"We don't care about the grades". Sure, mom. Because you obviously didn't just scold me in the middle of school because I failed physics. Thank you for embarassing me in front of my teachers, that's exactly what I needed. Thank you for never supporting me and not even noticing my mentak health is nonexistent.

How have I not broken down, you ask?

I guess it's my fandoms, my idols, my favourite characters, the inside jokes and the safe feeling they transmit is what keeps me alive. They keep me warm when the only thing I receive from my mom is cold stares and sharp words that feel like stab wounds. They make me smile when I feel like curling up on the floor and crying until I died. They give me strength to face the world. I owe my life and happiness to them.

So, thank you. Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for all the love. Thank you thank you thank you.