Bobby POV))

Honestly man I was hella bored, I think the most exciting thing that's happened all week was seeing Max crying over Bradley low key. I mean that sounds sadistic and all but what the fuck? I didn't even know they got back in contact dude since when? I guess Bradley's dad called off the marriage or something dude I don't know.

But life got so boring, I don't hang out with Max and PJ like I used to ever since they got their little lovers. I just have kind of been feeling sort of... really lonely....

Don't get me wrong Im so stoked for Max and PJ because they're happy. Well PJ is, Max's relationship is going through a bunch of shit but he's really happy with Brad. They've been so pre occupied with their lovers that I sort of feel like I'm not exactly needed anymore... I wanna be supportive I really do but it's so hard to support your friends and not have them around at the same time.

I spend most of my days in the dorm by myself now or skating alone in the park.  I'm trying to not let it get to me even though I can't help but feel a little jealous of Stacey and Bradley since they took my friends. But they're good people, well Stacey is. Bradley is becoming a better person I'll give him credit for that.

What's sad is that it's 4 pm on a Friday and I'm just laying in bed. The trio used to always gather at the Goof's place and play video games til 3 in the morning but now they're just busy... I don't know I think I'm coming off as clingy but dude can you blame me? I thought college was going to be fun but I've never felt so alone in my life.

I spent the whole day just bed rotting. I haven't seen PJ or Max at all today.

I spent the whole Saturday bed rotting. Same thing as yesterday, I haven't seen my friends.

And now it's Sunday. I've been spending the whole weekend bed rotting. If I didn't have to go to class then I didn't need to get up. Not only that but mom hasn't called me in 2 weeks and I miss her a lot. Last time I heard from her she was getting better. She's currently 5 years sober and she recently got a boyfriend that's been treating her nicely. I've even talked to him and he seems super sweet and all but I'm kind of afraid to meet him. I don't want him thinking I'm weird and ruining things for my mom you know?

I say that because I didn't have any friends growing up besides Max and PJ. I knew I was the weirdo but I just lived on my own terms. I didn't wanna mask my personality because I didn't wanna feel trapped but it didn't get me anywhere really. My ex from high school broke up with me because of "college" since our schools are 5 states away. What sucks is that Max doesn't know my ex and Roxanne started dating but I don't think he'd care. Maybe he would be happy for those girls but who knows. He's too busy with Brad.

I kind of make it a point to not have bad endings to friendships or relationships. My other ex after graduation though was a complete psycho so that ended terribly but I try to not have that whole relationship weigh on my mind. But all this happening makes me feel like I just can't keep people around... is there something wrong with me?

Is it because I'm lazy? I'm dumb? I don't know I just try to be myself but I guess people don't like me for just being me. I don't want to say I hate myself but sometimes like right now it's been getting bad lately. That's also another reason why I don't like being alone. My thoughts get to me horribly.

It's currently Sunday, 11 pm. I haven't left the dorm once and I only get up because I'm hungry and will eat the left over pizza in the mini fridge we bought for the dorm.

I'll see Max pop on by sometimes through out the week and every time he does it's always about Bradley. He didn't ask me how I've been once... it's not his responsibility though but it just made me feel like he doesn't care about me...

Monday eventually arrived and I had to get up and get ready for my classes. I took a shower, brushed my teeth and grabbed a Red Bull. I could use the energy for today. Man did I need a joint and food bro. I'm starving, I can't believe I forgot breakfast today. Me being hungry through out class was the worst. I couldn't focus at all and I just wanted to go back into the dorms and sleep off the rest of the day. I didn't understand shit that whole class period but I was finally out after that 2 hour lecture.

When walking out I thought maybe I could grab a bite outside. Get some fresh air, that might be good for me.

I was trying to decide where to eat at and because I was distracted trying to figure out where to go. I had bumped into someone. I fell over so clearly I bumped into someone much bigger than me. Mid fall they caught my arm and were laughing "hey no need to go around falling for me sweet heart" a familiar voice spoke. I paused and looked up to see " Tank!! Man how are you dude?!" I asked with a smile plastered on my face. After having such a shitty weekend, seeing a familiar face brought joy.

Tank shrugged at my question "honestly sweet heart I'm starving. I'm trying to find a place to eat" he chuckled "dude same!" I smiled as he perked up "let's go grab grub together. I'm gonna head over there to grab pho if you wanna join" he offered "dude I can so fuck up some spring rolls right now." I snickered. "Man let's get going then!" Tank laughed wrapping his arm around my shoulder as we begun walking.

Tank was a vibe, I love that big guy he's so sweet despite his intimidating appearance. He knows how to make you smile on a bad day and will fuck up anyone who messes with his friends.

When we got to the restaurant, we were seated and given menus. I was low key debating on what I wanted. Tank noticed me being indecisive and he tried to direct me on what to get. His knowledge of food was crazy so I asked "do you know this much about food because you're a body builder?" I asked. He shook his head no and replied "my parents are chefs so you pick up a thing or two" he said. When the waiter came by Tank ordered for me. I sat there looking amazed at what he was ordering. It was a lot and yeah I could down that much food but I can't pay for all that!! When the waiter left I looked at Tank nervously "uhhh dude... I can't pay for all that!" I exclaimed as Tank cocked a brow "why do you think I didn't ask for separate checks?" He asked as I looked dumb founded "ummm..." I hummed trying to debate my answer as to why. He simply snickered and replied "it's on me sweet heart you don't have to worry about it" he said before winking at me.

Dude is such a good friend. So mad we didn't know each other earlier! And he was so sweet and shit like he talked to me about my interests, listened to me whenever I was down, gave the best hugs, paid for my meal now.

This guy is an amazing friend...