Summary : A peek into Louis' life going to therapy .

DISCLAIMER : I am not a therapist , nor do I go to a therapist . Do not take anything I write here as advice , I am not a professional and I am not trying to educate or advice to anyone !!

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Harry parked the Range Rover outside the building and looked over to Louis , who was in the passengers's seat fumbling with his sweater paws and biting his lower lip .

"Baby ." Harry took his hand , "There's nothing to worry about . Helene is very lovely , and I won't go anywhere too far - I'll be around the streets here with my guards ."

Louis nodded at his words , Harry kissed his knuckles before releasing his hand so they could step out of the car . Harry locked the car and put his arm around Louis , they walked into the building and went up the elevator to the fourth floor .

They stepped out of the elevator and took a turn right , going into the lobby of the office . Louis went to the front desk , "H-Hi . I have an appointment with Helene , the therapist . I'm Louis Tomlinson ."

The woman behind the desk nodded and clicked the computer mouse a few times , then nodded , "Mrs. Horlyck will be ready to see you in a few minutes . You can sit right here , she'll step out of the room and call your name shortly ."

Louis nodded and said a small 'thank you' , then went with Harry to sit on the chairs outside Helene's room .

Harry put his hand on Louis' leg , "Want to tell me what's making you so nervous ?"

Louis leaned his head on Harry's shoulder , "First meetings are always awkward . A-And - and she's a stranger , and I know that talking about everything makes me emotional and cry . I hate crying in front of people I don't trust ."

"It is her job though . She sees people cry all the time , and she knows how to handle this . Let her do her job , and you do yours ."

Louis nodded a bit , staying silent . He smiled softly when he felt Harry caressing his thigh to calm him down , he leaned into the touch and focused on his breathing to calm himself down .

Minutes later the door opened and a woman with blonde hair stepped outside , her eyes fell in the couple and her smile widened , "Oh you grew up beautifully , haven't you ."

Harry stood up from his seat with Louis right after him , he approached Helene and gave her a short hug , "Good to see you ."

Helene smiled up at him , "Good to see you too . It's been a while . I'm not complaining , you're proper busy and everyone knows that ." She then turned to Louis and held her hand out , "Hi , Helene Horlyck ."

"Louis ." Louis shook her hand with a smile , still a bit nervous .

"Come on in , let's chat up a bit ." She smiled and walked into the room , leaving the door open for Louis to follow her .

Harry cupped Louis' face and kissed him quickly , "Go , I'll be here when you're finished ." He gave him one more kiss and nudged him to go into the room , watching as he closed the door behind him .

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Harry was back at the building a few minutes before Louis' session was finished , he spent the time walking around the area with his guards , showing their presence (and maybe marking their territory to scare away bad guys) .

He sat outside the room and checked the time , sending a quick text to Liam before putting his phone back in his pocket . He crossed his arms over his chest and leaned back in his seat , waiting patiently for Louis

Minutes later the door opened , Louis stepped out with Helene . Harry stood up from his seat , feeling his heart clenching in his chest at the sight of Louis' red eyes and cheeks .

"I'll see you next week ." Helene caressed Louis' arm , he nodded and said a quiet 'thank you' , before Helene went back into her room and closed the door behind her .

Harry stepped forward and put his arms around Louis , holding him tightly to his chest , "Was it a good first session ?"

Louis nodded into his chest , though didn't speak ; he still had an emotional lump in his throat from crying . He took a deep breath as Harry squeezed him , closing his eyes to relax .

Harry pressed a kiss to the top of his head , "Let's go get some ice cream . Sounds good ?" He asked in a whisper , "I'll buy you a tub and we'll go home and eat it ."

Louis pulled his head up to look up at him , "It's not even noon yet - I thought you had work at the office ."

"I'll do it later from home ." Harry shook his head and pulled Louis along , his arm wrapped around his back , "Let's go buy ice cream ."

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The sessions became a routine ; For a few weeks Louis had a therapy session with Helene once a week . After almost three months , when Helene saw a big improvement , they made it once every three weeks .

Harry dropped Louis off and picked him up from every single session ; he wanted to be there , show Louis that he is there for him . He also made it a regular occasion , that after every session he and Louis would get something sweet ; ice cream , hot chocolate , iced chocolate , milkshakes - anything Louis wanted .

It hurt Harry's heart to see Louis with red eyes after every session ; a lot of the times he cried after the session too , and Harry was always there to hold him and comfort him .

Today was like every other day of a therapy session ; Harry dropped Louis off and ran some errands , then returned to pick him up .

Louis walked out of the room with Helene , he gave her a short hug and turned to where Harry was stood waiting for him .

Harry held his hand out , Louis took his hand silently and the couple walked out of the building . It was mostly silent ; Harry could feel Louis' tension and he hoped nothing was wrong .

Once sat inside the Range Rover , Harry switched it on and turned to look at Louis . "How was it today ?" He asked gently as he put his seatbelt on .

Louis followed his actions . "It was - it was good ." He stopped to take a deep breath . "We dug really deep in ."

Harry nodded as he pulled out of the parking spot , though said nothing - he knew that if Louis wanted to tell him , he would .

It was quiet for a bit , before Louis spoke again . "W-We talked about what would happen if I d-decided to leave . F-For good ."

Harry deflated .

Louis' eyes filled with tears once again and he shook his head , letting out a sob . "N-No -- Harry I d-don't want to leave . I don't ." He covered his face as he cried , forcing himself to breathe in and out to be able to speak . "W-We just talked about this h-hypothetically b-because I left once before . And I d-don't like thinking about this b-because I don't want to leave again ."

Harry swallowed thickly , his mind started running with thoughts but he shook out of it , snapping his head to Louis when he realized he was crying . He reached his hand out and grabbed Louis' wrist , "Baby don't cry . Breathe , you're okay . I know you don't want to leave , I know , baby ."

Louis slowly calmed down , he took his hands off his face and wiped his cheeks , sniffled and wiped his eyes . "I don't w-want to leave again ."

"I know you don't , baby . It's good that you talked to her about this ."

"Sh-She offered that I t-tell you something about it ."

"Do you want to tell me ?"

Louis sniffled again and nodded . "C-Can I tell you when we get home ?"

"Of course ."

Harry drove straight to the mansion , without stopping for anything sweet like always - he promised himself he'd make Louis extra sweet hot chocolate with whipped cream ontop .

Once at the mansion , Harry told Louis to go upstairs and change his clothes into comfy lounge wear and wait for him in the lounge area , while he made him a cup of hot chocolate .

He carried the hot chocolate mug upstairs , seeing Louis sitting on the soft cloud couch wrapped up in a fluffy blanket . He placed the mug on the table and sat in front of Louis , who sat up to face him .

Louis looked down at his lap , then looked up to face Harry . "When Helene and I talked , I -- I told her something that I haven't told you . A-And she offered that I tell you this ."

Harry nodded quietly as he waited for Louis to continue .

"I feel guilty f-for what you went through wh-when I was gone . How you treated yourself , how things ended up for you ." Louis said in a quiet voice .

Harry scooted closer . "You are not to blame . You left to take care of yourself - and I will always support this decision of yours . What I went through is because I didn't know what else to do - and you are not to blame . We were dependent on each other and needed to learn to be away , live separately ."

"Y-You weren't okay , though ." Louis' eyes got glossy once again . "A-And it was because I left you and I feel really guilty that you ruined yourself because of m-me ."

"Don't . Don't feel guilty . You are not guilty of anything . You did the right thing ." Harry held his face , "I needed to learn to be on my own again . I needed to learn what it was like to not have someone around . I needed to learn to be by myself . I needed to learn not to depend on you in order to live ."

Louis' bottom lip wobbled , Harry pulled Louis into his chest for a cuddle , "You did the right thing baby . You're not to blame for anything ."

Louis let his last tears out , he sighed as he pulled back from the cuddle and wiped his eyes . "I feel tired and it's only noon ." 

"Go take a nap , I'll wake you up later to eat ." Harry ran his fingers through Louis' hair .

"Can you nap with me ?" Louis held onto his arm , "I want more cuddles ."

Harry smiled softly and stood up from the couch , scooping Louis up in his arms and carrying him to their bedroom for a nap .

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