TW: mentions of miscarriage
I dozed off starring at Max, I had fallen asleep shortly after and as sleep took me away into the nights grasp a dream had occurred. Or what I thought would've been a dream.

I was back in my house, except it was like I unconsciously knew that I wasn't born yet. This was my mother was still alive and was newly wedded to my father. I watched her follow him with a desperate look on her face from an outsider point of view. It was as if I was watching some sort of deranged scene in a very fucked up movie. I watched as she tried to grab his arm demanding him to speak to her "Bradley please look at me! I'm sorry just speak to me I beg of you!" She beckoned as he snatched his arm back ignoring her. She screamed, demanding his attention as he grew fed up and turned quickly and smacked her across the face hard. I was shocked to see her barely even flinched and she stared at him wide eyed in anger. Her hair was a mess as well, as if she was pulling on it in anger earlier, she used to do that a lot when I was younger. My father screamed at her "YOU MUST KNOW YOUR PLACE AS A WOMAN! SHUT UP! YOU ARE ONLY TO SPEAK WHEN SPOKEN TO SO LEARN YOUR PLACE!" He shouted. I was disgusted to see him speak to her in such a way. Speak? No I redact my statement. This wasn't speaking, this was screaming at her in disdain and belittlement. I was furious by this treatment until my mother spoke in a stern yet oddly horrifyingly angered tone " I.AM . YOUR. WIFE! You can belittle me all you want but all I am to you is your wife, not your lover and therefore you are nothing to me but a sort of co-worker in a loveless marriage. Now I understand that you're busy but I regret to inform you that I am pregnant with your child" she said. My father replied by a simple nod " good, make sure it isn't a girl or else I will force you to abort it" He said as she stared shocked at his reply  " excuse me? If I have a girl I am keeping her!" She shouted "no you aren't...." He chuckled shaking his head thinking she was some idiot "it's my decision to keep her or not! How dare you!" She screamed as he sighed ignoring her and walked away.

Then there was a cut in the dream, it soon skipped to around her being five months pregnant. She walked over to his desk and placed the ultrasound scans on the desk as he looked up from his folder of statistics cocking a brow in a confused manner to see what it was. " Ultrasound scans?" He asked as she nodded "yes... a healthy baby girl" she said to which he instantly raged. He slammed his hands down on the desk and stood up screaming " WHAT?!" To which mother didn't flinch. She had grown used to his tormenting screams. "If god wishes for us to have a daughter then that is god's plan" She said. " GOD?! YOU DARE SAY GOD??" Father shook with anger, face turning red. " you dare say god? THIS IS THE WORK OF THE DEVIL! HOW DARE YOU SAY GOD TO LAUGH IN MY FACE?!" He shouted. Mother stood her ground, unfazed, unflinching, unscathed. " you're not keeping the baby" he said.  " what? Of course I am!" She said as he got in her face " NO YOU ARE NOT!" He shouted. "YOU ARE NOT TO SPEAK TO ME LIKE THAT!" She screamed back as he punched her so hard she fell to the ground. He noticed something as he laughed " not anymore you aren't" he smirked and stepped over her to walk out the room.  I forgot to mention that he didn't punch her in the face. No no. He punched her in the stomach. To which she fell in a pool of blood, her own blood. She screamed in pain and agony when she saw the blood. So loud that the servants rushed in to see her. She was immediately brought to the hospital where it had been pronounced that the baby was dead and she had miscarried.

Onto another cut of the dream, she had given birth to a baby boy. Me.  My father was in the delivery room and took me away from my mother immediately. " give me my son Bradley I beg of you..." she pleaded. But he ignored and kept me cradled in his arms. " his name will be Bradley." He told the nurse who looked at my mother who begun to scream " NO!" She insisted but he told the nurse " ignore her or else I will have you fired" he threatened to which the nurse looked scared and nodded "of course sir" she said rushing off.

Another cut to where I was 9 crying and begging my mother to stay home. Pulling on her dress trying to keep her home. I begged and begged as she screamed " I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! GET OFF!" She shouted as I grew scared. It was the first time I heard her scream at me. He flinched and stepped away from her as she was panting all misty eyed. She sped walked away as a servant approached me looking at me and then her as she shouted "ma'am? It's time for dinner. The masters family is here to await your presence!" She called as mother didn't look back "ma'am?" She called again as mother screamed "TELL THEM I'M NOT AT ALL WELL!"

Then everything drained into black as I begun to shake. I gasped as my eyes shut open and I looked up being awoken by none other than Tank " Yo Bradley, you good?" He asked concerned. I sighed in relief as I nodded " Yes yes I'm alright" I said before looking over to see Max sitting on the floor beside my bed with his head rested on my mattress sleeping. I cocked a brow confused on why he moved from the futon as Tank chuckled " you guys had fun last night?" He asked wiggling his brows "No we didn't, please don't joke like that" I sighed as I rubbed my temples annoyed. Tank cocked a brow and asked "nightmare?" As I sighed and nodded " yes" I said softly " you didn't take your medication huh?" He asked as I clasped my hands over my face and groaned " I knew I had forgotten something..." I said annoyed until I heard soft groaning. I looked over to see Max slowly wake up "oh... you're up" He yawned and stretched " yes? Why did you move here?" I asked him curiously " you were having a nightmare so I decided to hold your hand to calm you down. It worked for a little thankfully" He chuckled as I flinched and blushed horribly as my heart rate increased. " oh god..you didn't have to do that" I said as Max chuckled " why not? it was sort of cute the way you calmed down instantly" He smirked to which Tank gagged "ew gross..." and I gagged right after at the noise and shouted " TANK!" As I Tank laughed " OH MY GOD I FORGOT!" He shouted laughing at my reaction as I kicked him out and Max laughed shaking his head. He stood up and sighed " hey I'm going to head out. I'll see you in class later today though" he smiled as I looked at Max and nodded " of course" I chuckled. He waved goodbye as I started to get myself ready for the day. Taking a shower, brushing my teeth, combing my hair etc. I packed my bag with snacks so Max could eat and I went down stairs to grab a simple water bottle. The diet remains of course. No changing that.

But as It was time to walk to class I couldn't help but continuously think of my dream and how I could've had an older sister....