Summary : Just after the night when thugs break into the mansion . AKA the discussion you've all been waiting for .

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It was late at night , Harry was in the office working at his desk . The lights were mostly dimmed , he typed on his keyboard while reading information from papers he was given by his cyber security team - information about the thugs who broke into the mansion .

Louis was asleep in the room behind the shelves . He managed to fall asleep after forcing himself to stay awake for a long time ; he fell asleep at seven p.m , after being awake for over twenty four hours . He was exhausted .

Harry stayed with him as he fell asleep ; tucked him into bed , laid next to him over the blankets and held him . Louis was out quicker than Harry thought it would take him .

It was eleven p.m , Harry busied himself with working for the past four hours , glancing up towards the shelf-case , which was pushed inwards into the wall to reveal the short corridor leading to the hidden bedroom , where Louis was sleeping .

He finished typing his section of the report and collected the papers that were scattered over his desk , standing up to grab something to drink .

Louis was brought out of his nightmare with a full body flinch , his eyes snapped open . It took him a few seconds to take in his surroundings and realize that he was awake , and that what happened was only a dream .

He was covered in sweat but was shivering from being cold , his clothes stuck to his body as he sat up in bed . He felt the anxiety and panic from the nightmare still bubbling inside his chest , and before he knew it , tears started running down his cheeks .

He pulled his knees to his chest and covered his face with his hands , a whimper leaving his lips , then more soft cries he just couldn't keep in .

Harry stood still in his spot as he listened closely ; he thought he heard Louis moving in bed . His heart clenched in his chest when he heard Louis' whimper , followed by soft , muffled cries . He abandoned his freshly made cup of coffee and walked into the hidden bedroom .

He said nothing as he sat on the edge of the bed and wrapped his arms around Louis , the painful feeling in his chest only growing by the second . He gave Louis a gentle squeeze , just about to pull him into his lap , but Louis was moving out of his arms with slow , trembling moves .

"Baby ." Harry tried to reach for him again , though Louis moved his hands away and got up from bed , still crying quietly .

Harry stood up aswell , a frown on his face as he watched Louis walking into the bathroom and closing the door behind him . His heart cracked at the sound of the the lock twisting .

He walked over and held onto the doorframe with both hands , knuckles turning white from the tight grip he had around it . "Baby , talk to me . I can't stand knowing you're upset . I'm here , let me be here for you ."

He leaned his forehead on the door , face pinching at the sound of Louis crying fom behind it . 

"L-Let me be alone . Please . I w-want to be alone for now ." Louis managed to say through his crying . "Pl-Please go ."

Harry brought one of his hands to his mouth , biting on his knuckles harshly before standing up straight and moving away from the door . He sat on the foot of the bed , torturing himself as he listened to Louis' cries .

He wanted to break the door down , wanted to grab Louis and comfort him and assure him that he would do anything to help . He held himself back , taking in the painful feeling that was growing and growing in his chest .

He wasn't sure how long he sat there , but slowly Louis' cries quietened to whimpers , then he was sniffling and blowing his nose a few times . Then it was quiet .

Louis was knackered from crying , eyes red and cheeks salty . He sat there on the floor , back against the cabinets and knees pulled to his chest , before picking himself up .

He went to the bathtub , it was ellipse shaped and placed against the large glass windows . Thankfully you couldn't see inside the bathroom through those windows , though he was still suspicious and shy .

He started filling the tub with hot water , then went to the cabinet and pulled out a bathbomb with the colours of light green , dark forest green , white and sparkles . While he waited for the bath to fill he prepared his large towel and large robe , placing the two in the mini-dryer .

He made sure his loofah , body soap , shaving razor and exfoliation glove were all at the edge surrounding the tub , before he added the bath bomb .

Once his hot bath was ready he took his clothes off and got into the tub , sinking into the warm feeling , the scent of the bath bomb filled the air .

He cried for a bit more , arms wrapped around himself as his knees curled upwards . He let out his tears until there were no more left , then moved on to his shaving routine .

He started with the loofah and soap , running it all over his body . He washed himself properly to get rid of the sweat , then took the exfoliation glove and rubbed his skin to make it smooth . He took the shaving razor and took his time shaving his legs , arms , under his arms , and the tiniest bit that grew on his chest . He didn't like having hair on his body , or his face .

Once he was done he took the soap again , though using his hands to run the soap over his smooth skin . Cleaning himself up always made him feel a bit better , putting his focus on something else and treating himself a bit seemed to work for him .

He put the soap away and looked over to the bathroom door , specifically the bottom of it . He wanted to let Harry into the bathroom , though had no intention to get out of the tub until the water was too cold .

"Harry ..?" He called , though his voice was a bit scratchy and quiet . He heard shuffles from the bedroom before he could see Harry's shadow from under the door . "Baby ."

"D-Do you -- have a key ? To get in ?" Louis asked almost shyly . "I - I'm in the tub ."

"Yes , I'll be right with you ."

Louis listened to the shuffles behind the door , before the lock twisted and Harry walked into the bathroom . He closed the door behind him and walked over to the tub , kneeling at the end of it so he was facing Louis . He laced his arms on the tiled edge of the tub , a frown on his face and hair messy from running his fingers through it multiple times .

"I - ... I had a nightmare ." Louis said quietly , glancing up at Harry before looking down to where his knees showed from the coloured water .

"I figured ." Harry nodded . "Do you want to tell me about it ?"

Louis shook his head , swallowing thickly . He looked up at Harry , noticing that he was trying to hide the pinched look trying to crawl over his face .

"Stop ." Louis whimpered sadly and shook his head , feeling tears stinging his eyes once again .

Harry gave him a confused look , he was about to open his mouth but Louis beat him to it .

"I know what you're thinking . Stop it ." Louis sat up a bit in the tub , "You have to stop blaming yourself ."

"Who else is there to blame ?" Harry shook his head . "You have nightmares because I wasn't careful enough . Because I let such horrible fucking thing happen ."

"See ? Always blaming yourself ." Louis sniffled and leaned back . "I don't tell you about my nightmares because you always insist that you're to blame ."

"I don't want you to keep it in , I want you to talk to me about anything and everything . Even if it hurts me . I'll take it ." Harry looked into his eyes with sincerety . "I will never force you if you don't want to . But baby , I need you to know you can tell me everything ."

"I can . B-But I don't want to ." Louis shook his head and wiped his cheeks from tears , "Not because I don't trust you - I trust you with my everything . It's because I know you well enough to know that you'll find a way to put the blame on yourself ."

"I don't want you to keep it in ." Harry repeated . "Talk to me . Talk to someone ."

The room was quiet for a bit , only Louis' sniffles filled the room .

"Baby ."

Louis looked over to Harry at the nickname .

"Can I come closer ?"

The question made him smile a bit , he nodded and wiped his cheeks while Harry moved to the side of the tub to kneel closer to Louis . He put one arm on the edge around the tub , bringing his free hand to move Louis' fringe from his forehead .

Louis turned a bit on his side to face him and leaned into his soft touch ,  Harry leaned in and kissed his forehead .

"What do you think about seeing a therapist ?"

Louis looked up at him , "A therapist ."

"Yes . A therapist ." Harry confirmed , "Someone to talk to , someone who isn't me . Someone who could give you tools to handle yourself - I'm a bit biased and have my own point of view of how things should go and be done ."

Louis held his bottom lip between his teeth , thinking Harry's words over . But then a small smile crawled on his lips . "You actually have someone you trust enough for this ?" He asked , only half playfully .

Harry gave him a small smile aswell , "Yes . She's a close family friend , my mother and her were very close . Her name is Helene ." He nodded . 

Louis nodded , "I'll think about it . Sounds ... sounds like a solution ."

"Wanted to ask you to get one for a while ." Harry admitted . "You're strong , but you need that support . I will give you everything you will ask from me , and for a while I did do my best to be there . I'm still here - I'll always be here . If you need someone to talk to - and it can't be me - I will do everything to make sure you have the best alternative ."

Louis moved closer , he held onto the edge of the tub with one hand to steady himself , his other hand cupping Harry's face as he kissed him . Harry melted into the kiss and held Louis' hand to his face with his hand , "I love you ."

"I love you ." Louis said into the kiss ,only pulling back when a shiver ran through his body .

Harry kissed his palm , "I'll get your robe ." He stood up and fetched the rove from the mini-dryer , holding it open for Louis to step into . He watched as Louis carefully climbed out of the tub and into the robe , slipping his arms into the sleeves as he shivered .

Louis closed the robe around himself to stay warm , tying the belt around himself while turning around to face Harry . He looked up at him , Harry's hands held his waist , "Feeling better ."

"Much ." Louis nodded , "I'll just - I need to put on my body lotion . I exfoliated and , and shaved , so ehm ... I --"

"Can I help ?" Harry let a smirk spread on his lips as he pulled Louis closer , Louis' cheeks turned pink , "Maybe ." But then he remembered something , making him cross his arms between their chests , "Wait no , you always tickle me when you help ." He pouted a bit . 

Harry's smirk widened , "I can never resist , baby ." He leaned down to press their noses together , "But I'll make it up to you . I'll treat you ." He kissed him tenderly , "Make you feel good ."

Louis gave him a shy smile , "Okay ."

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~Author