Jack pov

I lie in my and Mark's bed, sleep being one of the last things on my mind.
I don't think I can take this much longer.
It hurts so bad to know that I'm keeping this from him, his life would be so much better if I just wasn't in it.
I carefully stood off of the bed, making sure I wouldn't wake Mark up. I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, but all I saw in the reflection was a monster.
Flows of tears streamed down my face as I looked away from the mirror, sick of my face and never wanting to see it ever again.
A few more moments of me crying before I looked into the room to see him.
An angel sleeping soundly, his heart innocent and loving and trusting.
Then I decide to do the fooking scariest thing I could ever imagine.
I got out a piece of paper and a pen.
And wrote the message that sealed my death. More tears streamed down my face and some hitting the paper as I wrote my heart and soul out. Saying 'I love you' for the last time.
When I finished I set the note on the side of our bed on Mark dresser.
I looked down at his peaceful face, I leaned down and placed one last kiss on those beautiful lips that I would not get to touch ever again. I hugged him as tightly as I could and stood up to leave.
"Baby? What's wrong," I hear his gorgeous, raspy voice say, almost making me want to not do what I'm about to do.
I turn to him and smile weakly.
"Nothing baby, just got the midnight munchies... Go back to sleep ok," I said walking over to him and hugged him again, it was so hard not to break down and cry in front of him.
He slowly nods before yawning then falling back asleep, I stay by his side for a while, silent tears just falling on the floor.
I stood and walked to the door, I looked back at him one more time before closing our door, going out the house, and dissappearing.

In the morning
Mark pov

I slowly woke up and reached to the side of me so I could hug Jack.
Only, instead of feeling the skinny warm skin of my love, I felt an empty space. I opened my eyes in confusion to see he wasn't there, must be in the kitchen or something. Even while thinking that I also thought, but then why is it so quiet. I slowly stood from the bed and trudged downstairs.
He wasn't there either.
At this point I was starting to get worried, I frantically searched the whole house while calling his name over and over again.
"What's going on," Dark and Anti asked as I entered their room.
"I can't find Jack," I said before leaving and checking everywhere again to see if I hadn't missed anywhere.
Dark and Anti came out and started searching with me. As they cover downstairs, I head back to our room, only to find a piece of paper on my dresser that I hadn't noticed before.
I walked to it and started reading it.

Dear Mark

Your probably wondering right now why I'm not in our room, or even the house in fact.
It's because I just couldn't keep this secret anymore, it was eating me drop the inside out. But I knew you'd be heartbroken if I told you, so I just kept my mouth shut.
But I can't take it anymore.
Mark there's something ive- we've (me, Dark and Anti) been keeping from you. While you were at pax one night... I don't know, maybe I was just feeling really lonely or something but... Dark and Anti decided to play a little trick on me... And long story short...
We had sex together.
I'm so sorry that I couldn't tell you in person, I'm a true coward, I just couldn't stand to see the face you might make.
I'm so sorry Mark.
You probably hate me right now but I can assure you, I love you with all the little broken pieces of my heart.
I don't deserve someone as good as you, and you don't deserve a monster like me.
So.
To make this easier for all of us.
I left, I'm going to go find away to end my pathetic life so you can be happy.
Cause I know you won't be if I am alive.
So once again.
I love you really really much and I hope your life turns out better than it was with me.

Sincerely
Jack

I crumpled the piece of paper in my hand as tears rolled down my face.
I didn't want him to go, even if he did do this, I still love him so much and I don't want to loose him.
I throw the paper on the floor and look for Dark and Anti.
Don't worry Jack, I'll find you, and I'll protect you even if you think I won't

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