him.

Hereafter, they continue watching the film. They share some commentaries once in a while and agree or disagree on some point. Until the movie is done, they still argue about some points in the story. They sit accordingly now, beside each other.

“I still think she should’ve just fled instead of rushing back to him. She didn’t so what he told him. That’s just sad,” she says.

“I don’t think so. It was the wiser decision. Besides, they are the main characters. What else do you expect? This movie is perfect,” he tells her.

“No wonder it suits your taste. It’s full of tricks.”

“Now what? Are you saying I like tricks?”

“It’s in your nature. I’ve heard you playing your dongsaengs a couple of times.”

“It’s not that I mean any harm.”

“Yeah, it can’t be too much. I hope.”

“I’m just teaching them to be cautious of people.”

“It doesn’t need to come from you though.”

“I’m just witty, that’s a better word.”

“Alright! Witty master.”

She’s totally not on the same terms as him and he’s perturbed. “Are you mad at me about something?”

She gets the cola and opens it, not looking at him. “Nope.”

“Is there something I need to know?”

“Not a thing,” she drinks the cola, still not looking at him.

He stares at her as she eats the sandwich. “What?” she retorts, not even glancing at him.

He sighs and gives up, “Alright, I’ll just freshen up. Are we still going out tonight?”

“Yeah. Wherever you want to,” she replies in monotone.

He just shakes his head cuz it seems like she’s having mood swings. He walks into his room to take a quick shower. After he’s gone, she sighs on herself too.

“Ah… this is frustrating,” she murmurs.

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He’s just gone out of the bath with the towel hanging over his shoulders and another piece of towel circling his waist. He’s basically naked and he didn’t expect to see his girlfriend standing by the entrance of his room waiting for him.

“Did I take too long?” he’s confused.

“No, I just wanted to talk to you,” she’s bowing and it looks like she has something serious to talk to him about.

“What’s it about? I’ll just put some clothes on. You can wait for me at the living room.”

He searches for something to wear in the closet when he just feels her wrapping her arms around him from the back. She’s tightly holding him, like never letting him go. So he’s really confused.

“Do you not want me?” she murmurs loud enough at his broad back.

“What?!” he’s taken aback by her sudden question.

She slowly lets go and he turns around to face her. She’s displaying an upset, weak and helpless face that’s so hard to ignore. She’s basically telling him to take her, well, that’s how it appears to him. Though it’s not precisely what she has in mind.

“Don’t you find me attractive?” she’s staring up and into his eyes, probing to find the answers she’s looking for.

“Is this why you’ve been moping lately? What is this interrogation for?” he’s really puzzled to what has made her do this.

“Just answer my question!” She’s getting annoyed now, frowning before him.

“What?” he’s finding it a little amusing, it’s making him smirk. But he answers her nonetheless, “Yes. You are attractive. You are the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen.”

Hearing him say such embarrassing words somehow calms her down a bit. He hasn’t told her she’s pretty before, only now. So she takes a step back bowing away from him.

Jeonghan sighs seeing she’s calmed down a little. So he asks her what it really is about. “What are you thinking right now? Let me know, so I can do something about it.”

She’s finally realized how humiliating it is for her to ask him about this issue that she backs out in a split second. Hearing him say she’s pretty is enough for her knees to crumble. Not to add that he’s almost naked infront of her.

“Nothing. It was nothing,” she can’t look at him anymore and she jerks to go out of the room after being bold enough to barge on him in his state.

But he doesn’t let her go. He lays his arm before her, grabbing her waist gently before she can even take a step to the door. He holds her infront of him now, circling her waist and pressing her body against him carefully. He looks down at her surprised face, facing up to him.

“No, it wasn’t nothing,” he says staring into her eyes.

She gulps her mouth waters as her heart rumbles. She’s put this upon herself. She needs to face the consequences. It’s not like she doesn’t really want it.

“I just… want you to kiss me more, hold me more. I don’t want you keeping your distance from me. Yes, we live in the same house, but it feels like you’re still too far away. I don’t want us to live like this. This house is ours. And we should live in it together,” she tells him finally.

He’s getting the point. Maybe he overdid it. He overdid avoiding her touch to escape his demons. And maybe it made her feel that he cares less, that he feels less for her. That he’s not so much into her. He slowly releases her and caresses her face.

“I was just being careful. I just don’t want you to think I’m some kind of monster. I just don’t want to scare you away. Cuz you have no idea how much I want you,” he explains.

Suddenly she feels a little nervous. Now she’s getting the hang of it. She only wants some more cuddles and kisses but he wants something way more than that. They’re definitely not on the same terms. It’ll be a little hard to balance what they have in mind, she’s afraid.

“And doing this right now, I don’t think I can help myself if you stay here with me longer,” he adds.

He’s staring down at her with so much passion that it makes her heart almost explode. Now she’s grasping the depth of her actions. She’s not ready, not just yet.

But before she could take a step back, his desires are one-step ahead of her fears. He shoves his head and gives her a sweet kiss, grabbing her nape along with it. She can’t even resist him. Her knees grow weak the moment his lips laid on hers. The gentleness in his kiss is making her head spin. She’s getting intoxicated.

But little by little it becomes a bit more demanding. He’s slowly losing his cool. He kisses her even more passionately, involving his tongue exploring the insides of her mouth. It’s getting a bit steamy. She’s somewhat surprised, but she lets him. She’s too vulnerable to stop him. The feeling of his arms all over her is making her feel weak.

A few moments later, things are getting out of hand. He’s touching her at places he hasn’t before. It happens to fast, she just couldn’t stop him. He’s now groping her butt and another hand is roaming at her back, under her shirt. His body is tightly pressed against hers and though she doesn’t want to think it, she’s already feeling something hard poking on her stomach from beneath the piece of cloth. Now she’s a little disturbed. This is not what she asked him for.

Worse, he pushes her gently down the bed, him sprawling his guts all over her. From then, he brings his kisses down her neck, lapping at her skin. His right hand has found its way under her shirt again, now fondling one of her mounds. It shocks her when he suddenly does it, but she can’t even move him. He’s too immersed in his own needs. And with how he pins her wrist flat on the bed carefully with the other hand, it doesn’t seem like he’s willing to stop anytime soon.

“Wait… Jeonghan-ah…” she murmurs. It’s hard for her to even slow him down when she’s feeling hazy herself. This feeling is crazy and good but she doesn’t want this to go on just yet. They have yet to know each other more and there are even more things they have to unravel with each other. So she tries to get her hands free but he’s too obsessed about her neck, going down to her cleavage. So she finally let out a whimper as she softly struggle, “Wait! Stop!”

But with just that word, he returns to his senses and stops what he’s doing. It’s hard, he feels like breaking, but he has to. Cooperatively, he gets off her and sits on the bed on her side, catching his already haggard breath. She calms herself down first and follows up, sitting beside him, clutching her chest, with the very rapid beating of her heart.

“I’m sorry,” he apologizes looking down on the floor. “I know I overdid it. Hope you’re not mad at me.”

She glances at him with wary eyes and replies, “I’m not mad. I was just… shocked for a moment there.” Silence takes over for a few seconds but she resumes it quickly. “I hope you’re the one not angry.” She looks at him now, with sorry eyes. “I’m sorry I’m just not ready yet.”

He turns to her and just can’t help but feel sorry for himself. She’s too cute right now, saying sorry for something she’s not supposed to. He forces a smile, guilt creeping inside him. “No, you don’t have to say sorry. It was my fault,” he says then he reaches her face and caresses it.

“Hm…” she nods at him with almost teary eyes. “I should get ready too. I’ll just wait for you outside.”

“Yeah.”

Quickly, she almost runs out of the room. And after she left, he just smirks shaking his head. His girlfriend is a little silly isn’t she? It’s cute, he’s loving her even more. But he sighs right after. Honestly, that was really dangerous. He wants her but if she doesn’t want to, his thirst will just have to wait. He can’t afford to do things she doesn’t want to just because of his raging hormones. Furthermore, he’s not really this type of monster. Just now, it’s a shame that he couldn’t help himself. He feels like he’s slowly obsessing over her, which should not be the case. So he should try to be content with how things are and be patient. He can’t hurt her. He sighs again. He recalls that night she first spent in his room. Those bruises and marks were not supposed to be there and he’s gonna find out whoever did that to her. For now, all he has to do is protect her from himself and treasure her, not because he wants her, but because he loves her.

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From then on, Jeonghan will occasionally make out with her. He will cuddle with her, snuggle and simply make her feel needed and wanted. Even though it will sometimes get out of hand, he knows how to handle it. Seunghee is happy. She gets what she wants and is more than satisfied. She doesn’t even have to tell him off anymore everytime he overdoes things. It’s convenient for both of them, now that they understand each other more.

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TO BE CONTINUED…

Published: 01/26/18