Bobby's POV))

I had spent all night thinking about Tank and that kiss. In my personal opinion a one night stand doesn't matter as much compared to when someone kisses you. I find a kiss to mean much more than just a simple peck on the lips, I might've been overthinking the kiss I had with Tank but still. I don't know if he does actually like me but having that kiss just brought upon me was like whip lash. I was genuinely shocked.

When I asked Tank if I could talk to him after class I acted cool in comparison to the others. They were all sort of stunned which means I wasn't just imagining things wasn't I? Tank nodded his head "sure man" he said before we entered class. I usually sit by Tank but today I didn't because I wanted to ask Max questions on what I should say when bringing up the topic to Tank. I didn't even know what I was gonna say all I knew was that I wanted to bring it up with him. In retrospect I looked like a dick by sitting away from Tank right after the kiss and I didn't even realize until half way through class.

Tank was sitting alone today since Bradley was with Max and I was mainly occupying Max today which I thought would piss off Bradley but instead Bradley was interested in the conversation too. They tried to reassure me that Tank was a good guy and wouldn't force me into a relationship which annoyed me because I knew Tank was a good guy. The only thing I'm concerned about is not hurting this guys feelings.

When it came to the end of the class though I realized I just had to improv and see where the conversation leaded us and when I tell you that I was shitting bricks. I was shitting bricks BAD!

I walked over to Tank who seemed a little upset " can we talk now?" I asked him gently as he sighed "yeah sure" he said in a obviously pissed off tone. Probably because we left him to sit alone.

We walked outside and decided that we should talk in a more private area. We walked all the way to this little coffee shop but still found it a little too public despite the coffee shop being underground etc. we walked behind it, into an alley way and we found a fucking forest with a little entrance to a hiking trail. We looked at each other and shrugged before walking in. Of course it was awkward since the walk took a good ten minutes and this coffee shop wasn't the Bean scene.

As we walked along this hiking trail I started to bring up conversation "soooo....about yesterday..." I causally brought up as he sighed "listen, I'm sorry I just got mixed signals and I won't do it again man I promise. But you don't have to go around avoiding me now dude" he mentioned as I perked up " bro no no no! I didn't mean to avoid you I was asking Max for advice on what to say. He didn't help at all but" I shrugged "okay... so are we cool?" He asked me as I nodded "yeah dude we're cool" I said as we found this open space with a few logs. We sat down on the logs and I took out a bong. I hit it to calm my nerves honestly. This conversation was gonna get deep in a second....

I offered Tank a hit which he took and as we let it settle in I took a moment to collect my thoughts. " I was thinking all night actually.... About the whole kiss thing..." I said while taking a shaky breath in and out. Tank noticed and said " dude we don't have to talk about it you know" he said as I nodded " I know but I feel like I have to explain myself. I was thinking about it and o sort of freaked out. I thought like 'I can't date Tank that's wrong' which isn't true at all.... It's not that I don't like you it's that I don't think you'd like me..." I said softly. He looked at me confused "why do you think that?" He asked me. I sort of went quiet for a moment. " I just.... I don't really like anything about me... I'm sort of used to being called the weird one and the ugly one of the group because I get stoned all the time. Pj has a girlfriend and Max has Bradley and used to have Roxanne, not only that but he's got like a bunch of fan girls now. I was used as a cover up for my ex girl because she was a lesbian which I knew after a while and I continued to be her cover up but I was also only used for sexual pleasure by this other girl who never really liked me for me. She was also insane she had like really bad attachment issues and she wanted to change everything about me. She said I wasn't perfect and I never would be with the way I looked. So I'm really scared that the only reason you like me is because we hooked up you know?" I said softly and then realized "I'm not saying that to insult you! But I just... I don't know you're this great guy and it's kind of hard to imagine you'd like someone like me" I said softly.

Tank held my hand which caught my attention "I don't like you because of that hook up Bobby, I like you because you listen to me and actually take me seriously, I like you because you're down with whatever bull shit hang out idea I have, I like you because you don't use me, I like you because you're also very good lookin. Don't forget that part" he chuckled which made me laugh softly. "In all honesty... I like you ever since the week after last years X-games. Max saved me from the fire so we shared that trauma bond. You on the other hand invited me in with a hug and forgot every bad thing I did immediately. You were so open and you made me feel like a genuine person instead of some pawn..." Tank said softly. I smiled gently as I looked at him. " I like you too man... it's just I push those feelings down because I really don't want to get hurt again.." I said as Tank chuckled "take all the time you need. I'm in no rush to date right now. I don't think I'll ever stop liking you though.. that's my only issue" Tank said softly which caused me to blush a little "it's not an issue. That just means we got more time to really think over things" I replied as I rested my head on the big guys shoulder.

As a joke I mentioned "soooo you wanna make out?" I asked "Nope, I learned my lesson. Not until we're dating" Tank snickered as I chuckled as well. ".... You're a really great guy Tank" I mentioned as he hummed "you are too Bobby" he said back as I snickered "I mean it. You're so harsh on yourself for no reason. You're an amazing person and everyone is fucking stupid not to realize" he comforted.

"Thanks Tank.... You're so sweet" I smiled as he said

"I'm just happy we're still good".....