Clara's POV

So I sang in front of Luke.

Big. Fucking. Deal.

Right?

Okay maybe it actually is one.

I mean, he's my first real audience. Not even my bestfriend knows I like to sing. And I have stage fright, for God's sake. How come I felt at peace when I was doing a performance in front of Luke? This is weird.

Why is it weird?

"You're quiet today." Luke said. "It's freaking me out."

"Why? Because you're used to having a raging motor-mouth as a roommate?" I snapped at him.

He grinned at me and said, "That's more like it."

I scoffed and stabbed my lunch with my fork.

By now, you're probably guessing that I'm having a bad day.

Yes, I am.

The red flag of womanhood is hoisted.

Good news though. No fake dates were planned and I'm staying at our room.

Bad news. Luke's staying with me. Having lunch.

"Alright fine" he said as he dropped his utensils and looked at me. "What is bothering you?"

I glanced up at him with squinted eyes.

So he has conscience after all.

Oh. What am I thinking about? Of course Luke has conscience. Much as I like to deny it. I mean, he did give me the bed 2 nights ago even when he won it fair and square.

With another one of his kiss.

Which was pretty amazing.

That kiss was so very-----

"Are you alright?" Luke asked again, this time with real concern in his eyes.

"'m fine." I mumbled.

"You don't look fine."

"Oh yeah. Sure. I don't look fine. When have I ever looked fine to you?" I snapped, again.

"That's not what I meant!"

"Oh shut up, Luke."

"What the hell is your problem?" His previous concern for me vanished as he raised his voice. "What is the problem that made you so impossible today when you were just fine yesterday?"

"Everything, Luke! Everything is my problem! It all comes crashing down to me!" I shouted back.

"Jesus." he stood up and walke out. "I don't have time for this."

With a loud slam of the door, I was alone.

Oh God.I feel guilty.

I abandoned our lunch and sat on the bed.

Then the emotional tears started to flow as I felt the numbing paing across my abdomen. I would call someone to get me the stuff I need but my fuCKING PHONE IS ACROSS THE ROOM AND EVERYTIME I MOVE MY BODY STIFFENS AT THE SURGING PAIN.

Oh my God. I miss Finn sooooo bad.

He would sense my distress and then snuggle next to me to make this all better.

And there goes another set of tears.

Urgh.

Damn hormones and mood swings all over the place.

One would think I'm pregnant.

After a good 3 hours of sobbing and clutching my stomach, Luke came back carrying a brown paper bag.

I wanted to apologize for my outbreak a while ago but he cleared hs throat and spoke before me.

"I'll uhh...I'll leave this here for you." he said as he dropped the bag on the table.

"Luke, I'm sorry for being an ass earlier." I told him. "I have this uhmm.....this thing."

"I know." he said.

"What?"

"Well, I didn't know before. Then Nicole explained it to me so...I got you these." He gestured at the bag with unknown stuff.

He went to Nicole.

Oh.

Of course. He went to Nicole. She's really nice and pretty. Everybody goes to her for help.

Wait.

What?

Am I jealous?

!!!!!

"So...uhh...I'll be at Calum's. I-if you need me."

I nodded and then he left.

I sat there. Staring at the bag across from me. The bag which includes the things that apparently Nicole told Luke I'd need. I reached out my hand and brought the paper bag closer to me.

Oh my God.

Luke got me all kinds of pads and tampons and pain relieving medicines. He even added a pack of Hershey's kissed.

Oh my God.

I can only imagine Luke browsing the aisle with all the feminine products in front of him. He was probably confused on what to get so he grabbed everything. The poor guy. It must've been traumatic to buy all those products for me. He can be really sweet sometimes. It's so cute.

I smiled to myself as I walked over to the bathroom and put the things Luke got me to use. I have to tell you, I felt better.

I just have to ignore the fact that Luke went over to Nicole for help. And I guess I shouldn't blame anyone since I was the one who was being "impossible" at Luke.

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The boys are recording again. So I have to go with them. I don't do much which is more than fine. I got to watch one of my favorite bands record music. Which is great.

AND they even let me wander around the studio. I always end up in the piano room though. Which is where I currently am.

I was alone so I get to facetime with Leo. And Finn, of course.

"Can you just please send me a picture of Calum's ass? Up close?"

"Leo! STop it! It's embarrassing! And I don't thing Luke would be too happy about that." I rolled my eyes at my bestfriend.

"It's only for me! I'm not going to post it anywhere! Come on, Clara!" he kept begging.

"NO. And that's final."

"At times like this, I find myself hating your stubbornness, Clara."

"Yeah, well. It's part of my charm." I smiled at him. "Anyway, what's happening over in LA?"

"Not much." he said. "Oh I'm an intern at an advertising company. My cousin, Parker, gave me his old apartment coz he has a new one in Seattle. And uhmm...your evil step sister Florence is spreading rumors.Bad rumors.

What did she do now?

"Enlighten me."

"Florence said that she was the one who hooked up with Luke first and that you stole him from her."

"Oh that insufferable bitch!" I raised my voice.

"My thoughts exactly." he nodded, empathetically.

"D-did people believe her?"

"I don't know. But half the school is her personal army of teenage hormones, so you do the calculations."

"Well, we're in London so that shouldn't affect us, right?"

"Possibly. And by the way, have you seen the picture of Luke buying tampons and pads? I'm guessing those were for you since I specifically remember the exact time period where you have you period." Leo stopped talking and shook his head. "Sometimes I loathe my great memory."

I giggled and said, "I have got to see those pictures."

"They're all over the internet. Memes have been made."

"Okay, then. I have to go, Leo."

"Alright."

"I'll call you later. Take care of Finn for me."

"You know I gave you the dog for a reason."

"Bye Leo." I smiled and waved at the screen. Then I logged out of facetime.

Leo was right. Luke's pictures were all over the internet. I was in the middle of laughing at a joke that a fan made about Luke when someone cleared their throat behind me.

"Something funny?" Luke asked as I saw him lean against the door frame.

"Of course. Otherwise, I wouldn't be laughing." I said.

"What is it?"

I grinned, "Are you aware that there's pictures of you on the internet buying feminine producs for me?"

He groaned and said, "Nicole said it woulf be a good idea to help the image of me being a great boyfriend."

Oh. I'm back to being in a bad mood just like that.

It was a publicity stunt.

"You needed them anyway." he added.

"Right." I said, dismissively.

It was silent for a moment. Then Luke said something.

"We better get to the hotel. Our flight to Australia leaves on 10 am tomorrow."

"Okay." I nodded as I followed him out.

The thoughts on my mind were constantly reminding me that this whole thing with me and Luke is just an act. A publicity stunt. Just like the whole feminine products thing. Which I found very sweet at first but now that I know the truth that he really didn't thought of it by himself, I felt kind of sad.

And when we've cleared Luke's name, there will be nothing else between us. So this "feelings" have nowhere to go but to disappear. There's no point in holding on to it anyway.

Everything is an act.

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A/N:

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oh and there are some girls with really bad periods and would also have mood swings like Clara. I know some of them and it is brutal when THEIR red flags of womanhood are hoisted.

anyway, you guys rock. tanks fronds.